okay so here is the newest chapter and i must say i am quiet proud :) it only took me 4 days to write, type and have this edited. i was on a roll. that being said there are two people you can thank for having this chapter so quickly. one of which is NCChris, her review made me want to get to work on this chapter before working on ch9 of Make me love you but dont worry thats the next story to be updated i promised a special surprise in that story for JaspersBella and she will get it. the second is my wonderful beta Jaspers Izzy. She is amazing and Awe inspiring. if you have not read her story run, dont walk, over to her page and read 'we found each other' its very good and i am not just saying that because i beta for it or because she is my beta. i liked it before we became each others betas.

i have one other story i would like to rec tonight. its by naelany and its called live like there is no tomorrow. it is not for the narrow minded i will say that. it is a slash and a damn good one at that. its Jasper and Edward and if you read it bring a box of tissue, you will need it. Naelany has promised lemons so if you are not into that dont read it. i dont not want to hear that naelany has gotten any flames from my readers. she is very good and i love both of her stories. okay off my soap box lol.

oh i own nothing, i am just borrowing Jasper for my own fun. even though JaspersBella says i need to share. -in hushed voice- she's no fun she just wants Jasper all to herself -looks over shoulder to see death glare and evil smile from JaspersBella- told you she just wanted him all to herself! okay it is way too late and i am getting loopy... hehe thats a funny word loopy!

ENJOY!!!

Chapter 2

Explanations don't always give you answers

I had been attracted to Bella from the moment I had seen her, her first day of school. I had never really given the attraction the time of day. When Bella had first come in to our lives I was happy and in love with my wife, I didn't need to think about anyone else. I had no idea everything would change so drastically just with the addiction of one human.

No one knew about my attraction to Bella because it was just that, an attraction. Edward never read it in my mind because I never dwelled on it. I didn't want to, it had no place in my head. I kept my distance not because I lusted after her blood or her body but because Edward asked, no, told me to. Alice was nicer about asking me to stay away from Bella, but her reasoning was clear and her tone told me in no uncertain terms that my presence around Bella was not wanted or needed.

No one in the house trusted me to stick to 'their' diet. Maybe it was because they referred to it as their diet and not our diet? They always lumped me in a different category because for the simple fact that I was the only one that had actually lived off of human blood. Yeah, Edward had his rebellious stage as he calls it, in which he hunted humans, but that lasted a decade, where as mine lasted almost a hundred years. I was the outsider because of the way I had 'grown up' and they never really let me forget it. But the truth was, I had long since mastered my blood lust. When I was simply dealing with my lust it was easy enough to handle, but when you can feel the thirst of six other vampires, you tend to get a little crazed.

Bella's birthday was a prime example of what could happen when six other vampire's thirsts influence me. The hardest thirst to ignore was Edwards, considering Bella is his singer. No one in the family knew that I could feel their thirst, and I intended to keep it that way. I willingly took all of the blame for Bella's party not wanting to cause the family any more pain, but in all honesty it was Edward's fault. Yes, I was the one that had attacked, but it was Edward's emotions that had sent me into the craze. And then the idiot goes and throws her into a table full of glass plates. Fucking genius!

The party was really when everything started to change. Alice and I started to shift from a relationship of lovers to that of best friends and eventually to that of brother and sister. I had always thought Alice and I would love each other for eternity. Suddenly finding out that Alice was simply the path I had to take to get to my soul mate was a little shocking. Alice still hadn't seen who was meant for me, but she had assured me that both of us would be happy. I was willing to except this as fact because, if there was one thing I had learned in my 145 years as a vampire, it was that you never bet against Alice.

There wasn't really a reason for the break up of Alice and I. We just grew apart. It was hard though, Alice and I remained really good friends, the best in fact, so when she left to go 'find herself' it was a little bit of a shock. I had no idea where she was going or what she expected to find, but I didn't press her for information. I knew she would have told me if she wanted to. It was hard to let her leave, she was still really important to me and we were together constantly even if it was just as friend's, so the idea losing of the one person that I actually interacted with wasn't easy to deal with. With the house almost empty I was left to my thought a lot more, which as it turned out, was a very dangerous place to be as of late.

I'm not really sure when the images started popping up, but it wasn't long after Edward stopped being able to read my mind. It was strange; at first I didn't even know what I was seeing. I would only get flashes of color, like brown or green. Then I started to see images, like a set of crimson eyes or gleaming white teeth. The first time I saw Bella and I in the meadow I thought I was going crazy. Why would I be thinking about taking Bella to the meadow? I never took anyone to my meadow. It wasn't even really a meadow. It was so much more. It was beautiful, surrounded by trees and fragrant wild flowers, with a waterfall that fell wonderfully into a river. It was one of the most beautiful places I had ever found and it was all mine. It was where I went to just be alone. When you have a mind reader in the family a place of seclusion is almost a must. No one, and I mean no one, ever went with me to the meadow. So why were Bella and I there? And why the hell were my eyes red? It was odd to see myself with red eyes; it wasn't a color I had seen on me in many many years. It didn't take me long to figure out that I was seeing these images through Bella's eyes. Though that changed eventually too.

It took me the better part of a month to actually understand what was going on, or at least understand what I could discern on my own with out asking too many questions. Carlisle was curious about my questions on thought projection and false images, but I never really told him much. I just told him I wanted to understand Jane and Alec's powers more.

As the months went on the visions started getting stronger and more and more intimate. At first it was like I was watching through her eyes, which was creepy to say the least. Then it was like I was watching from a far but my body could actually feel what was happening. I could feel her skin underneath my hands even though I was in my room and she was sleeping in hers. I could even smell her arousal. Not only could I feel what I was doing to her in the dream but I also could feel everything she was doing to me, I could feel her run her hands up my arms and down my chest leaving a blazing trail of warmth in their wake. It was like it was actually happening, even though I was sitting in a chair at my desk. The first time the dream had gotten really sexual had been a little intense. In her dream she had run her hands over my erection and it was like she was actually sitting in my bed doing that. She proceeded to stick her hand in my pants and I almost came in pants at the feeling of her tiny hand wrapped around my dick, even if it wasn't actually happening. That had only happened once but it was crazy. Most of her dreams didn't go that far, but my body reacted the way one would expect in a sexual encounter.

The visions used to only come at night while Bella was asleep—that took me a while to figure out! You would think I would have caught on sooner. When I finally figured it out I couldn't help but mentally slap myself—so I could seek refuge from my family. No one, not even Alice and Edward knew what I was seeing, what Bella was conjuring. After the first month the images started happening during the day as well, though these weren't nearly as long or as intense. They were however, always the most intimate parts of the dreams (because I had finally figured out that's that what they were), and I didn't seem to be able to control my emotions or keep them to myself for that matter. When the images flashed behind my eyes. I knew this because who ever was in the room with me at the time would drop to their knees, do to the very raw lust that both Bella and I were feeling. It was kind of weird how it was magnified when I was around her.

The most baffling part of this entire situation was that it was me that Bella was thinking about and not Edward. Edward! God what is going on with him lately? He is never around. I knew he was lying about being on 'family business' because I could feel his insincerity, so what the hell was he doing? Bella is so in love with him, and I couldn't for the life of me understand what he was doing that was so important that it would take him away from her so much. Especially this close to the wedding.

Alice was another one, I couldn't quite figure out. She had left to find her future, but for some reason I didn't believe her. I couldn't feel her lies in her emotions but she had long since figured out how to get around my gift.

I was sitting in my room thinking everything over when they started again. I was standing bare foot in grass and could truly feel the blades of grass tickle the underside of my foot. The sun was shinning down and its warmth seared my skin. I reveled in its warmth and turned to see Bella in a soft pink tank top and dark blue skinny jeans. Her soft hair was cascading down her back in curly tendrils and I longed to run my fingers through it. I felt my legs start to move towards her. Reaching her, I wrapped my arm around her waist and held her to me. Behind the vision my mind was telling me it wasn't real, that I needed to fight the feelings that were coursing through my body. The rational part of my brain was thanking whatever higher power there was, that these images were just that, images. The irrational part, the man part of my brain, the part that had always been attracted to Bella and was quickly finding himself completely infatuated with her, screamed for me to let the dream play out. My rational brain won out and my attention was diverted before my body could react anymore than it already had. I am not proud to say that in the last three months I had taken more cold (well relatively speaking) showers and pleasured myself then in all my time on this planet.

I had to talk to Bella about these damn dreams, and now was the perfect time. The house was empty, Emmett and Rose where on their thousandth honeymoon, Edward and Alice were MIA, and Carlisle and Esme had decided to take an extended hunting trip into the mountains around Idaho. So I knew I could have this conversation with out being over heard. This wasn't going to be easy. Bella was easily embarrassed and having to tell her that I have been witness to her most privet thoughts, thoughts that were very graphic and sensual, thoughts that involved not only her but me in compromising positions was not a conversation I wanted to have. It wasn't going to be easy to find the words to tell a person that you know about their fantasies. Its not like I could walk up to her and simply say, "So you like the idea of me naked with you wrapped around me?" Yup, instant death by mortification, table for one! Somehow I didn't think that would work.

I walked up to her room on the 3rd floor. The room was close to Edward's, it was the only way he could deal with the idea of her having her own room. He truly was on over barring, over controlling self-absorbed pain in the ass sometimes. I understood the need for her to call something her own. While Alice and I had been together, I had always had my own study. It was a place I loved to be by myself, other than the meadow, it was the only place I went to think and just be me. It was my safe haven.

I had been very happy that I had the room after the demise of Alice and I. All I really had to do was move my clothing (what little I actually kept) into the closet and get a new bed. I know, I don't actually need a bed but its one of the luxuries of humanity that I actually enjoy. I really like lying down and pretending to sleep.

Bella's door was open slightly allowing me to walk in quietly. I didn't really want to wake her. She doesn't normally sleep very well, so when she is asleep, I try not to disturb her no matter how much I need her dreams to stop. I really didn't ever want them to stop, I was truly intrigued by them and really wanted to read more into them, but I needed them to stop.

I walked into her room and took a seat in the soft blue suede chair. Bella tossed and turned lightly while her dream played out behind both of our eyes. The blankets were kicked off and lay forgotten at the end of the bed. I felt weird sitting in her chair watching her sleep. Great, now I am that creepy stalker guy. I am no better then Edward.

"Jasper!" Bella's breathy voice matched what I was seeing in my head. No! I was worse than Edward. I was sitting in her room watching her have a sex dream about ME! One that I could see, one that was not helping my growing problem. God I am a perv.

I tried not to think about the images swirling around in my head. Instead I tried to think about things that would get rid of my problem, things like Mike Newton and Jessica Stanley going at it. Gross, okay problem gone!

The dream had come to an abrupt end and I was thankful it didn't end the way it normally did. Yes I had my blood lust under control but that didn't mean it was easy. And after having images of my teeth embedded in Bella's neck, it was a struggle to maintain my control. It would be easier to talk to Bella about the dreams with out wondering how her blood would taste as it flowed freely down my throat or the popping sound her skin would make as my teeth broke through. Okay that's enough of those thoughts!

"Shit." Bella mumbled. I could smell her arousal mixed with the sweat that coated her body. It was an intoxicating smell. I could feel her frustration, no doubt because of the way the dream had ended. Her emotions started to fluctuate quickly, going from frustrated and understanding to confusion and ashamed. Suddenly she was thankful. What was that about? And then she was back to being confused. Her emotions changed so much it was hard to pick up on them even for an empath. Finally she settled on annoyance, doubt and frustration, with anger and sorrow thrown in every now and then. She was clearly deep in thought. At times like this, I wished I had the ability to read her mind. She fascinated me; I had started to desire a friendship for this insignificant human. I was no longer willing to sit on the sidelines, if this woman was going to be my "sister-in-law", then I wanted to know her. Who she was, what she liked… everything. Not the perfect little Bella my brother had molded her into, but the real Bella. She never did anything I expected and she was the only one in this household that had complete trust in me. Though really she was the only one that had no reason to trust me. Edward was right about one thing; she really had no knowledge of self-preservation. She was more comfortable being around bloodsucking, crazy manic-depressive supernatural beings then being around people of her own species, people like Mike Newton and Jessica Stanley. Though with the amount of lust coming from Mike and the pure hatred coming from Jessica, I guess I could understand that.

"GAH! I wish I could make sense of this." Bella's voice broke me from my random thoughts.

"I know how you feel darlin', I wish I could explain what is going on as well." She must not have realized I was in the room because she almost jumped out of her skin at the sound of my voice. I felt bad for scaring her. I could feel her shock and embarrassment. I wished I could tell her there was nothing to be embarrassed about, but with what we were about to talk about, I knew it would be a lie. Hell I was finding myself feeling more then a little embarrassed. Its not everyday this kind of conversation takes place. How do you even start a conversation like this?

The ebbing of Bella's embarrassment and the strengthening of her confusion pulled me from my head, alerting me to the questions Bella was about to ask. No doubt in response to my admission of wanting to understand what was going on just as much as she did.

"What do you mean you wish you knew what was going on?"

"You had another dream didn't you?" I asked. You didn't need to be an empath to know she was taken aback by my question. What ever she had been expecting me to say, it hadn't been that. I got up from the chair and moved to sit at the foot of Bella's bed. She had turned a soft light on so she could see me clearly.

"What do you know about them?" her voice was sharp and pointed. She sounded angry. I had never heard that tone come from of her. I felt bad making her angry, but I couldn't turn back now.

"Everything darlin', I know everything." It came out much quieter then I was expecting. It was just like Bella to make a vampire unsure of himself. Bella's confusion was growing exponentially by the minute. I didn't know if I was going to be able to get through this while dealing with her emotions so I closed myself off to them. I was still unsure of what to say. Bella looked lost in thought which gave me the opportunity to collect my thoughts. After a few minutes I spoke again. "Bella, do you understand the idea of projection?" I decided to start with what I thought was happening; sort of ease her into the idea that I've been seeing her dreams. She didn't answer so I continued with my explanation. "Some vampires can project things, like I can project emotions to the people around me. Understand?" she nodded and I went on. "Still others can project false images or even their own thoughts." I left a heavy emphasis on thoughts. I wanted her to pick up on where I was going with this, but I didn't think it was working so I needed to explain further. "Most vampires that can project things need contact with the intended target. But there are those of us who don't need physical contact. I don't need contact to manipulate your emotions. Yes, the manipulation is stronger if there is contact but it is not needed. However with thought projection most need contact to make sure that the intended target is in fact receiving the projection. Do you understand what I am saying?"

"Jasper, where are you going with this?" I was really hoping she had followed my line of thought so I did not have to come right out and say it. It was so uncomfortable.

I took an un-needed deep breath to steady my thoughts; I really didn't want to do this. "I think, Bella, that you may be some one that can project her thoughts without touch." A sharp in take of breath alerted me to the fact that Bella was now following my line of thinking even if she was not 100% there yet.

"And what makes you think I can project my thoughts?" she asked tentatively.

I let out a deep breath and looked at her, "Your dreams started about three months ago right?" I didn't need to ask this question, I already knew the answer. She nodded again. "And they have been getting stronger and more real right?" She bit her lip but didn't respond. "Bella, darlin' look at me." I begged. She raised her eyes to me albeit reluctantly. "Do you know where I am going with this?"

"Kind of," she whispered so quietly that even as a vampire I almost missed it. "Are you trying to tell me that I have been projecting my dreams to you?" finally we are on the same wavelength! I just nodded.

"I don't want to embarrass you, that's not why I am here. But I have a few questions about these dreams I would really like the answers to, if you are up to it. I could let you go back to sleep if you want, we could do this tomorrow."

"No! Its okay I will try and answer the questions." She was braver then I gave her credit for.

"Okay! Umm… I guess the biggest question I have would be the obvious one, why me? Why am I the one you are dreaming about? And why are you projecting your thoughts to me? You're not even a vampire yet!" The last statement was more to myself then to her but I felt her hope penetrate my block as I said yet, allowing her to believe that maybe one day she would become one of us. I secretly hoped for it. Hell if Edward wouldn't do it, I would!

I needed to ask someone about the fact that a human was projecting thoughts, but I couldn't. If I told Carlisle about Bella he would want to know what I was seeing and this subject matter is just a little too personal for both of us. Bella and I were going to have to figure this out on our own.

"I wish I could give you the answers to your questions Jasper. Believe me I wish I could, but I just don't know." She said, flopping back against her pillows. "I should be dreaming about Edward, not you! And honestly I try, but nothing happens. When I imagine him in the dream instead of you my body doesn't even react. The idea of Edward and I in a position like that doesn't do anything for me. Do you know how fucked up that is?" Her honesty caught me off guard; I truly had no idea she was having issues like that.

"I didn't know I was projecting my thoughts, I didn't even know I could do that." She was frustrated and she had every right to be.

"Bella this is going to sound very rude and forward but are you actually attracted to me, you know physically or is it just your subconscious manifesting something that isn't there?" The blush that appeared on her face spoke volumes to me and I took it to mean yes. The rational part of my head was screaming, "Oh this is bad, very bad. Get out while you can Jasper, you are in way over your head!" but the irrational, more man part of my head was doing a happy dance.

"Its hard not to be Jasper, you're gorgeous. But that's not really the point. Your not the one I am in love with."

"Believe me I understand," I sighed. "Alice may have seen us with other people and happy, but it doesn't mean it was easy to let her go. Our love changed, which for vampires, is rare, but that doesn't mean that I don't still love and miss her." It was true; Alice had been my life for over 60 years. How do you just let that go because of a vision? Bella moved down to where I was sitting at the bottom of the bed. In a hunter green tank top and matching boy shorts she came to rest sitting next to me. Wrapping her arms around me in a warm embrace she leaned in and kissed me on the cheek.

"We are quite a pair aren't we? Both longing for what we can't have. You for Alice and me to be intimate with Edward." Well she got that half right. Having Bella wrapped around me was strange. When our skin touched it felt like an electrical shock had run through me. Her kiss was what took me for a spin though. Her lips on my skin felt exactly the way it did when she was projecting her dreams.

"Yeah," I chuckled trying to get the dream out of my head. "But I am not getting Alice back, you on the other hand, will get your happy ending with Edward." I tried not to sound sad but I think she heard it any way. The worst part was, I wasn't sure what I was sad about. Her getting her happy ending with Edward or not getting Alice back.

"Jasper, Alice said she saw you happy too. That happy ending belongs to both of us." She said trying to stifle a yawn. The idea of both of us getting our happy endings made my non-existent heart feel lighter.

"Thanks for the vote of confidence Bells, but I think this conversation has come to an end. It's bed time for the human" I said guiding her back down onto the mattress.

"Hey Bella?" I had one more question to ask her before she fell asleep.

"Hmm?" she hummed.

"Can we hang out tomorrow? I have something I want to show you."

"I'd like that. Good night Jazz."

"Good night beautiful." I left shutting the door behind me. I went to my room after our talk, for the rest of the night. I had a lot to think about.

Unknown POV

I turned over to face my lover. Not wanting to let go of his embrace, I snuggled closer. I placed a small kiss on his lips causing him to sigh. He was so happy, I was so happy. But I had to leave.

"Where are you going?" he asked, as I got up to get dressed.

"I have a lot of things to pick up for the wedding. I have to go, I don't want to, but Bella will be pissed if this wedding doesn't go the way it should. I know she doesn't act like it but it's really important to her."

"Bella," my lover groaned, "what are we going to do about her?"

"I don't know," I sighed, sitting on the edge of the bed to put my shoes on. "She deserves this happiness after everything we have put her through."

My lover moved to the edge of the bed wrapping his arms around me in a strong embrace and said, "You know she's going to freak if she ever finds out about us right?" he was right. This would break her, again. We couldn't do that to her again.

"I know. That's why she's not going to find out. Now I have to go. I love you." I kissed his lips and was out the door but not before his whispered I love you floated to my ears.

A/N okay so what do you think? was it worth the wait? was it everything you hope and more or did it fall flat on its ass? who do you think the unknown pov is? no one but me and my girl Naachan know and she dont read twilight so she aint tellin.

Naked Jasper got a lot of good reviews last chapter he said he doesnt really mind delivering teasers like that though i think next time he may deliver them in a leather chaps and a cowboy hat nothing else :) so if your nice and click that like button down there Jasper in leather will show up at your door with a teaser. you know you want to. reviews are like Jasper in leather always wanted and always needed!