I stood on the edge of cliff.
Staring downwards in the water swirling beneath me.
If I jumped I could forget everything. Like Josh and Ivy's upcoming wedding or Thomas's murder. My life would be over. I would just disapear.
No one would notice, or care.
I looked back down.
Maybe, I'll go to heaven.....I thought.
With Thomas.....
Did I even believe in heaven?
Who cares. That's where I'm going. I can practically feel it.
So I jumped. Jumped to the never ending hole of blackness,
I seemed to fall forever.
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That's when I woke up. That's where I always wake up.
I put my hand on my forehead and pushed the sweaty strands of hair away from my face.
I thought about a fairytale I used to hear, that always helped my heart beat and breathing to go back to normal.
What day is it again? Oh stupid, it's already Tuesday March 21st. Man my life kinda sucks now..... I muttered to myself.
Constance snored next to me, I had to have a little giggle at that.
No one could make me that upset. Not even Josh Hollis....or Thomas Person. UGh Stupid boys making me depressed!!
I got off of my hotel bed and wandered over to our small kitchen.
After graduating Easton early in January life had been pretty boring, I thought to myself as I poured some water in the kettle.
I'd missed Easton at first, especially Billings. But after seeing Ivy and Josh holding hands or staring at each other adoringly, I couldn't wait to get out.
As I waited for the water to boil I thought about my dress. The one that I was gonna wear to the wedding. The one I chose is pretty awesome. I don't even know the colour. All I know is it looked good on me.
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The water finished boiling so I poured my self some tea. As I did the newly placed band aid on my wrist brushed against my arm and it tickled. My scars would be gone by Saturday.
I had though of suicide and I might keep thinking about it, I can't change what I think.