Damon heard a shot, felt a pain similar to the pain he felt a few months before, and then heard screaming.
Who was shot though? He looked down at his stomach and noticed a fresh bullet wound in the exact spot his old one was healing. Was he in shock? All of the sudden the pain came rushing at him. He looked up to see Elena. She was the one who screamed in horror. Did she see what just happened?
All of the sudden before he fell, he saw his father turn around and shoot her too and they both collapsed to the ground.
Damon woke up breathing heavily. He sighed in relief at the fact that what just happened was just a nightmare. He looked around his room in the darkness and tried his hardest to prevent a panic attack.
When he had gotten home earlier, he received another beating from his father, but everything that he just dreamt about didn't happen. Would it though? Was that a sign for him to get the hell out? Where would he go?
He closed his eyes and fell back to sleep letting himself rest until the next morning. After that, he really needed it.
The next morning came along and Elena walked into school feeling exhausted. She really didn't know what exactly to expect from Damon. Yes they had gotten closer over the past few days or really...day but that's it. It could just as easily go back to hatred. Actually, it's likely to.
When she arrived at school she went to her locker to get her things and when she turned she saw Damon walking down the hall. She wanted to say something, or go up to him and greet him and she would have...until she saw that cold look in his eyes. The cold look she feared. The same cold look he was giving her as he looked at her right then.
Maybe it's true. Maybe nothing had changed. She shouldn't have expected it to. She shouldn't even have imagined it for two seconds on what it might be like but she did of course. And now she felt like an idiot.
A week went by like this. Then 2 weeks. Then 3 and all of the sudden a month and a half later it was still like this. Anything they'd built came crashing down. She tried so hard not to care anymore about him but it was impossible not to. The more she tried not to care, actually made her care even more.
After school one day, she saw him walking to his car. Everyone was home by then so she wondered why he was still there. "What the hell is your problem, Damon?" She yelled out to him. She figured if he won't talk to her, then she will talk to him...or yell in this case and see what happens. The silence would eventually kill her if she didn't.
His eyes still cold, empty, and overall just sad looked over at her confused. "What?" he said confusion taking over his voice. Did he really not know what she was talking about? It was pretty obvious.
"Are you really asking me that question?" she asked in disbelief but interrupted before he could answer. "We actually connected. Or at least I thought we did until you decided to turn off whatever the hell is human in you and turn into this guy I know that you aren't, Damon!" she yelled to him, trying to get through to him.
"Oh, you think you know me? You think you know who I am? You're right, Elena we did connect but that doesn't make us friends. We helped each other out what, once? Twice? That doesn't make us friends. That makes us 2 people who needed to get laid and you being too caring for your own good." he said harshly.
Well that hit home. She felt her eyes stinging and tears fighting to fall. She looked down trying to fight them even more and not give him the satisfaction of her crying. He took a step closer to her, realizing he'd hurt her more than he intended to but she took a step back.
"You know, I really wanted to be a friend of yours since you don't seem to have many. I was willing to put aside all of the bad things and just try and help you in any way I could but I guess maybe we're both a lost cause in that department. I just hope that you pushing everyone away doesn't end up with you in a coffin." she said, tears beginning to fall. "But I just have one question for you and I promise you, I will leave you alone forever." she said and he nodded, sympathy filling his eyes, replacing the coldness.
"Why do you do this? Why are you so afraid for someone to actually care about you? Is it really so hard to believe that someone loves you?" she said.
"Thats the thing Elena, nobody does love me. And that's okay because you're right. I am a lost cause. I have been for a long time and I haven't tried to hide it." he said and she shook her head.
"Can you please open your damn eyes for one freaking second and look at what's standing right in front of you! Why do you think I haven't given up on you? I've basically given up on all of my other friends after my parents died!" she said loudly, not enough to be a yell but loud enough to hear the frustration in her voice.
He clearly wasn't understanding when he gave her a questioning look. "You do realize you aren't making sense right?" he said.
"I'm making a lot more sense than you realize, your just too guarded to even see it!...You know what, maybe I'm the idiot. I should go." she said turning around, her insides fighting her not to tell Damon exactly how she feels.
He grabbed her arm. "Now look who's running away from her problems." he said and I rolled my eyes. "It's not a problem to me!" she said. "What isn't Elena?" he said a little bit louder, with a more serious tone to what he was saying.
"You think nobody loves you. Not your family...let's face it, you have no friends left because all you have done is push them away. But you don't get it! I love you. And the more you push me away, the more I realize how much I love you. This past month and a half you have no idea how much I've missed you. I don't care about the stupid rumors or the fact that you might or might not be a lost cause. I just love you." she said.
She might as well have been handing her heart to him and given him a chance to stomp on it or mend it. By now she was full out crying. After saying everything that was on her mind and in her heart she realized how hurt she was by all of this and how much hidden anger and sadness she's been building up within the past few months.
"And if you don't love me or even care about me please don't say you do out of pity. Because I'd rather love you and have you hate me than love you and have you fake loving me back." she said.
His eyes were full of complete vulnerability and shock. It's like it was his first time hearing these words out of someones mouth.
"Why are you looking at me like that? Don't tell me this is your first time hearing it from someone other than your..." she cut herself off. "This is really your first time hearing it since then isn't it?" she said, sadness filling her entire body feeling horrible for him. Yes she had lost a lot in her life, especially her parents but she always had known she was loved and was told it.
He nodded and I sighed grabbing his hand. He looked up at me nervously and she knew exactly why. "It's okay. You don't have to say it back." she told him, her heart aching at the thought of him not loving her back. Or worse. Not even caring.
She removed her hand from holding his and wiped her tears. "I have to go. I- Just know I do love you and no matter how much you try and push me away I always will." she said, walking away.
Damon stood there in complete shock. This girl he grew to care about and even loved just told him she loves him and all he could do was stand there. What the hell was wrong with him?
He desperately wanted to say it back but couldn't. He's never said that. Not ever since his mother died. He hasn't said it to his father, or Stefan, or to any other girl he's met or dated in his life. He's never felt love for any other girls. But he did for Elena.
This feeling is one he honestly never thought he would or even could ever feel in a million years towards someone. But I guess when someone comes into your life and you connect, the more you see them and learn about them and even talk to them, the more you grow to care and maybe even love them.
But it's so different with her. Elena. Yes he's connected with other girls before but none like the way he has with Elena. And when he slept with her, it felt like more than just a one night stand. In the moment, everything else about them hating each other was erased and he actually cared about the girl he was sleeping with.
He realized he just screwed up big time. Elena probably thinks he doesnt even care about her right now. She completely just handed her heart to him and he threw it in the trash.
He could still see her but just barely, so he ran. He ran as fast as he could and then a few minutes later, she turned around thinking someone was going to attack her. When she saw it was just a really out of breath Damon and not an attacker, she sighed in relief. She waited until he caught his breath for him to speak.
Once he caught his breath, he said four words she was not expecting to hear. Not now especially. "I love you too" he said. She looked shocked, with a smile appearing on her face. A type of smile that showed she was trying her hardest not to get her hopes up in case she heard him wrong. "What?" she asked. "I said I love you too."
She leaned in and kissed him. The kissed was filled with passion, longing, and love. It was different then the kisses before. Their first kiss was when they were drunk, so although he could remember it, he couldnt remember it completely. Their second kiss was full of worry. Like a goodbye kiss. This kiss was different. It was special.
When he pulled back and saw the smile on her face, he never realized how coming to terms with love felt and how good it felt to make someone you love smile like that. Maybe it was because he never was in love with anyone until Elena.
"Are you sure?" she asked, questioning him and he couldn't blame her. Not even 20 minutes ago he completely broke her heart by not being able to say it back.
He nodded. "One hundred percent." he said, kissing her lips again but this time slow and softly.
"So...w-what now?" she asked nervously. He could tell she was waiting for him to stomp on her heart once again. Saying something like they cant be together because it wouldn't work, or he's too dangerous for her. Or that she deserves better. And maybe all of that's true. But he refused to give up on her. Not when he finally had her.
"Well..." he started, sounding sad and he saw a frown on her face. "At the risk of sounding cheesy, will you, Elena Gilbert, be my girlfriend?" he asked and he saw her face light up with happiness. It was definitely a good look for her. She looked even more beautiful than ever when happy.
"I think that can be arranged" she said smiling brightly and pulling him into another kiss.
I know many were surprised about the miscarriage. I actually had to decide what I wanted to do with that because there were 2 different ways I could have gone with the story. One being if she was pregnant and one being if she miscarried. A twitter friend helped me decide thankfully, so yeah :D
I also know this chapter is much shorter than usual and I want to apologize for that. This chapter was yes pretty big & happy because they finally said they love each other, but it was kind of a build up chapter of the things to come.
I really appreciate all of the reviews and I hope to get more with this chapter although its about half the size of a regular chapter!
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