Hello! I'm back with another chapter. Sorry if it took awhile! :P
DISCLAIMER: Code Geass does not belong to me.
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Chapter 3: For The Second Time
After school, I walked Kallen home. She didn't ask me to, its' my own choice. As we arrived outside her doorstep, she turned to me.
"Thanks for everything today..." Kallen said. "...And for walking me home."
"Its' nothing." I said with a smile. That's a lame answer
"So, um, I'll see you tomorrow." she bid a goodbye and entered her house. I stood before the door for a while before walking my way home.
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Its' weird..I never expected it to happen. That moment we shared a while ago..it was so intense. I can't get it out of my mind. When my hand made in contact with her head, I felt the texture of her hair. It was so soft and silky, like I want to bury my hands and face into it. I was right. Denying the fact that my feelings for her have never left me won't do anything to make me feel better. I'll just feel more anxious and uncomfortable about everything.
The truth hurts. I'm slowly starting to fall in love with her.
That sentence is echoing in my mind all day. Falling for someone who hurted you in the past. Its' ironic isn't it? I really wanted her to be my girlfriend, but my heart says I shouldn't be up for that yet. I must develop my friendship for her. Who knows, maybe she and Gino might get back together again.
I wonder how long the pain will dwell inside me. I thought as I sat on my bed. I looked at my reflection at the nearby mirror What the heck has gotten into my mind? I already agreed that I won't let her barge into my life ever again and just see someone else. Yet now, my feelings for Kallen is starting to develop again. Just what do I really wanted to achieve? There were so many questions entering my head. No, not yet. She just my friend. Just my friend.
"Why is love even like this...tricking every heart that a person has.." I said under my breath. Then, I recieved a message. I checked my phone and the sender was Suzaku. I opened it up and it says:
Hey Lelouch! Sorry for my late text, I just woke up 5 minutes ago. I need to sit my fever out. Anyways, you wanted to ask me something right? What is it?
Perfect timing. I replied back:
Uh,yeah, its' fine. My question, how were you able to make your heart forgive the person who let you down?
From what I could remember, I just followed my instincts. That's all.
So, he just acted normally. Is it that easy for him to move on?
How many days does it take you?
It took me a couple of weeks to feel better..but it depends on how the person actually hurt you.
Now I can see it..
Right. Thanks,man
You got it. Anything else?
Yeah..I..gave her a second chance
I wasn't actually really happy when I texted that. He replied a few minutes later:
Wow! A SECOND CHANCE?! How come? I thought you're over her..
Gino broke up with her just today. But don't worry, my feelings for her returned BEFORE the breakup
I see. Well, that's strange..anyways, GTG. I need to study. Let's just talk about it tomorrow okay? I'll be going to school now since I'm feeling better. See ya!
Sure..see you as well.
Following my instincts with an injured heart takes struggle. How did Suzaku manage to recover from a heartache by just simply following his instincts? That guy really recovers fast from pains..even a fever. My mind rewinded back to the day I was completely heart broken. All those times..I often lock myself in my room and sulk all alone. Thinking about her every night before falling asleep and waking up with dry tears.
Do I really love her that much?
I yawned. Looks like dealing with my still love strucked conscience and a sick heart drained my energy. And the fact that Milly drove me into so much student council work. I laid down on my bed. Even if I'm still on my uniform, I don't care. I just want to sleep. Maybe it will make me feel better.
"I'll just close my eyes..for 10 minutes...yeah..ten minutes.." I muttered and immedietly fall asleep.
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1 hour later..
I woke up, still feeling drowsy. I looked at the clock and it seemd like an hour has passed. Geez, I don't get why I can't get out of bed for 10 minutes. I sat up slowly and rubbed the sleep off my eyes. Then suddenly, someone called. And I can't believe who actually called me.
Kallen.
I pressed the answer button "Y-yes?"
"Hey,its me."
"Hi, what's up? Feeling better?" I asked.
"A little. Anyways, I've thought about something. Since you have done a lot for me today, I..um..wanted to ask if you want to hang out after school tomorrow..."
She said..hang out. She said it right?
Hang. Out.
"Uh..s-sure! I don't see why not?" I responded lamely. Damn it, Lelouch..you're such a lame dude.
"Great. Thank you so much. Bye"
"Yeah,bye." I hung up. Now THAT was a coincidence.
However, I musn't get too excited for this. She already hurted me in the first place.
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Next Day: Ashford Academy
I walked through the school hallways ,finding my homeroom. Once I entered the classroom, I saw a familiar brunette guy that's sitting right beside my place.
Suzaku's here. I thought. I went over to my seat and sat back down.
"Welcome back, man" I greeted him with a smile.
"Its' good to be back again." Suzaku said. "How's your 'Kallen business'?"
"Its' going a bit uneasy.." I answered "She asked me to hang out with her later.''
"Now that's sweet.." he teasingly said. "I hope your heart will accept that."
"Yeah.." Honestly, I'm not sure. My heart is still kinda hurt, but I know the pain will go away soon. I hope.
( After class )
Once all my classes were cleared, I stood at the Ashford roof, waiting for her. So far, I'm experiencing these feelings that weren't meant to be felt when you're going out with a person who left you broken at some point. Nervousness and excitement. My heartbeats are going faster and my mind is in a complete disaster. I really CANNOT believe myself.
"I need to relax..otherwise I'll loose it." I said under my breath. I inhaled deeply to calm myself down and just looked at the view.
"Wow, you're early.." Kallen's voice reached my ears and I turned around.
I smiled "Yeah."
She walked to my side and turned her gaze at the scenery. "Its' beautiful." she said. "Do you think so?"
"Of course." I answered "I enjoy seeing it a lot."
There was a moment of awkward silence between before Kallen asked me something.
"Lelouch, have you ever experienced the feeling of being heartbroken?" she asked with a hint of sadness in her voice. I froze at her question.
"Uh.." I was in a loss of words. I looked into her eyes and my mind turned blank. "Actually I.."
"Sorry for asking this, but I just wanna know" Kallen said. I can see that she's about to tear up.
"No, I didn't." I lied. I WAS heartbroken. And SHE was the cause. If I tell her the truth, I would've hurt her more than the way Gino did. Even if I say I love her again, it won't work either. I'm NOT about to confess my feelings when she's like this.
''Ah, I see. You're quite lucky you know."
"Eh?"
"You don't have to waste your tears on some stupid breakup.." she stated. As far as I could notice, Kallen was trembling slightly. She was holding back her tears. "And you can laugh and smile without faking it.." this time, she let a lone tear escape.
Kallen must have been suffering a lot after breaking up with Gino. What should I do to make her happy then?
"Hey,now. Don't cry."
She wiped the tear off "Sorry, I can't help myself" then, she smiled sadly "I'm still a bit..upset..about what Gino did to me.." More tears flowed and she looked down to the ground. Her hair covering the sides of her face.
Oh no, she's gonna cry again. I better do something!
I took a step closer to her "Kallen..?" I called out her name in concern.
Really? Just her name? Do something else, darn it!
"Lelouch..I'm sorry. I just can't..." Kallen didn't get to finish when sobs suddenly wracked her body.
I can't believe I'm doing this..
Since I'm out of ideas to comfort her, I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her into a hug. I knew she stiffened a bit but I continued to do it anyway.
"Its' alright to cry." I said softly.
"Lelouch..thank you." I heard her say and she returned the hug.
After a few seconds, we broke the embrace. Kallen smiled through her tears "I'm sorry that I made this..hang out a bit sad. I hope its' okay" she said.
"Its' alright. So um.. do you wanna..go for a walk around the campus?" I asked her. I felt my face heat up.
"Yeah, fine with me." Kallen replied.
I smiled again and wiped any streaks of wet drops around her eyes.
"Let's go."
That's right. We will make new memories together. I'll make sure that it will stay in our hearts..especially yours, Kallen. I'll do everything for you. And that..will be the second time.
We exited the roof for a better hang out. Just like what true friends do.
Once again, I'm very sorry that its came out late! I did this last last week actually. I just forgot to post it. Chapter 4 will be updated soon! I didn't came up with a title so..yeah. Don't forget to leave a review.
That's all! Until next time! ^.^
~Dark Zero 1718
