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III
Kurt was confused ,that morning he woke up alone in his bed. Puck was gone and he felt cold and tired and he did not want to go to school. However, he got up, got dressed and put his make-up on; when he was on his way upstairs he noticed the little note near his messenger bag, it just said ' I'm leaving before your father finds out that I slept in your bed. ; ) See you in school Princess – Puck'
Kurt was in school now, he was walking in the hallway when he saw the Mohawk-ed boy, and he reached for him, Kurt greeted the other boy with a polite " Good morning Puckerman "; Puck responded with a shove in the lockers and a " 'Sup fairy?". The jocks that where with Puck laughed while Kurt walked away. Yeah Kurt was really confused. He had just imagined Puck in his room the night before? He had just imagined the sweetest boy ever, climbing down his window to taking care of him? He had imagined as well the warmth of Puck's embrace? the peace he had felt being held by his strong arms, his ear on the other boy's chest and his heartbeat who accompanied him in his sleep? No, he couldn't had imagined all that. Kurt felt really stupid because probably Puck was just pretending to be his friend, to care about him, just to set another stupid prank. The Jock was probably going to tell everyone about him, about how pathetic and weak he was, how fat and undesirable...he was going to tell everything that happen the night before, all the school will know about the cuts. Kurt felt ashamed, and scared he couldn't bear the thought of someone who knew about him. His bullies would know all the things they say or do affect him like that, they would win.
The pale boy was so overwhelmed by that thoughts he felt like drowning, he ran down the hallways till he found a janitor closet, he entered without turn the lights on and he sat there on the floor facing the door and like the night before he embraced his legs and rested his forehead on his knees. Kurt felt sad and betrayed but also angry. He was angry because he had nothing to hurt himself with and he was in desperate need of hurting himself, he needed to punish himself for being weak, for trusting Puck, for cowering in a closet. But he had nothing to hurt himself with.
Kurt knew he should go to class, he heard the bell but he couldn't bring himself to leave his refuge. He stayed in the closet for second period but half way through third period the door was pull open and the light turned on. Kurt was still in the same position, with his head on his knees so he wasn't blinded for the suddenly light but he couldn't either see the intruder.
Kurt heard the door being closet and the mystery person sat next to him but he was still hiding his face in his knees because his face was certainly a mess and he wasn't that curios about who found him.
The closet was in complete silence until the mystery person spoke
"you fucking scare the shit out of me"
Puck.
The intruder was Puck. Great...just great!
Kurt didn't say anything he knew if he tried to say something he would end up crying and he had already done that, thankyouverymuch.
" you were nowhere to be found. You weren't in second period...and then I overheard that Asian chick said you weren't in first period either "
no response from Kurt
"I thought something bad had happened to you...I looked for you everywhere"
Kurt just wanted him to stop talking and leave him alone. He knew Puck wasn't sincere, he knew he was just make fun of him, he will push him away like everybody else, ha had been stupid for thinking they could be friends. That was Puck, he was a Neanderthal, a bully, a jerk and Kurt just wanted to make him stop talking.
Puck moved to put his arm around Kurt's shoulder in an very awkward half hug, at that Kurt shrugged him away
" don't touch me!" Kurt almost yelled
" come on princ-"
SLAP
the sound of Puck being slapped by Kurt echoed in the small closet.
'O my god! I'm dead!' Kurt thought, no one hits Puck without consequences...hell! no one look at him in the eyes when he's having a bad day let alone slap him...Kurt was so, so dead.
Kurt shuts his eyes, waiting for the inevitable pain of his nose being broken by the Jock. After a minute without any excruciating pain, Kurt opened his eyes, he saw Puck, sitting next to him with his legs stretched, his left hand stroked his cheek and his eyes were glaring at the door in front of them with anger.
" Puck.."
" shut up"
" Puck I'm sorry"
" I said SHUT. UP! I'm this close to beat you in bloody pulp so just shut the fuck up and let me calm"
Kurt just nodded, he was too terrified to speak again.
When the bell that announce the end of third period rang someone from the outside tried to open the door, it was probably someone ho was looking to a place to make out with a cheerio, anyway Puck just kicked the door shot again before whoever was outside could saw them.
The noise of the door being kicked made Kurt jump. When his heartbeat came back to normal Kurt turned to Puck, now he wasn't touching his cheek anymore but he clenched his fists.
"why did you hit me?" Puck asked without looking at him
Kurt was still too scared to talk because Puck didn't look calm at all.
"Hummel?" Puck caught his attention turning to him
" I...I didn't want to talk to you, because I know what you're really doing.."
" what am I doing?"
"You are pretending to care about me and then you'll tell everything to the all school and you'll have a great time laughing about the pathetic fag that believe you were his friend and-"
" Dude!what the hell?" the jock was looking at Kurt in shock
"come on stop playing with me! You're just insulting my intelligence" the brunette said with the best 'bitch please' face he could give after 2 hours spent crying in a closet.
Puck was silent, looking at him in confusion, then his expression changed in guilt
"is this about this morning?"
Kurt refused to respond and goes back looking the door
"Hummel...I'm sorry ok? I shouldn't shove you or call you a fairy. But I...I panicked….the others were there...Karofsky was saying I'm getting soft, I was going to beat some nerd to prove I'm a bad ass but then you were there...I'm sorry, ok?"
" shove me in a locker made you feel more bad ass!?"
" no, I feel like shit...listen princess..."
" don't call me that! Do you realize how miserable I feel when people call me some girly name?"
" I didn't meant that in a bad way is just ...you are...kinda girly..."
" I'm not a girl!"
that was the last thing Kurt said before he stormed out of the closet leaving a very confused Puck behind.
It was 2.00 am when Puck found himself outside Kurt bedroom window, he had no idea why he was there. Ok maybe it was because he felt guilty, but he was not going to admit that to anyone.
Puck knocked at the window, praying Kurt would listen because he needed to make things clear whit the brunette.
After 10 minutes knocking at the window he had almost given up but then the window was pulled open and he could climb down. 'Two night in a row' Puck thought, Hummel should be honored not even his girls could have him in their room that often.
Once in the room Kurt was standing in front of him, he had puffy and red eyes from crying and he was just wearing sweatpants, he was shirtless and he could saw at least three fresh cuts on his forearm, Puck felt terrible, that was his fault.
"Hummel..I...I don't really get why you are so mad at me...I know I wasn't a good person but...I'm a better person now, I promised you I'll never, ever tell anyone about your...problem with food and stuff...and if you don't count today's screwed up I was really good to you lately...and ok maybe is because I feel guilty because I throw you in a dumpster a couple of times or maybe because I think you're a cool dude under all your weird clothes and...the make up...whatever dude just...I promise I 'll try to act..more like a good Jew with you but...just let me help you dude, I don't want to see you doing that to yourself" he said pointing vaguely at Kurt's arm and protruding ribs "I don't even know why I care so much but knowing that tonight you did that because of me..it's just...I don't know just, please don't shut me out like this, don't run away just because I'm an ass sometimes"
Author Note: Hey! so...that's the new chapter! I'll post the next part really soon so...don't worry you'll know what Kurt's response is ; )
As usual...my apology for all the mistakes I made, I hope I'm getting better =) anyway... thanks for the reviews you've done for the first two chapters...it's so nice to know you like this story, and I hope you'll continue to follow.
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Ciao!
Franky