A.N. Heyy heres a slightly longer chapter today! :D let me know what you think and if you have any ideas! anyway enjoy!

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Ch 3 - Memories

I'm lying there on something hard but surprisingly warm, it slowly moves up and down. Something clings to my body like if it didn't hold me I would disappear. I flutter my eyes open curious to see what it is, then I see it. His soft blonde golden curls are in a matted heap on his head, his strong muscular arms wrap tightly around my body and his firm hands rest on my stomach. Soon his eyes flutter open, letting me see his bright blue eyes. We stare at each other for while, taking in the others beauty. Suddenly he sits up, bringing his strong hand onto my face and crushing his lips against mine, the kiss is soft and loving but soon becomes heated. His hands start to roam down from my face to my waist; they linger there for a moment before continuing and finding home on my bum. My hands find a home in his hair as we start to move against each other, causing an animal like moan to emanate from Peeta's throat. I can feel his erection rubbing against my thigh, as I start to get a pool of liquid between my legs. Everything seems perfect until suddenly he forces me on his back pinning me to the bed with his legs. As I look into his eyes I notice there not his mesmerising blue anymore but replaced with a coal black colour. Its then that I realise Peeta is having an episode. Before I have the chance to scream he holds his hand now over my mouth in one quick, smooth motion. I thrash around desperate to escape, my screams and pleads are lost within his hand.

"DID YOU REALY THINK YOU COULD GET AWAY WITH IT KATNISS!" he screams at me, while trying to keep my thrashing body in place. "DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD RAPE ME WITHOUT ME NOTICING! YOU STUPID MUTT!" I stare at him in shock, rape? Why would he ever think that, he loves me! I start to tear up as I force his hand from my mouth so I could try calm him.

"Peeta please!...yo….you love me Peeta, I wasn't trying to do anything like that! Peeta please it's not real! Peeta you love me!" I shout softly to try get the message through, but soon one hand finds a new home….. on my neck.

"DON'T YOU LIE TO ME KATNISS EVERDEEN! I WOULD NEVER LOVE YOU! YOU'RE A BAD PERSON! NO ONE WOULD EVER LOVE SOMEONE WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR SO MANY LIVES BEING LOST! DON'T YOU LIE TO ME!" He screamed back with so much hate and then clasps his other hand around the other half of my neck. He began to squeeze, I needed to act quick.

"Peeta please listen to me! You love me! This isn't real. Please try remember Peeta. You come from 12, you have loved me since I was five." he starts to squeeze tighter. "you love to bake and paint, your favourite colour is orange, but like a sunset. Peeta please remember! I'm begging you!" but he just stared, with so much hate in his eyes.

"I will never love you Katniss Everdeen" he spoke calmly, then squeezing his hands tighter, and tighter around my neck until all I saw was darkness.

I woke up with a sore throat from screaming and a pool of sweat surrounds my body. That nightmare seemed so real. I lay there letting tears pool out of my eyes for a while until I notice a single light coming from the house next door. I make my way from the bed to the window on my shaky legs and sit on the chair in front of the window. I can see a shadow pacing back and forth in the room. I wonder what he is doing up. Is he having an episode? No, I can't hear anything. I tear my eyes from the room when another catches my eye. Peeta's bedroom. The curtains are drawn closed but his window is open wide. He always loved sleeping with the window open. Finding myself unable to look at his house any longer I tiredly get out of the chair and make my way to the bathroom to shower.

I step in letting the heat of the water calm my body and wash over my tear stained face. I hear the front door open, must be Sae. That's odd, usually she's not here until 8:00, it's only 6:30. I think about getting out of the shower to go greet her, but I'm too comfortable in the showers embrace. Then the front door closes again. That's odd, she's never that quick, and she always waits until she says hello before she leaves.

After my shower I get dressed and braid my hair in my signature braid as I do every day. I make my way downstairs expecting to be greeted with the smell of Sae's Squirrel stew. But instead in greeted with the homely smell of freshly baked bread. As I walk into the kitchen I see a fresh loaf sitting on the table with a note in front of it. I walk over to retrieve the note, seeing that it wasn't Sae that had entered my house a few moments ago, but it was Peeta.

Dear Katniss,

I'm sorry about yesterday, I guess I should have thought better than to just show up at your house. I hope you're not mad about the Primrose bushes. I just thought you might have wanted a little part of your sister to greet you when you walk out your front door. I really missed you Katniss. I missed not getting to see you every day. I just had to come back to 12. I have started baking again, I made lots of bread so I thought you would like some. I hope I see you soon Katniss.

Peeta.

I fold up the note and place it back on the table. Why is he apologizing? I loved seeing him, I never thought I would see him again but there he was. Standing outside my house. I was only in shock. The smell of the bread soon breaks my thought process as it makes my stomach growl.

I pull out a chair and cut myself some bread. This is the same type of bread Peeta took a beating for, because of me. This is the bread that saved my family's life. I need to thank him later, but right now I need to hunt.

Grabbing my bow I head out the front door, shedding a tear when I walk past the newly planted Primrose bushes that are full of life. I run down the streets of 12 until I get to the woods, my woods. I hunt for a while, successfully shooting 12 squirrels and one small turkey. When everything is packed into my game bag I decide to go somewhere I haven't been to in a while. The meadow.

When I arrive I am greeted with the smell of fresh grass and pretty flowers. This is where my father usually took prim and I.

"DADDY, DADDY! LOOK WHAT I SHOT!" I ran up to my father with the biggest grin on my face.

"Wow Katniss, straight through the eye too!" he replied as he picked me up and spun me around.

"KATNISS, KATNISS COME HERE! LOOK WHAT DADDY FOUND!" my sister prim screamed in excitement as she waved her arms at me to get my attention. Daddy placed me on the ground, and as soon as my feet touched the grass I sprinted my way over to my sister.

"KATNISS STOP! DON'T STEP ON THE FLOWERS!" she screamed when I was almost next to her. I came to a stop and slowly walked the rest of the way to my sister, then sitting beside her.

"What is it little duck?" I ask out of curiosity. She just looks back at me with amazement in her eyes.

"Look at the flowers daddy found for me Katniss! Aren't they beautiful!" she answered, mesmerised by the beautiful flowers. "daddy says they are called Primrose's! He said I was named after this flower!" she yells excitedly.

"well no wonder there so beautiful little duck if there named after you!" I tell her with a giant smile tugging at both of our faces.

I stand there in the meadow alone, finding myself smiling at the memory that was just played out in front of my eyes.

"daddy, prim? I don't know if you can hear me…. But I miss you. I miss the way we all laughed, I miss the times we spent out here. I hope your both together now, and I know your both watching over me, and I know ill one day join you both, and maybe mum will too, but until then just know I will always love you, and I will never forget." I slowly turn around, releasing the tears I didn't know I was holding in, and start to walk back home.

I reach the fence, tired from my long walk. The tears are gone now, so I start to walk down the path to go find Thom and Sae down in the town square. I run into Thom first, receiving a " Katniss, its so good to see you out of that house!", and with that I sold him 3 of my squirrels. I then walk to the hob and find Sae at her usual spot serving out her famous stew.

"hey there Katniss! Looks like you have finally left that god for saken home of yours and rejoined humanity", hmm, Sae and her jokes. " Just kidding honey, what have you got for me" she says as she chuckles slightly.

"you can have the leftover squirrels, but I also shot a turkey today! I was thinking it might be nice for a change for me to cook, and you to be the guest? I could invite Haymitch as well, not that he will be sober and all that, but I haven't seen him in a while." I explain with a grin on my face. Sae has done so much for me, its time I return the favour.

"You…. Cook…. Hmmmm I would like to see that happen" she laughs, but stops when I give her my famous scowl. "Okay, Okay, calm down I was just messing with ya girl. Sure invite the old drunk, could be fun" she stops talking but I can see she wants to add more to what she just said. So I give her the look that says 'spit it out' and she does. "Look don't get mad but….. maybe you can invite the boy too?" she looks down as she says this, not knowing how I will react.

"If I see him, I'll ask… it might be nice to catch up" relief washes over her face as I say this . "Anyway ill see you later Sae!" I wave as I exit. I'm half way up the street, almost in the Victors Village when I notice him coming my way. I remember what Sae said. Well there is no harm in asking.

"PEETA!" I yell to get his attention. He looks up and walks over to me with a hand rummaging through his hair.

"Hey Katniss… what's up?" he asks, looking straight into my eyes with a curious tone.

"I shot a turkey, and I'm going to have Sae and Haymitch over for dinner, I was just wondering… if….. if you wanted to come" I stutter nervously. He smiles slightly relieving some of my tension.

"Sure Katniss I would love to, what time?" he asks, happiness written all over his face.

"Be at mine at 6:00…. Oh and Peeta" I say looking deep into his eyes.

"yeah" he answers curiously

"Thanks for the bread" I say remembering not only this mornings fresh loaf but the two loaves that saved my families life. He seems to understand and smiles broadly. We say goodbye and part ways, him to the town square and me to my drunken mentors house. Once I get there I know 5 times. No answer. I turn the door and walk right in dodging the mess on his floor. I find him on the couch tipping water all over him. He wakes with a startle and starts thrashing his knife in the air.

"HAYMITCH JEEZE ITS JUST ME! KATNISS!" I scream. He lowers his nice and glares at me.

"Bloody hell sweetheart! What have I told you about waking me up! Better be important!" he yells drunkenly, stumbling back to his couch.

"I'm just here to inform you that you are to be at my house at 6:00, I'm cooking turkey, Peeta and Sae are coming too" I tell him as I make my way to the door, all I hear before I leave is a grumpy moan from Haymitch. I leave his place and start to prepare my dinner, growing more nervous as the time goes on about being around Peeta again. Before I know it the Turkey is done, I have had a shower and changed into a pair of jeans and a flowing top, it's 6:00 and there is a knock at my front door.