Disclaimer: I do not own any of these character or events. Please thank Takahashi Rumiko-sensei for the wonderful events and lovable characters.

AN: I've decided to put in the authors notes, the chapters covered by a diary entry, that way if anyone really wants to get in depth critiquing me, by all means. I love it.

IY Chapters 158 -163

Journal,

I should really think to address you by something else. It feels so abnormal to address something by the word "Journal." I should name you. It should be something pretty. I think I shall address you as Yume. Only because only in my dreams and in you do I feel that I can ever log my emotions and events in my life without embarrassment.

Everything just seems to blur together these days. InuYasha killed Goshinki. But we left his body as it was. That didn't sit right with me. Now I know why. Allow me to explain.

When Tetsusaiga broke InuYasha was on his own. But that's when he transformed into the youkai and defeated Goshinki. Sliced him to pieces. I know why seeing something sliced to pieces doesn't bother me, but for the life of me, I can't figure out why it doesn't bother Kagome-chan.

Maybe it's because she's been traveling with the guys longer. I don't know how long they had been traveling together before our paths crossed.

Anyways, we left him there... Well... what was left of him at least. But InuYasha was in such a hurry to get away, clutching the pieces of Tetsusaiga to him, that I didn't even have a chance to suggest burning the remains of the Naraku extension. Maybe it would of save us some trouble, and a run in with Sesshoumaru.

So Myouga led InuYasha off somewhere and left us all behind. While I'm sure Miroku fantasizes about multiple women at once, I'm sure being left with the two of us was his worst nightmare.

What if it's true, what if I am his worst nightmare? Why? When I can only fantasize about being with him for the rest of my life?

Back to the point. So we waited for the majority of the day for InuYasha to come back. I found a small brook near our campsite, and informed Kagome-chan that I was going to bathe. I asked her to keep Miroku pre-occupied so that I could soak in piece, clear my mind a little. You know?

Worst decision of my life. I'm pretty sure he watched me the whole time. I'm so glad that I strip of cloth to keep myself covered in cases like this. If it weren't for that wonderful cloth, Miroku's eyes would have known every detail of my body. Not that I don't want him too... but it makes me sooo mad to think that he would do this with any nude woman around.

When I returned to camp, Miroku was sitting near Kagome-chan with a bright red mark across his face. This is how I knew he had been watching me, without anyone saying anything. Where are shackles when you need them?

Ask dusk came, InuYasha did as well. And when everything was black, so was InuYashas hair. I've never seen him human before. I have to admit, he was quite handsome. If Kagome-chan weren't in love with InuYasha (though she won't admit it herself) I might have made a move for him. But then Miroku informed me that the effect would only last until sun up.

All I could respond with was "Oh." I made sure to check out of the corner of my eye to see if Miroku responded to my disappointment and it looked like it did, but I could have been dreaming.

Shortly after I feel asleep. But not for long, because a short youkai with a necklace of small skulls appeared and claimed that the sword he held, craved for the blood of InuYasha. Unfortunately, InuYasha was still human, for the sun had not begun to rise.

InuYasha, like the idiot he is, rushed forward anyways, with no youki, and no sword. Miroku and I had to push him back. Its a once in a lifetime thing when you say to a dog with an ego, that he needs to stand back and be protected by humans. My ego swelled for this.

Until that damned youki cut Hiraikotsu in half. To lose a battle is one thing, but to lose the only weapon you've known, is a completely separate feeling. My heart dropped along with the pieces of Hiraikotsu.

Kaijinbou, the youkai identified himself as, stated that the sword he held high was made from the fangs of Goshinki, and the malice and thirst for revenge against InuYasha flowed through the sword as if it was made of flesh and blood. Not just fangs.

Luckily at this point Toutousai showed up with Tetsusaiga. But happily point out that InuYasha would not be able to use it. Would dog boy listen? Of course not. And he pulled Tetsusaiga from its sheath and it didn't transform. Of course InuYasha was still human.

But the rest of the battle kind of bored me, it was InuYasha ego talking and Kaijinbou laughing some creepy laugh. At least it did when InuYasha transformed back into a hanyou. Lots of ego talk and swords clashing.

I watched anyways. I could tell something was different when Tetsusaiga transformed, and this was verified by dog boy barking at Toutousai, complaining that he changed the sword.

Anyways... so blah blah blah. I was too busy worrying about Hiraikotsu. And yes InuYasha defeated Kaijinbou, only to lead himself into a battle with Sesshoumaru, who appeared to claim Toukijin. If Sesshoumaru weren't so evil, I'd have to admit that he's quite beautiful.

But Sesshoumaru lead InuYasha into this battle, not to defeat him, but for something else. I couldn't tell. Sesshoumaru had the upper hand, forced InuYasha to release Tetsusaiga, and hit him with a couple powerful swings, but then the aura around InuYasha changed as he began to transform again. Toutousai butted in and helped us flee with InuYasha.

I'm not sure why. If InuYasha had transformed, he could have easily defeated Sesshoumaru. Toutousai is quite strange when it comes to the brother. But he fixed Hiraikotsu as if it was nothing! The relief I felt made me want to sing.

To have my beloved weapon back is so wonderful. I'm so happy.

As Toutousai was fixing Hiraikotsu, Myouga was lecturing InuYasha just a few yards away. I could hear exactly what they were saying, but I heard InuYasha raise his voice, then pull out Tetsusaiga, and as it transformed he held it up over the side of the small cliff and was pulled into the water by the swords weight.

I laughed so hard that I feel over. It was a good day. At least I think .

Sango