So months went by and Spencer and I were combined by the hip. She became my new best friend and I loved it. But don't tell her that. Oh if your wondering how we did on our project, well we did awesome on it and we both got an "A." I know shocking right. It was my first A in that class. I remember telling Spencer that I had never gotten an A in that class, so we made a bet. If we did really good I would have to take her around LA and show her a good time, and if we did bad I get a free dinner. Well she won, like always. Gotta love that girl. But our fun days came to a stop the day she said she kinda liked Aiden and she was thinking of asking him out just as friends to get to know him, Yuk. I remember that day very well because that was the day I was going to share my feelings toward her.

It was a hot Saturday afternoon and I decided that Spencer and I needed to get out and get a tan, so we went to the beach.

"Come on Spencer, hurry up the sand is calling my name."

Spencer laughing "Ok, it's not like the beach is gonna stand up and walk away."

Spencer get's out of the car and joins Ashley on the path.

"You never know it could happen."

I jokingly said this while Spencer gave me one of her I think full of bull looks. I love that look on her. Always made me smile

So giggling at myself. "what I mean it, some mysterious creature could of did some weird hocus pocus on it and the beach could of came alive and walked away because I didn't get my tan on."

"Oh Ash, where do you come up with this stuff. Oh look, the beach is still here so as you can see nothing happened so there for you can get your tan on." She said this while poking my stomach. I had to cover my stomach with my hands so the butterflies that I already had wouldn't jump out from her touch. But I quickly recovered.

"Yeah because we got here just in time."

Spencer laughing "Whatever"

We walked along the beach till we came to our spot near the boardwalk and laid our towels down on the ground. I helped her put lotion on her tone back as she did me. It felt so good touching her. I wish I could touch her all the time but in order for me to that I would have to tell her my true feelings for her and that scared the shit out of me. But I had to say it. But the only problem with that is what if she rejected me and it hurt our friendship. I loved our friendship and what we had, but I had to try. But I wanted to get in a little sun in before I said anything. Oh hell I staled but after a hour I got the balls to finally spit it out.

"Spenc" "Ash" we said together

We laughed

"You first" she said to me looking at me kindly

I looked in to her blue eyes and thought of what I was going to say and I thought about her face and what it would look like after I shared my feelings to her.

"No, that's ok you go ahead, it's not that important"

"You sure" she said closing her eyes and facing the sun once again.

Rolling my eyes feeling like a slug "yeah go ahead."

"ok...what you think about Aiden Dennison?"

My eyes shot open from the words and a sharp pain in my chest shot through when I heard those words come out of her mouth. I knew right then she didn't have any feelings for me and I knew what she wanted to hear from me but I didn't think I could actually say them out loud.

"uh...he's cute I guess but you know I like girls"

She started laughing and playfully pushed me "no I mean for me silly. I think he is kinda cute. I'm thinking of asking him out just as friends to get to know him and stuff."

I knew right there that I had missed my chance in telling her my true feelings for her so like I always did before I put on a strong face to cover up my pain that I had inside at the moment.

"You should totally do it. What you got to lose."

"Your right...should I call him now." she said to me

It hurt like hell but I went along with it and I encouraged her to make the phone call. I listened for a while but the pain was to much and I had to walk away. I regret now not sharing my feelings to her but I didn't. I found out the next day that they went out on a date and so to make the pain go away I called up some old friends and went out the club I always went to before I met Spencer and drank and slept with the first girl I saw dancing. But I felt different that night. First I felt like I was cheating on spencer so I drank some more but I also felt weak and sick but I ignored the feeling and tried to have a good time. But now I also regret ignoring that sick feeling.

Hey guys sorry that I have not been writing. I have been so busy and still am busy. I had a little time today to write. I hope you guys like it and I am loooking forward to your reviews.