Firstly thank you all for your reviews and follows, they really do mean a lot to me, and I didn't really expect any so all of you are fab! Secondly I am writing this semi-drunk, scrap that very drunk, which may account for why I have uploaded this at gone 5am so I would not expect anything great, but I felt like you all deserved an update, because I am shit at updating regularly ... Thirdly I would like to dedicate this to one of my bestest friends who I found out was writing a far better lorikki fic than me on this site but I love her so... Grr ;) So yeh, Enjoy, and review or don't enjoy, whatever.
ps. I want to apologise at how cringey and lovey this chapter is. It does not come naturally to write this sort of stuff to me, angst is more my thing and my spelling and grammar is atrocious.. (as you may guess after reading this god awful chapter)
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My eyelids flutter open as I take in my surroundings. My eyes blurred from a deep sleep as I try to focus on the feature wall in front of me. I'm in my bed, and it is light, and I am not alone. I can feel a heavy weight across my chest; it's comforting and feels so right. It feels so fucking right. I look down and see Nikki lying across me, one arm wrapped around my waist with her head leaning on my chest, hair sprawled everywhere. I silently watch her, my breathing shallow, trying not to wake her. I take in her beauty and wonder how I nearly let myself lose her; she is so perfect, and I nearly let her slip through my fingers. I was so stupid. But none of that matters, because she is here, now, in my bed, cuddled up against me, sleeping soundly. And I watch her sleep, I don't know how long I watch her for, but I try and match my breathing with hers, a heavy slow methodical breathing, and it feels as if I am totally in tune with her. I untangle my arms from around her body and reach for my phone.
It is early, really early and I still have hours before I have to actually be awake to get ready for school, but I can't bring myself to sleep. It is as if as soon as I close my eyes it'll all become undone, as if she isn't actually here, as if I've dreamt it all. And I curse myself for being so embarrassing and romantic. Lorraine Donnegan is not the romantic sort. She finds romance sickening and a waste of time. Romance interferes with business. But with Nikki it's different. Nikki makes me want to do all the stupid coupley stuff, like go for picnics in the park or snuggle on the sofa watching a romantic movie, or just stay up all night chatting about mundane things. I watch Nikki sleeping soundly, and I know that I am lucky. Really fucking lucky. I'm lucky that she is here with me now, I am lucky that she gave me a second chance, and I am lucky that she fell for me in the first place. I wrap my arms around her, match my breathing with hers, and slowly I fall back asleep.
'Lorraine... Lorraine?' I hear as Nikki gently shakes me awake. I flicker open my eyes and see her staring down at me; her eyes watching my every move intently. I smile up at her, and she grins back, 'Morning,' she whispers,
'Morning,' I whisper back, wrapping my arms around her tighter and pulling her closer to me as she squeezes me back. 'What's the time?' I ask.
'Time to get up I'm afraid babe, we have to leave for work in just over an hour,' she replies, leaning down to capture my lips in a kiss. I respond eagerly, kissing her with everything I have. She pulls away slowly, 'If we start this now, we are never going to be ready for work in time,' she murmurs against my lips. I frown and kiss her again, slowly at first but then faster, more needy. 'Seriously babe, we can't do this, Michael is already mad at us without us being late' she persists.
'Fineee,' I moan as I unwind my limbs from hers and climb out of bed. 'You're such a spoil sport,' I turn around and say to her, grinning wickedly as I head towards my ensuite.
'Do you think Michael would have told Christine?' I struggle to hide my concern as we pull into Waterloo Road. I'm worried. I know she can tell I'm worried; she's looking at me with that sympathetic look.
'I don't know babe, but would it be so bad if he did?' She replies taking my free hand as I park up in the nearest space. 'They'll have to find out about us sooner or later if we are serious about each other... we are serious right?' She questions timidly, as if all the confidence has been wiped from her.
'I...umm. yes, of course we are, it's just I've only just accepted this myself, and I don't know how I'll handle other people knowing, especially not Sonya y'know... she doesn't even know I'm seeing anyone. Let alone a girl,' I trail off as I say the last part of my sentence. I glance up, chancing a look at Nikki. She is watching me closely.
'Well, she'll have to find out sometime babe, maybe you should tell her before we tell anyone else? I'm willing to wait until you are ready for the rest of the staff to find out, but I won't wait forever, I don't want to be your dirty little secret.'
'You could never be my secret Nik, you are so much more than a fling to me, I am finding myself really falling for you, I just don't know how to deal with it all you know? It's difficult'. She squeezes my hand gently and looks at me.
'I know babe, and I'll go at your pace, whatever you want,' she grins at me, and I find myself repressing the urge to kiss her.
'Oh god I want nothing more than to kiss you right now,' I whisper taking her other hand in mine.
'And I want nothing more than that too, but I think if we sit in this car any longer Michael will come looking for us and we'll both be in trouble, look, I'll see you later yeh?' She opens the door, gathers up her books and steps out of the car.
'Yeh, I'll see you later babe.' I whisper, but she is already gone, walking into the school turning around to shoot a grin at me.
Oh god I can only apologise for this chapter. I've also just realised I wrote that Sonya doesn't know when this is meant to be a continuation from ep24, so lets just pretend that Michael found out about Lorraine and Nikki some other way ;)