CHAPTER 3

MAGGIE

It had been a long night I had spent most of it with Miranda just talking about things. It was good to be able to talk about how I felt about Alex and how bad I felt for her feeling so bad.

"You did what you thought was right even if it may have been wrong!" Miranda had said at some point.

"How can it be wrong to tell someone that even though you do like them you can't take their first experience away from them?" I had asked her.

"You hid your own feelings away, but I think if you were to do it again then you should put how you feel first. Don't hide behind excuses!" She smiled at me.

That part of the whole conversation had stuck with me, and as I walked into the bar and heard Alex talking my heart leapt. She still hadn't returned any of my calls and just knowing that she was alright made me smile. I walked up to her table. She was looking at the blonde who I remember seeing as I sat outside her apartment.

"Danvers! Hey it's been a hot minute! How are you?" I said in my cheeriest voice. Alex jumped a little in her seat and spun round.

"Yeah good, good yeah I'm err err everybody this is Maggie! Maggie this is erm everyone! This is James, Winn and Kara!" Alex said making the introductions. I had to play it a little dumb; Alex didn't know that I knew about Kara.

"Oh the sister yeah? I have heard so much about you from Alex!" I say smiling at the younger girl.

"And I have heard all about you!" Kara replied pointedly yet sweetly at the same time.

"Erm can I borrow you a minute?" I ask Alex gently leading her away from the group.

"Yeah sure!" Alex was quite cold towards me. I knew then I had a lot of ass to kiss and make up.

"Hey so you haven't returned any of my calls I have been worried about you!" I admit hoping that my admission of being worried would make her soften towards me just a little.

"Oh I have been working!" She replied matter-of-factly.

"Oh right so there must have been a lot of rogue aliens at large?" I joke feeling myself flailing in the deep.

"There always are!" She said simply.

"Listen I just wanted to make sure that everything was okay with us, because I know the last time we saw each other things got a little erm I know complicated?" I tried to explain and say what my head was saying to me but I kept faltering.

"I know I err I thought they were pretty straightforward. No I'm fresh of the boat and that's not your thing. No big deal!" Alex said but I could tell it was. She was struggling to keep things in check and I had just ripped the band aid off the gaping wound that was her heart.

"No I like you Alex, it's just the situation. It's nothing personal!" I try and explain to her but I know as soon as my words have left my mouth I shouldn't have said anything.

"No I didn't think it was!" Alex almost spat out to me. She looked defeated and that killed me.

"OK, so good we still friends?" I ask hopefully.

"Of course!" Alex said. She wouldn't commit fully to the statement because she turned around and headed straight back to her sister who immediately wrapped her arms around her and they began talking.

I turned to leave the bar, I had to start my shift soon and I had to go pick up some new rookie recruit who was tailing me for the night. Just before I leave I turn and see Alex looking at me, I smile at her and leave. I didn't want to ruin what was left of her evening.

ALEX

I left Kara and James at the bar, Winn had left a while before. I needed to go for a walk to try and clear my head. The talk with Maggie earlier in the night had been good. I had got a few things off my chest and I felt better for it.

I could tell Maggie was trying to make things right between us but I wasn't there yet. I still hurt, my heart hurt. I sat on a bench by the river. I looked over the city. I replayed the kiss in my head for the millionth time. Finding new details every time. I had got as far as thinking that if she didn't want me then why did she respond when I kissed her? Why didn't she pull away as soon as she knew what was happening? Maybe I was being to analytical but I needed to know so I could heal. Maybe I should have asked her at the bar but I was too scared. To scared in case I got angry and then I lost her completely, wait hell I have already lost her.

Once again tears dropped to the floor. Why did love have to hurt this much? Why did I have to hurt this much. I had hid my emotions from James and Winn pretty well but Kara just knew and try as she might I couldn't escape this lull I was in, it was like every time I felt a little bit better something would come and drag me back under some more.

I don't know how long I was sat there when Kara sat next to me.

"I went to your apartment but you wasn't there so I came to find you!" She said softly.

"I'm alright Kara, I just wanted some time to think!" I reply honestly.

"You know you're sat in exactly the same spot as you did when you come out to me!" Kara said with a little smile.

"Look how that turned out!" I said bitterly.

"Hey Alex, at least Maggie is trying to fix this right?" Kara countered.

"What if she can't fix it, what if I won't allow her to fix it! What then?" I continue.

"Then we will deal with it. You need to tell her everything that is going on with you right now. How what her rejecting you has made you feel." Kara says firmly.

"But what if my brutal honesty drives her away? I don't know if I could deal with that losing her completely!" I say but I know in the depths of my guts that Kara is right I have to tell her everything.

A/N:- thank you all so much for the views, I am enjoying writing this so much I have decided to do the story for the whole of their story. I will upload as often as I can but I have two other fanfics I am working on too. 3