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James glanced at me once more before he strode past to the bar.
"James, wait-" I tried, but he just kept walking.
"What's up with him?" Marlene asked me as Amos and I sat down at out table.
I just downed my drink and refused to look at her. I haven't told her, but she has always been suspicious. Amos looked at me curiously but knew he wouldn't get any answers. I sometimes got into these funks when James and I got into arguments. This was worse though because James didn't do anything wrong.
Remus, Sirius and Peter were all at the bar with James. By reading his lips, I could make out "I know she did it" and "don't know why".
Amos stood up. "I'm gonna get more drinks"
"No!" I said, a little too anxiously.
"Why not?"
"Uh…nothing. Go ahead." James had seen Amos stand up and they now seemed to be talking about Quidditch. Good James…
The second he was out of earshot, Marlene started on me.
"Lily, I'm not stupid."
"You're not?" I giggled.
"No, I'm not," she laughed and shoved me slightly as she scooted over to me. "I know that girls' skirt didn't go up on it's own."
"I bet Sirius and James had some kind of bet about her underwear or something…"
"Lily." She gave me a stern look.
"Ok! I did it. She only wanted to sleep with him, who knows what kind of bugs she has!"
"But why would you do that? You never care when Sirius sleeps with random girls. And James was just dancing with her-"
"For now! You don't know what they would have done later!"
"Why does it matter?! It's not like he's your boyfriend or something-" She stopped when my face cringed for a second. Oh crap…
"Oh my goodness. You do like him, I knew it! Why haven't you told me?"
I said quickly and quietly, "I don't. You don't know what you're talking about."
I stood up and was about to walk away when I heard Marlene say a spell. The music changed almost immediately.
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.
"Marlene change it now!" The music was whatever I was feeling about James! I'm gonna end up killing her one day.
"Admit it, and I'll fix it!"
"I. Do not. Like James."
"Liar, liar, pants on fire…" She taunted as the music changed again.
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
I turned away from her and tried to push my way out. I could see James looking at me with so much confusion that he looked like Peter during Potions class. The other boys were helping Madam Rosmerta find out what was going on with the music. As I got closer to the door, it changed again.
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
I knew that Marlene and James were coming after me, but I couldn't stop. I had to get out of there before I broke down. Having these feelings shoved in my face was the worst thing that could happen to me right then. Having it put out there for everyone else to see too…that put me over the edge.
I got out the door and tried to walk down the street. I ended up leaning against the wall and sliding down to a sitting position. I heard the music change again as James and Marlene slammed through the door.
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know
I was already crying, and the last song made me fall to pieces. Marlene realized that she hadn't turned the spell off in a hurry to catch up to me. She quickly did and knelt down next to me. She began rubbing my back and whispering to me how sorry she was.
Realization hit James as he stood watching me cry. He slowly backed away as the rest of our group came out onto the street.
"Lily! What's wrong?!" Amos sounded so worried about me that it made me cry harder.
"She um…tripped! And she twisted her ankle. Come on Lily, let's get you to bed…" Marlene pulled me up and put my arm around her shoulders. "Limp!" she hissed at me.
"Let me take her," Amos came over to carry me.
"I got her, she's not that heavy." Marlene knew that Amos holding me would just make it worse, and this was all her fault.
We got back to the castle, although a lot slower than when we left it. I had to try me hardest to stop crying as to not alert anyone. Amos, Sirius, Remus and Peter were all talking about school the next day. James and Marlene just kept quiet the whole time.
As soon I got to my room, I crawled in my bed and passed out.