Disclaimer: Oh how I wish I owned CCS. *sigh* CCS and its characters belong to CLAMP. I think CLAMP is really cool

Tomoeda

It was a bright sunny morning and everyone had a smile on their face. Ok, maybe not everyone. There was this one young lady whose name is Daidouji Tomoyo, who looked like someone who didn't get enough sleep. Her hair was a bit tangled; her hat was to a side, her eyes red-rimmed and her nose slightly red. Her usual smile was nowhere to be seen and she didn't seem to radiate the same aura.

"Ohayou Tomoyo-chan!" exclaimed an overly excited Sakura. She went running to her best friend, and cousin, who was sitting in the back, staring at the tree outside.

"Ohayou Sakura-chan," Tomoyo replied but not with the same enthusiasm like Sakura. She smiled a bit so she wouldn't get unnecessary attention. People might ask what was wrong, if they dared, but it didn't really mean that they were going to help or that they cared.

"Guess what?" Sakura chirped. She hugged herself, and then sat down with exciting emerald eyes and hands clasped together.

"What?" not particularly interested in what was about to be told, yet wanting her mind to be distracted for a while.

"Well, yesterday I was on my way to the grocery store when…," Sakura trailed off with her long story while Tomoyo stared at the tree outside through the window. How come everyone and everything seemed much better than her today?

"And that's how it happened. Isn't it great?" Sakura asked when she ended. She sighed outwardly and took out some candy. She offered some to Tomoyo who refused politely.

"Hai." Then there was silence. Sakura frowned, something she rarely did, and observed her friend.

"Hoe, Tomoyo-chan are you feeling well?" her voice full of worry.

"Yeah I am." Trying to sound better but failing miserably. All Tomoyo wanted was to go home.

"But your eyes look red and tired." She placed a hand on her cousin's cheek. "Were you crying?"

A lie came through her lips. "No, I got allergies; that's all."

"Oh, I hope you feel better." She said sincerely before taking a last glance at Tomoyo.

Last night she did cry and did not get a wink of sleep. She bit her lip in an attempt of not letting tears roll down her cheeks. And all this time she thought she had been a friend. In a way she didn't want to acknowledge reality. She hoped it was all a prank, a lie, or perhaps a mistake. Unfortunately, something told her otherwise.

What had happened the day before was that when she got home she received a much anticipated letter from her British friend, Eriol Hiiragizawa. She always looked forward to his letters. But not one like this. When she had finished reading it she had noticed how her hands were shaking and how stinging hot tears rolled down her cheeks. She crumpled the letter but didn't throw it away. Though she wanted, really wanted, to throw it away something told her that she shouldn't, even if it hurt.

Tomoyo lowered her head and pretended to fall sleep. Which she couldn't as the teacher called her attention.

Finally the day was over. Tomoyo got all her things and left as quickly as possible. As soon as she left the school's gates she let some tears flow. On her way home she went to King Penguin Park and sat on one of the swings and felt more tears flow. She felt so alone now. She took out the letter that she had on her pocket with trembling hands, and felt her heart being torn apart when she re-read the letter again, teardrops falling on the paper. She, Daidouji Tomoyo, was supposed to be the perfect and flawless girl that everyone thought. She wouldn't show any weakness; she had to keep her reputation. Today she would cry all she wanted but tomorrow she would act as if nothing happened. That's what she told herself when it started to rain.

Another day

Tomoyo took a deep breath and walked to where some lights and noises were waiting for her. She bowed and opened her mouth. Now she was at stage trying to sing when a croak came out. Never before had she felt so embarrass.

This cannot be happening to me! She thought in horror as she saw the audience in front of her.

"Everyone look!" Eriol mocked, midnight blue eyes twinkling. "Daidouji can't sing!" Then he did an imitation of her which caused a lot of commotion.

Everyone she cared for, her mother, Sakura, her friends, and Eriol were all laughing at her. She felt the urge to flee. She took a step back and left the auditorium, running with all her might. She was so distracted in running that in one she fell in the middle of the road and found it hard to stand. She looked to her right and the next thing she knew was the sound of a car and lights blinding her.

Tomoyo woke up with a startled. She was panting and trying to make sure she was fine. Her heart was beating so fast that she thought it would go out. Finally taking notice of her surroundings, she realized that she was inside her room.

"A flashback and a nightmare," she whispered placing a hand over her heart. The first dream had been a flashback of the day after she received the last letter. The second one had been a nightmare with one of her greatest fears. She placed a hand on her forehead as if a realization had just popped out of nowhere.

What if Eriol only agreed to her proposal yesterday to just make the same thing all over again? What if he was mocking her in a way?

She glanced at her clock and saw that she had woken up early. She decided to get ready and in her reflection she saw something different.

With a fierce determination she decided that she will not let her guard down, and that they would only be friendly and try to work together for the sake of the project. After that, they would turn back to how things were. A cold and distant relationship of nothing, and they would be nothing but strangers.

"Daidouji-san," Eriol went to her with a smile on his face. He offered himself to carry her books but she shook her head. "I was wondering if you wanted to go out and have some tea with me today in the afternoon."

She looked up; when had he gotten so tall? When amethyst eyes met deep blue ones she stated with a strong voice, "Hiiragizawa-san look, I want you to know that the only reason I'll be friendly for a while is because you said that we had to work together for this project. Neither one of us wants to fail the subject and we both know this. It would be only for this project that we would set our differences aside. After this we will be back to our usual relationship. I hope that this has been clear. Well, have a nice day." With that she left, her hair moving along with her in a bouncy way.

Eriol had his mouth opened, and a deep surprised and confused look on his face. What on earth had just happened? He simply got more confused with her now. He thought she had been the one to propose the 'start from the beginning' and he thought everything would go fine between them. And now she changes her mind again. She sure was a complex person. But Eriol only knew one thing and he was sure of that. He was not going to give up on finding out what had said the letter that made her turn so cold towards him and he was determined to end this icy relationship. He was going to be her friend once again.

…And perhaps even more.

Author's notes: I can't believe I came up with all this at school before 7 am. Hehehe. I hate making Tomoyo or any character suffer but I just have to. Anyway, I felt somewhat not satisfied with how they made up yesterday, even though I was planning to write more and stuff. I was glad I wasn't the only who noticed. I really appreciate any feedback or comments. Don't worry, it won't hurt me since it will help me. This is my first fanfic, well not technically since Daidouji Tomoyo Love Love Chronicle was the first one, but what I mean as one with chapters and actually posting it. So I feel insecure a bit because I'm not used to showing my works except to my best friend. And the fanfic will be longer. Oh and for those who wonder what the letter said they'll have to stick by and wait for future chapters. *evil glint*