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CHAPTER 3 FIN.

Martin's POV

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60 Minutes

Did she just say Murphy? As in Ariana Murphy? This night couldn't get any weirder. She looks like her but if she were related to her, she would be mourning her death … sort of but not quite the same as I am. I'll take that walk with her, have that cup of tea with her and if this is going to turn into a one night stand, take some comfort in her too.

We walked along Greenwich Village, her apartment wasn't too far from there. As promised, she invited me up for tea. We talked for awhile about the Bureau, our jobs and how different they actually were. I'm a field agent and she's a Tech Geek … that's the non- official term but the one she likes the most. We laughed about that and for the first time today, I smiled … no scratch that, today is now tomorrow, yesterday was twenty minutes ago and yesterday I needed twenty freakin minutes to save a life. The reality of that hit me again … again this woman, Darcy, made forget, for the briefest of moments, that I let a life slip through my hands yesterday. She broke me from my reverie with a kiss. I shouldn't let this happen, it's not like me but at this moment in time, it's what I need.

Sixty minutes later I was hailing a cab and headed up town to my apartment. We made love, if you could call it that. She straddled me on her couch and I started to remove her shirt. She went for my belt and I was on top of her pulling her clothes off after that. She pushed me off and went down on me. My head was spinning out of control. I stopped her and pulled her back on my lap and impaled her on my hardened member. She rode me like I was the last man on earth. I was throbbing inside her. She was nipping and kissing my neck, telling me how good I felt inside her and how hard I was … she was pushing me over the edge. She came, I came. I left. Sounds bad I know … I'm leaving out a part. I called her Ariana … I know … I need therapy.

The morning after felt like a hangover and to be perfectly honest, I wish I had one. Going into work to face Medina was not on my list of favorite things to do. Can you imagine my surprise to find Jack back at the helm? Good or bad, Jack built this team … it's a good team, even a great one. My father's flunky approaches me to warn me about Jack … I can't help but roll my eyes when I hear him call my name. I don't want to hear it, I don't want to talk to him. I want today to be the day that I move forward, yesterday I fucked up, or was that earlier this morning. I'm talking about Darcy … I won't and can't accept responsibility for Ariana's death, that's on Medina's head. So, Jack and I will have a talk. I didn't want his job and I don't want anything handed to me on a silver platter because of the elder Fitzgerald. If I move on to bigger and better things at the Bureau, I want it to be on my own volition … my own ability … but how am I to ever know that for sure.

I need to take some responsibility for what I did to Darcy … I need to clear that Murphy from my head now, I'm really not that kind of guy. I sent her flowers, two floors up, with an apology and an invitation to lunch some day. She apparently put the flowers through the shredder and sent them back down in a box … with crime scene tape around it. Danny could not stop laughing. Hell, it was funny. I tried … I'll try again. I have friends in white collar, maybe they can unplug the shredder.

As far as life at the FBI goes. I am damn good at my job. As long as they'll have me, I'll keep doing it. Jack and I will be fine. We made it through the Samantha thing, we'll make it through this. I know now that I'm in a bit of a crisis, so I'll go to my meetings with Danny and I'll be more understanding to my fellow addicts. Martin is still lurking inside … the good Martin … we all have a dark side. Medina brought out my dark side. He's gone … good Martin is coming back.

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Fin. Thanks for reading, reviews are much appreciated ... Judeey:)