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AN: I am soooo SORRY that its taken me this long to update!! I don't want it to seem like I'm giving excuses, but my computers been broken and there hasn't been any way for me to update for you guys…and then when I got a new computer I had major writers block…but just recently I got a lot of inspiration, so I started to write. I hope that even though its taken almost 4 months to update you guys are still reading!! I'll stop the rambling and let you guys read the story!!
Anyways enjoy!! :D
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Chapter 3: Breaking Down
Dean
"Yea, I don't know. It's weird, ya know. Your life. I mean this house, kid. It's not my life. Never will be. Some stuff happened to me recently, and uh……. Anyway a guy in my situation, ya start to think, ya know. I'm gonna be gone one day. And what am I leaving behind besides a car?"
Those words started to play in my head. I knew at the time that those things would never happen for me in life. But it didn't mean that I didn't wish that it wasn't true.
How could this happen? I'm not an idiot, I knew how it could happen. How could it happen to me? It wasn't meant to.
I didn't have the right kind of life in order to have a kid.
My kid.
I didn't even need to ask to make sure; I didn't need any proof. Cause it was staring me right in the face. All I needed was to see those eyes, and I instantly knew that she was mine.
I started to step backwards.
This couldn't be happening! I didn't have a kid!
I panicked.
Alyssa
Was I dreaming? Was that really him standing in front of me, arms length away?
I started to watch his face very carefully. Wanting to see his reaction when he figured out that I was his.
See my mom never lied to me. She didn't want to have to tell me the truth of course, but she also didn't want me to think my dad was a low life that could run out on his kid. She basically told me that he never knew that she was pregnant with me, and that if he did know he would have been there for me. Mom said if I was ever going to be mad at anyone then I should be mad at her, not him; that she's the one that chose not to tell him.
It was easy to tell the emotions that crossed his face; realization, shock, and then panic. That look didn't go away as he moved away from me.
I knew that he didn't know about me, but I never in a million years thought it would hurt this bad when he figured out the truth. It was like he felt disgusted by me, like he didn't want me.
Before I let the tears fall that were forming in the corner of my eyes, I turned my back on him, and ran towards the house. When I got out of the rain, I heard yelling from behind me; I was going to turn around and see what was going on at first, then I decided against it; I was not going to let him see me cry.
When I got to the guest bedroom I locked the door. I fell to the floor, with tears streaming down my face.
I felt like I couldn't breathe.
Dean
I'm such an ass.
She ran toward the house when she saw me trying to walk away.
I don't even know her name! How is it that I have a kid, and don't even know her name?
I ran after her. What else was I suppose to do?
Just when I was about to reach her someone grabbed onto my arm; acting on instinct I took a hold of his collar and threw him up against the house. "Stay the hell out of my way!" I spit at him right before I punched him square in the eye.
He fell to the ground and I started to make my way towards her again.
"Dean what the hell are you doing?!" Sam yelled, as he positioned himself in front of me.
Damn. I forgot how fast that boy could run. "Move Sam," I said forcefully.
"No." Sam stated. "Dean look at what your doing!" he yelled gesturing around him.
So I looked. Until that moment I wasn't really able to comprehend anything that was going on. Haley was holding the man I punched in the arms, yelling and crying frantically; and a boy was running past me with a towel and a bag of ice.
I felt like everything around me was falling apart; the apocalypse was starting; I was Michaels vessel; Sam was Lucifer's vessel; Brooke was missing; and I had a daughter that I just found out about. I just couldn't handle it anymore. It was like I was getting thrown curve balls left and right and they just wouldn't stop coming. I felt that no matter what I did it either wasn't or it never would be good enough.
It was just coming down at me all at once that I finally got to the point where I was loosing it, and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
I broke down.
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Alyssa
Wasn't the floor supposed to be hard not soft?
I opened my eyes and saw aunt Haley sitting in front of me, staring at me. "You had no right." I told her, and then turned to face the other way.
I knew that I was taking my anger and pain out on her, but I honestly didn't care. She shouldn't have called him. She shouldn't have let him find out about me; it wasn't her right to let him know, it was mine and moms.
She sighed. "We need his help…" she cut herself off before she told me to much.
I turned back around. "We need his help with what, huh? With mom, cause she's missing?" I waited to see if she'd answer my questions, when I knew that she wouldn't. And like I anticipated she just sat there with her mouth hanging open in shock. "Why won't you tell me the truth?! Why did you even call him?!" I didn't even notice I was standing in front of her, yelling in her face by that point. "He doesn't even want to be here! He doesn't care!" I scream at her again and again, sobbing.
She took a hold of me in her arms. I fought her to let go of me. I didn't want or need her sympathy.
But her hold was to strong for me, and I just didn't have the strength to fight her anymore. So I just let it all go. "He doesn't want me." I sobbed into her shoulder.
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AN: So I know its really short, but I still hope you guys enjoyed it! I would like to thank all the people that reviewed the last chapter! I love opening my inbox and seeing that I got reviews for this story, it really makes this story worth writing!!
Thanks to everyone that reviewed: Princesakarlita411, mickeiblue, alex woody, Darkangel22192, fggt16, Niffer01, larahrosier, jenanistonrockz, brucas3468, Silently Tearful, princess21
Anonymous Reviews:
alex woody: Well I hope I didn't disappoint with Dean's reaction, I really think that's how Dean would have acted. And you'll probably find out more about Brooke in one of the 2 upcoming chapters, I'm not sure yet. And I also want to apologize again that it took me so long to updated! I hope your still reading! Anyways thanks for the review!!
princess21: I'm glad that you like the story so far!! And I hope you enjoyed this chapter!!
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