As Anna sat at her computer in class, fiddling around with the graphic interface of a computer game she was attempting to make, she found herself arguing with herself back and forth in her head, not sure which side of her brain she was agreeing with more.
Come on, tell Elsa how you feel! It's been years!
No, please don't make me...
But what if she loves you back?
She doesn't.
And how would you know that?
...I don't know.
Exactly. I see those looks she gives you. I know how she acts around you. Go for it!
But what if I'm reading her wrong? What If I mess something up?
Can't hurt to try. And I know you won't mess anything up. Even if by chance she doesn't feel the same, she loves you too much to leave you. She'll still always be there for you.
"Earth to Anna!" she heard through her thoughts. She shook her head slightly and looked back towards the color sliders on the screen, absent-mindedly changing the color of the digital sky in her game from blue to purple. The muscular, blonde boy next to her shook his head with a smile. He's gotten to know Anna quite well this past year. She sat herself next to him in class the first day, and ever since, they've been quite close, talking through most of the class.
"What's on your mind, Anna?" he asked.
"I think you know," Anna mumbled into her free hand.
The boy smirked. "Elsa, huh? Should have figured. She's all you talk about."
Anna blushed. "I do not!" she whisper-shouted.
"Yeah, you do. I get it though. She is super sex-" he said before having a hand clapped over his mouth.
"Shut it Kristoff!" she said a little louder than she should have.
"Everything alright over there, Anna?" the professor asked sternly from across the room.
She shrank a little in her seat. "Yes, I'm sorry," she said quietly, flipping up her middle finger at Kristoff as he chuckled.
"Seriously though, what's the problem?" he asked as he propped up his elbow on the desk.
Anna sighed and flicked her lip ring slightly. "It's been almost 4 years, Kristoff. My feelings have only gotten stronger, and I don't know how Elsa feels about me, and it's killing me, not knowing. Should... should I just tell her?"
Her friend gave a crooked smile. "I've only come over to visit you about twice, and I can honestly say that the way I've seen her look at you and act around you is a little more than friendly. Maybe you're denying it because you don't want to seem cocky, but your friends see it. I'm pretty sure she feels something for you," he said.
Anna smiled, mildly embarrassed and giddy.
Maybe there is hope.
"Alright everyone, pack it up and save your work, it's time to go!" the class professor called out before walking out the door.
Anna, having already saved the work, shut her computer off and stood, gathering her jacket and bag.
"You doing anything after class?" Kristoff asked.
Anna shrugged. "Not really, I was going to go to the music store to look for a new guitar, my old one's busted as hell. If you want you could come along," she offered with a smile.
Kristoff grinned and picked up his things. "If there's anyone who knows anything about string instruments, it's me. Let's go!" he said excitedly.
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Elsa sat on the couch, sipping a bottle of water and playing around with one of Anna's video games, only now starting to try and learn how to develop the skills so that she didn't have to always just watch.
"How... how does this work..." she mumbled to herself, grinning when she figured out the control to make the character on screen switch weapons. She squealed quietly at her little accomplishment before turning her attention to her phone when it started ringing. She didn't even have to check who it was, as the romantic harp music gave it away. "Hello Anna?" Elsa said as she picked up.
"Hi!" she got in return. "I might be home a little later than usual, Kristoff and I are at the music store looking for a new guitar for me." Elsa shriveled her nose up slightly at the mention of Kristoff. She never really liked him that much. Yes, he was sweet, funny and rather good-looking, but there was something about him she didn't like. Maybe it was the way he looked at Anna. But Elsa knew she didn't like him too much.
"Alright, will you be back soon, I've been learning how to play some of your video games and I'm looking forward to trying out my skills on an actual human," Elsa said, grinning.
Anna fake-gasped. "Now I get to conquer the All-Mighty Elsa!" Anna said dramatically. Elsa heard Kristoff laugh in the background. "Anyways, we're here now, I'll let you know if I find anything. Bye!" Anna spoke cheerfully before hanging up the phone.
Elsa looked over at the broken acoustic guitar hanging on a rack across the room and was struck with a small wave of sadness. She likes that guitar. It holds a lot of good memories. For Elsa, at least. She remembered back when she was in her last year of high school, and Anna in her second-last. It was Anna's 16th birthday, and she invited Elsa over for a very private birthday, that included cake, video games and a little stolen liquor, and Anna played in front of her, a song that she had written. It was a very beautiful song, and quite romantic. Little did Elsa know, that song was about Anna's love for her.
Elsa could hear it now, in her mind. She had memorized every single word, even after only hearing it in full one time. She imagined the day very clearly, when Anna had played it for her.
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"Hey Elsa?" Anna said, as she took a small sip from the plastic water bottle that contained something not even remotely close to water.
I looked over. Anna looked very nervous.
"I have something to ask you," she said quietly. Suddenly, my heartbeat went through the roof. Had she found out about my feelings for her? Nevertheless, I remained outwardly calm.
"What is it, Anna?" I asked as calmly as I could. Anna did her trademark of slightly tugging her lip ring.
"Well you see... um... I-I may have written a little something, and I want you to hear it and um... tell me what you think, I guess..." she said nervously.
My heart slowed down in relief and a smile grew on my face. "Of course! Let's hear it."
Anna stood quickly and rushed to her room, stumbling very slightly from the alcohol. Thank god her parents had left for the day to give us our time. She emerged quickly with her guitar, a nice looking, small mohagany one, and sat back down on her couch next to me.
"So this is just a little song that I made... I hope it's alright..." she said quietly and I perked up a bit as she started to play some chords to introduce the song. Before I knew it, her beautiful voice began to sing.
"I don't want to open my eyes,
it is a dream I have been living.
I don't want to pinch myself,
because it's been so amazing.
I don't want this fantasy
to ever come to an end.
The rest of my life darling,
with you I want to spend.
In a way that is the epitome
of love, romance and passion,
because our love truly is
a pristine and undying devotion."
Small tears welled in my eyes as I continued to listen. I had no idea that Anna was so talented. Singing, yes, but this? This was absolutely beautiful. I continued to listen in awe, silently hoping this song had a deep meaning.
As Anna finished the song, she had a small, crooked shy smile on her face as she looked up at me.
"So... how was that? Was it alright?" Anna asked shakily. She was nervous. It was the first time she had presented something of her own creation and talents to someone else.
"That was amazing Anna," I spoke, my words full of honesty. The shy smile on her face grew, and needless to say, my love for her grew a little more that day.
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The front door opened, and Elsa quickly wiped away the single tear that had formed in her eyes as Anna called out to her.
"I'm home. Didn't find much that I could afford, I'll look somewhere else."
Elsa walked out to the front of their apartment, and noticed Anna's smile as she saw her. Something clicked in Elsa's mind and she decided to see where it would lead her.
Maybe the song really did have a deep meaning...
"Hey Anna?" she asked.
"Yeah?" Anna said as she took off her shoes. Or to be exact, Elsa's shoes.
"Remember that song that you wrote that you showed me on your 16th birthday?"
Anna blushed vividly at the memory. "Yeah I do. What about it?"
Elsa smiled. "Well, I kind of wanted to hear it again. It crossed my mind today and I remembered how beautiful it was. If it's okay with you?"
The pink across Anna's freckled cheeks stayed prominent. "Yeah, I have the lyrics somewhere in our room. But I don't have my guitar..." she said.
Elsa shrugged. "That's alright. It'll be beautiful anyways."
Anna smiled nervously.
"Then come with me."