I almost gave up on this fic, I had no inspiration for this chapter at all and so it sat on my comp with two sentences written until tonight when I came across it and started writing I see that people are reading this 94 hits and only four reviews? (I love the two that have reviewed this!) Come on people, if you read it please take the time to review, I don't care if its negative or not just review and let me know what you think. I accept anonyms reviews.
A lot is going on in my life and its making it hard to write. I'll try to keep updating on a timely basis but i cant promise anything. I may have a job soon so that as well will effect updating times. So yeah please be patient with me.
Oh and if you havent noticed, which i dont think anyone has cause its only been two chapters the titles of each chapter form a poem when combined
Title : Waiting To Forget
Chapter 3: Cause I cant promise i'll live
Date Completed: October 22, 2005
I waited for his mother to tell him I was here. I thought it was important to get him out of his house for a while. Plus Koenma had a new mission for us.
"What do you want?"
His voice was so emotionless, so tired it was weird to hear it coming from him.
"Koenma has a new mission for us."
He looked at me as if I had said something stupid.
"Tell him I'm through with his missions."
I wasn't expecting that.
I look at him trying to see if maybe he was possibly not serious about this. For once I couldn't read him.
"With Hiei gone we're going to need you Kur.."
"Leave. Now."
He turned around and began walked out of the room. "Kurama.. wait listen."
He spun around. He stood in the doorway "Listen to what? I know he's gone. I don't care about the missions anymore, I've paid my dues for what I did. I said I'm through and I mean it."
I sighed, what was with him. Hiei's death was hard on all of us. I' was beginning to think that maybe my suspicions were true. I decided to find out.
"Why are you taking this so hard? What was between you two?"
I think I caught him off guard. He stood there staring at the floor. I couldn't tell what he was thinking, or if he was even going to answer.
"I doubt that you would understand it Yuusuke."
I almost didn't hear him. But his answer was enough. I vaguely heard the old Kurama for a moment.
"So I was right."
It wasn't a question, but a statement to show him I did understand.
"Was it that obvious?" I heard him laugh very lightly, I think it was more of a sad laugh then anything.
"No, I could see it. Kuwabara never did. Even when I explained it to him. I doubt the others saw it, If they did it was never mentioned except as a joke."
I paused to give him a moment.
"I know this is harder on you then all of us, but you cant keep letting it dwell on your mind. He loved you…and he wanted you to live, otherwise he wouldn't have done what he did."
He leaned against the doorframe, His hair hiding his face. I think he was crying. I didn't know what to do I hadn't seen Kurama cry before.. Even when Hiei died. he didn't cry. In fact we all worried because he hardly showed anything at all that day.
"Why does it hurt so much?"
I was never one for helping people. Kurama was always the one that I went to for advice. But I was going to try.
"I think its because you cared for him so much."
I was hoping he wouldn't ask anything more. I wouldn't know what to say.
"Thank you. That was what I needed to hear." He looked straight at me, I could see his eyes were red. He had been crying. I didn't get the chance to speak again.
"Tell Koenma I still need more time.. I'll come back when I'm ready."
I stood up and walked over to him. I embraced him lightly, he needed it. I didn't care if it wasn't something i would normally do.
"Kurama we're here if you need to talk. If anything we can make you laugh. Promise you'll call us?"
I felt his arms lightly around me. His voice was barely above a whisper and I could hear the lie in it
"I promise."
I wasn't going to push it further.
I let go of him and said my goodbyes. He had us all worried, and none of us were sure really what to do.
"So how'd it go?" Kuwabara asked me the moment he picked up the phone.
"It went ok, he said he still needs time though."
"He wont be on the mission?"
"No." Didn't he get what I had said. Sometimes I wondered about whether he paid attention or not.
"oh. Is he ok?"
Ah so he was attentive to some things.
"I don't know Kuwabara. I really don't know"
OMG...I think I just went way off my plot line XD Or maybe I didn't I don't know I think I may have thrown them OOC a bit but oh well. As I said I have no clue when I'll update next it shouldn't be to long a week, two at most. Please review. Next chapter should be in Hieis's POV. I know it should be Kurama's but I have an idea. But hey it may change by the time i write it out.
Till next time.