My eyes fluttered open, only to be faced with complete darkness. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. Another bad dream, great, even though once again, I couldn't remember what it was about. All I could remember was that it had to do with Ukraine. Perhaps becaus she was my last thought before I went to sleep, which is rare since my last thoughts are usually always with Russia.

I got out of my bed and turned the light on, my bedroom immediately becoming very light. I squinted my eyes, the light could be such a bother. I quickly searched for my phone to see what time it was, tripping once, falling on the ground with a rather loud thump. I just hoped it hadn't woken anyone up.

" 5AM", I muttered when I found my phone and turned it on, the time immediately popping up on my screen. I walked towards the curtains and opened them a bit. When I looked outside I noticed that it was dark, as expected, but the light of my room made some snow visible. In the snow a little squirrel sat, doing what squirrels like to do. The squirrel immediately looked at me, but did not run off. I raised my eyebrow. Was it used to humans or something? Before I could even try to answer that question, the squirrel left, its little footsteps in the snow being all that was left. I sighed and closed the curtains again when I suddenly remembered the promise I had made yesterday.

" I'll do it from now on."

I stumbled through the kitchen, only having one dim light on. I wasn't planning on getting blinded again. While I was looking through all the things Russia had here to get some inspiration ( despite thinking I could do better than Ukraine, I had absolutely no clue what to make), I noticed some bottles of vodka and an empty bag of crisps. Of course, Ukraine and Russia had stayed up, but didn't clean the mess up. I grabbed the bottles and put them away, then throwing the empty bag away, which they had probably shared…

I shook my head and decided to focus on making breakfast, that was most important. Last night had already happened, today's breakfast hadn't. It actually surprised how there weren't that many ingredients or any kind of other food at all.

" What the hell. Did breakfast yesterday seriously take that much food up? Or-"

I got cut off by a femine voice. " It didn't." When I looked up I saw that it was Ukraine, still being in her pyjamas, just like I was. She walked towards me as she continued her story. " I suppose Russia underestimated the needed amount of food."

" Probably. … why are you up so early?"

" Well, what do you think?", she said as she took an ingredient, smiling a bit at me, but with a small sign of nervousity.

I thought for a moment. My brow furrowed; I didn't get it. " Did my fall wake you up or something?"

She giggled shortly in response. " Yes, but it's not the reason why I got out. Don't you remember? We would make food together", a heart warming smile following up.

"…. Right." My memory was really dissapointing me.

She smiled more at me and asked me what my plan was. Basically, she was now shoving the responsiblity in my lap, and I didn't mind it. As we were working on breakfast, I suddenly remembered what had happened last night. I really screwed up. After all, I basically told her to go screw herself and forget about becoming really close to me. I sighed. Yet, Ukraine stood here again besides me, helping, probably more than just a little bit aware of what my intentions with this breakfast are. I insulted her, most likely made her cry too, but now she was smiling again. She really didn't make any sense. It did make me feel a bit bad, especially because I realized I was not pleasing brother with those kind of actions.

" Say, Ukraine…"

" Yes?" She looked up at me from the table she was preparing.

" About last night.."

" Oh, it's all- " I cut her off.

" No, seriously", I walked towards her, " I didn't mean it like that, I was just- " Now she cut me off, surprisingly.

" Belarus, it's okay. I shouldn't be bothering you, I could've known better. You shouldn't be the only one watching your words, I should too." She smiled at me. " I shouldn't expect you to jump into it."

No, indeed, not at all. I did appreciate her words though. "… Right, you shouldn't" I said, quickly walking back to the kitchen unit, seeing a hug coming up. A suffocating hug wasn't exactly what I was waiting for. I quickly glanced back at Ukraine, a sad look appearing on her face, but she hid it by continuing the preparing I decided not to do much about that.

One question did pop up in my head: " I left her behind with big brother, and now she's all happy and whatever, does it have a connection?" Sure, I knew that Ukraine was a pretty happy person despite the cry baby tears which rolled down her cheeks so often, but this was just too suspicious. I examined her from distance, my eyes soon focusing on her lips. " Maybe she's so happy because she had brother close to her, maybe they even kissed…!" My lip twitched, anger filling me. It just could not be..! Oh, if it was, if it was….

" Everything's finished, Belarus. Let's change clothes, by the time we have done that I'm sure Russia will be awake."

I muttered a ' fine' in response, my voice already having turned deeper from the anger. At the speed of light I changed my clothes, just so I could quickly go spy on Ukraine, to make sure she wouldn't secretly go to Russia. It had been a while since last time I spied on her, mainly because I had been rather busy. I mean, not everyone has the time to drive over to her place just to go through her garbage bags ( which is by the way very interesting, I can tell you that) Luckily, she didn't go to him, who knows how things would've gone then.

Both brother and sister were enjoying breakfast a lot, I was happy to see Russia enjoying the food so much, but I had another very important job now: keep a keen eye on Ukraine. I stared at her during breakfast, sometimes she caught me looking, but I didn't look away. She probably thought very weird of me, but my eyes watching over her didn't ruin her fun. She was laughing with Russia, making me hold my knife very tightly. Eventually the poor material couldn't take my grip anymore, the knife breaking in two. My siblings' eyes immediately focused on me. It looked like Russia was starting to tremble, ready to escape the cabin, and Ukraine just looked shocked.

Shit.

For a moment a feeling of anxiety crossed my mind, but I quickly pulled myself together and started cleaning up, even though we weren't finished eating yet at all. I took the leftovers of the food away, even the ingredients we left on the kitchen unit to clean up later, to throw them away, each item seperately. Now that squirrel from earlier could enjoy that. Ukraine and Russia only looked more and more afraid everytime I threw something away. Not that I didn't blame them, looking back at this, I was being very idiotic, what could I possible reach with this? But well, at that moment I just had to let it out, and the food became my victim. I turned to Russia.

" There aren't many resources here, big brother. Not enough for a week for sure."

Russia remained silent.

" Perhaps,", I said as I walked towards him, taking his hand, " we should get some more resources together, yes?"

My dear brother started stressing. " I-I can go p-perfectly fine b-by myself too, B-belarus, but t-thank you for the kind offer." He smiled at me, but it was too nervous to even make me happy inside. He escaped my grib and got the keys of the car.

" I'll be back very soon, don't worry about me. Have fun you two~!" He walked to the exit, opening the door and then closed behind it him. Barely 10 seconds later the sound of a car driving away could be heard.

Russia had left.

Welp, that took longer than expected XD My apologies. Next week school also starts, so that means updates might take longer, or a chapter being shorter ( also just noticed that every chapter has ~1400 words. Coincidence? I don't think so) I hope you guys will understand :)