(A/N: Leo's turn. This one actually made me kind of sad. But this fic is supposed to be sad, so I guess it's all right. Also, for people who have read my newest story, the crossover, I know it SUCKS! But, it will get better… I promise!)
Dear Michaelangelo,
Hey bro.
How are you?
Man… I feel like an idiot.
Why am I asking questions to a journal?
Oh yeah… Because Master Splinter said that it will relieve some the grief in this family at the moment.
Right.
Well… Um… I guess I should say a couple of things you missed, shouldn't I? Or how I found your dead body laid out on our couch!
How could you do that to us!? I mean, you could have at least woken one of us up and told us of your condition!
Nothing ever hurt more than that morning Mike… All I did was get up to have my morning cup of tea… But once I left my room, there was a coldness in the Lair. A shiver ran down my spine, and I walked faster away from my door, knowing that something wasn't right. Then I saw your body on our couch… I ran over to you and my heart nearly stopped. I checked your pulse.
None.
You were dead, and you didn't even tell me that you were dying.
I mean… I was supposed to take care of you, Raph, and Don… But I failed with you…
I am not fit to be leader, am I?
I am sorry bro.
Love,
Leonardo – Big Bro
Dear Michaelangelo,
Hey bro, it's me, Leo. I still miss you a lot.
Something has happened, in which I think I must write about it.
One of our brothers has attempted suicide. Yes, I wrote that correctly. Our brother, Raphael, tried to hang himself in his bedroom from a pipe hanging from the ceiling.
Once he went to bed at 9PM I knew something was up. Everyone went to bed shortly after that, and I went to his room to see what was up.
But I wasn't prepared to see him standing on his tall bed with a noose around his neck about to jump. I ran to him.
But I was too late. He jumped. But luckily, he didn't jump right, so his neck didn't snap. I quickly pulled out my katana and cut the rope. He passed out. I was in tears.
Now I am sitting on his bed, and he seems to be in a normal sleep now. I applied ointment to his neck after he passed out. Now his neck is irritated and has red marks where skin broke from the rope.
I can't believe he did that.
Why didn't he talk to me, before he thought of doing something like that?
It's probably because he didn't know he could talk to me about something personal like that. I bet he didn't know about that incident that happened during the time that I struggled with my failure after the defeat of the Utrom Shredder.
I remember that I had a few of my pocketknives set around me. I picked my sharpest one up, and set the edge on my wrist. I saw all of my veins popping out and I shut my eyes tight and pressed harder. I felt skin break, then I heard you say in a serious, stern voice.
"Stop." That word made me break down into tears and you quickly sat next to me and hugged me tightly, wary of the knives surrounding me. You whispered things in my ear, like how I could've told you about my problems and things like that. I eventually calmed down, and then you took me to the bathroom. You cleaned my bleeding wound and bandaged my wrist. When the others asked about it in the morning, you just stated that we went topside and got into a scuffle with some Purple Dragons, and I got a small cut. They bought it.
We never spoke of that since, but I think that this entry was the right time to talk about it.
Well, I'm going to finish watching Raph, and talk to him when he next wakes, so I need to stop writing.
I love you Mikey, and I miss you so much…
I hope you can forgive me for failing you as a brother and a leader…
Love Always and Forever,
Leonardo