Last little chapter in this three-shot. Enjoy!
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3. I don't want to miss a thing
She can't stop looking at him. He's really here and this is really happening. She knew they would be explosive together and at times she had wondered if they would be destructive. She isn't used to letting people get close to her but with Elliot, it's always been different. She knows now that they are explosive, but not destructive. And she can't get enough of them. Of him.
I could stay awake
Just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
He looks so peaceful. So content. She's never seen him like this in all the years she's known him. Granted, she's never seen him naked and she's never been naked with him before, but that's not all that's different. It's not even the most important thing that's different. He looks like he belongs. They belong. It's exactly how she feels as well. She cherishes this feeling that is so completely new.
I could spend my life In this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
He opens his eyes and turns his head to look at her. A lazy smile plays on his lips. Content, she thinks again. He feels like home.
"Can't sleep?" he asks.
"I don't wanna," she answers lazily and she grins when he raises an eyebrow. "I just want to look at you a little longer."
Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
"I'm not going anywhere Liv. I promise. I'm here to stay for as long as you'll have me," Elliot tells her and she knows he means it.
Everything is different now. All the dreams she'd pushed aside, telling herself she was being stupid and he was married and he would never be hers ... they were all back only they weren't dreams anymore. They were real. And her dreams paled in comparison to the real thing.
'Cause, even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
She caresses his chest and places a few soft kisses on his skin. His chest hair tickles her nose and she inhales his scent. He smells of deodorant and sweat and the musky smell of his bed, mixed with something she can only describe as Elliot.
Elliot turns into her and captures her lips with his own, and she lets go. Finally, finally, she can let go. His warm hands caress her back and her ass, and one hand moves down the back of her thigh until he holds her leg in place behind her knee. Now that his hand has stopped moving, his mouth begins its own journey down her body. She gasps when he finds her sweet spots and when he rocks his body against hers, making her feel how much she affects him again already. He makes love to her body with his mouth and his hands and she lets him. He is reading her and adjusting his ministrations to maximize her pleasure and she almost wants to cry. Nobody has ever made love to her like this, as if she's the most important thing in the entire world. As if she's everything. It's all for her, he insists. He doesn't expect her to return the favor right away, just to enjoy it. And she basks in it. Probably for the first time in her life, she allows herself to be loved and to accept that someone loves her. She finally knows what it means to cry from happiness.
When she is completely sated, Elliot wraps her in his arms and holds her close to him, kissing the crown of her head from time to time until he drifts off to sleep again. He is content and so is she. She listens to his breathing evening out and the strong beating of his heart.
Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
'Cause, even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
He smiles when she kisses the corner of his mouth. She just can't resist it and she loves his smile. He is finally giving her his whole smile, without holding anything back.
I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
She pulls him on top of her and they both laugh when they almost fall out of the narrow bed. After some shifting, she has him where she wants him, the weight of his body a warm blanket on top of her, his hips fitting perfectly between her own. He is leaning on his elbows, smiling down at her and she caresses his cheeks lovingly.
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
"This is it, isn't it?" she whispers and she swallows hard after saying the words out loud.
"Yeah," Elliot says, and she recognizes the same emotion in his eyes.
"I just wanna look at you," she admits.
"I meant what I said Liv. You can't get rid of me now even if you tried."
She smiles and nudges him until he moves in to kiss her softly on the lips. She closes her eyes and before she can change her mind, she whispers against his lips,
"I love you."
She feels his chest tremble when he exhales shakily and she is aware of the significance of this moment. She's said it first. She is open now. Exposed. And she's no longer afraid. Elliot responds by kissing her deeply and she feels a tear fall on her cheek. It's his tear. He is crying because he knows now that she won't run away. She is all in like he is, and she is accepting that she is worthy to be loved. When they break apart Elliot grins at her and tells her,
"Now I don't want to sleep either. You are so much better than all my dreams combined. I love you too, Olivia."
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
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The End