"Supreme Leader what do you think." Kylo was snapped out of his daydream to the First Order generals staring at him waiting for an answer. They had this stupid blank stare, so helpless without a strong hand to guide them.
"Yes, that will do," he responded making sure to add a tingle of force to his words. He wasn't really listening closely enough to know what he just agreed to, but he knew asking them to repeat themselves would only make him appear weak. And it's not like he really cared about these meetings much anyway. He had been in mindless meetings like these for days. Over seeing minor missions in the Outer Rim, Mining operations, ship repairs. It was his worst nightmare, being cooped up like this left him with little distraction from her.
The past few days he thought of almost nothing other then Rey. He was getting frustrated with how often his mind drifted to her. He couldn't help but think about those times the force connected them across the galaxy. He remembered seeing her soaking wet and shaking, she looked so alone and when he told her she wasn't he meant it. And the way she smiled at him a few nights ago it was like he truly saw her. She didn't see her enemy it was as if she didn't know or care about all the terrible things he had done. He had to get out of this conference room and pull himself together.
"Excuse me," Kylo dismissed himself as he felt Hux's eyes tear into him. He was pretty positive Hux was suspicious of him. Of course, he hadn't bought the story that Rey had killed Snoke, the whole guard and knocked him unconscious all on her own. While she was extremely powerful in the force, they still barley managed to hold off the guards with both their power combined. He would need to keep an even closer eye on him, Hux has always been looking for power by any means, and he knew he was in his sights.
Kylo decided to head to his chambers, maybe if he could mediate he could get his mind back in the right place. He needed to show the galaxy that he was worthy of their respect and the quickest way to do that was through fear and power. And to achieve that he had to rid of any distractions.
"Stay at the door," he commanded the group of Stormtroopers that were in as they were finding replacement for the Praetorian Guard. He still wasn't used to these new chambers, not that where he lived really meant anything to him anymore. He was used to moving from ship to ship and base to base. As he moved through his large living quarters he saw food had been left out for him again. Kylo was pretty sure he hadn't been hungry since before Rey meet him on the Supremacy. Ignoring the food, he moved to one of the rooms that he assumed was supposed to be study before he ordered his staff to move out all the furniture. As he sat in the middle of the room he tried to clear his mind.
He reached out to feel for that dark place in the force. He felt the sadness in the stormtroopers outside the door, felt the violence in the hearts of the officers on the bridge. All around him he felt the greed, the lust, the fear, and it filled him with power. A power that coursed through his blood and made his core go cold. And in this heightened state he thought of the one thing that could stop his constant doubt and distraction. He would use this power to eliminate Rey and destroy these feeling inside himself once and for all.