A/N: Yay! I'm loving the reviews. Thanks guys! And I am so sorry this took so long. I had a horrible computer virus and couldn't get onto my computer for a few days. hopefully this chapter is worth the wait. I made it longer just 'cause you guys waited.

I do have to say that while the story is very cute right now (which i think bella and jacob would always be anyway since their relationship is so playful) there are some interesting not-so-cute parts coming up in future chapters. but that's what friendships and romantic relationships are all about i guess. i just thought to write a story that no other writer on here seems to be writing and that's one that is more realistic as far as teenage sexual encounters go. and thats only cuz, seriously, even though we love reading the fantasy of it, the sex that these characters have so many times in other fanfics just seems waaaaay too good. lol. for my younger readers, perhaps you dont know what i'm talking about, but for my slightly older readers, do you get what i mean? id much rather write about bella and jacob's difficulties and frustrations than ALWAYS having them end up wonderfully satisfied with their sex life. lol. wow. ok this was a long A/N. sorry, i just had to rant. and i know not ALL stories on here show bella and jacob (or other twilight characters) as having perfectly amazing sex, but it seems like a lot of them do. and i thought i'd write differently. lol. now, to my friend who just read this and said it was extremely pessimistic: no, they are not always going to be disappointed. hellooooo this is jacob black we're talking about. lol.

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Bella POV

With our luck, I expected the phone to ring, a vampire to show up in my room or hell, an earthquake or fire or fucking TORNADO to rush through my house but … it didn't happen.

Jake and I had had our few moments… those moments where you stare into each other's eyes so long that there's nothing more to do than lean in and press your lips to other person's. But of course every time that happened, either Billy or Charlie would bust into the room or the phone would ring or one of us would just get too nervous about ruining our friendship. Ok, that one of us was ALWAYS me, since he seemed to be completely confident and content with taking our relationship a little further. I didn't want to give in… I didn't want to become so vulnerable… I didn't want to give up what we had. And that's all because I'm a big coward.

I was so afraid of getting my heart broken again that I shied away from any sort of romantic involvement with anyone since Edward left. I knew it was selfish, keeping that love I had for Jacob locked up in a box and never sharing it with him. I wanted to open that box. I wanted to love him the way I knew I could if I let go of all my inhibitions and just let myself be vulnerable. I knew Jacob would take care of me. I knew he'd try everything in his power to never break my heart. He was too good to me. I think after I came to those conclusions, the only thing holding me back was my doubt that I could love him the way he deserved. And what's sad is that he knew that. But of course, all he wanted was for me to try. He had already told me how much he loved me. He had already explained that he would wait for me forever.

How did this happen? I must have been one amazingly awesome person in my past life to deserve such love and devotion without even having had to seek it out. It was like someone just decided to thrust Jacob onto me and said 'Here ya go! All the love you'll ever need!' I couldn't just let him give me everything without giving him anything in return. I knew I loved him. And no matter how long it was going to take me to finally get over my last heart break, Jacob was going to be there, so I needed to live as though there was no tomorrow and just give in to love. Because if I didn't, I'd be living in fear forever.

And that's when my head finally came into tune with my heart and let the kiss happen. My hands had traveled a ways up his body and were now both on his neck as I let my lips softly press against Jacob's.

Fireworks.

It's so cliché to say that, but there is no other way to explain the dramatic, bright, sparkling, exciting feeling I got when I kissed him. It was so beautiful it almost disgusted me. I'm not one of those girls who dreams of becoming a princess and finding her prince and seeing stars every time he touches me or feeling butterflies or seeing fireworks every time he kisses me. That's not me. Of course, the way my life had been going since I moved to Forks, I should probably start believing in fairytales too.

I let myself sigh and that's when I felt Jacob's body become less tense as well. He was waiting for me. He had been letting me take control. He knew it would freak me out if he tried to make the first move… again. He'd been trying for so long anyway, that I think he thought I was going to pull away and not let this happen anyway. Hence the tense body underneath me. He was obviously taken aback.

I smiled into the kiss and then moved one of my hands up to his hair, raking my fingers through the softness. When Jake's hands started to grasp my tank top and move slightly along my back, massaging it, I became a little too overconfident. I tilted my head a ways to the right and let my lips play on his a little more. My mouth opened almost immediately and his followed suit. I didn't necessarily know what to do next, so I just gave him open mouth kisses, attempting to make out with him the way I guessed you were supposed to. I was still a tiny bit tense, thinking too much and letting my brain take over too much, but when Jacob gave out the tiniest of moans I lost control. I took my mouth from his and looked down into his eyes, both of us panting.

He smiled up at me. "Was it worth the wait?" He asked, trying to look all smug.

I rolled my eyes. "You know just how to ruin a moment, mister Black."

"Sorry," he apologized, still running his hands over my back. Shit. Wait. Over my back. His hands and moved under my tank while we were kissing and I hadn't noticed. How had I missed that? The warmth under his fingers was amazing. He could make a ton of money as a masseuse. No need for a heating pad for aches and pains if you've got Jacob. I'd have to remember to tell him that some time. You're not only my personal sun, you're my personal heating pad. Icy hot patch? Eh. Nevermind that one. You'd need a vampire in on that one too. Ok now my mind's going random places it shouldn't… damn it, Jacob Black, you see what you do to me? You make me crazy!

"Doesn't matter," I started, my lips moving down to Jacob's neck. I placed a soft kiss there as my hands traveled down his arms once again. My fingers moved in and then grasped his sides, lightly moving up and down, never as high as his chest but never as low as his hips, just like his hands were on me. I moved my fingers softly along the sides of his abs as I placed more butterfly kisses on his neck.

"Uh… Bells?"

"Mmm?"

"Wha-what are you doing?" His massaging hands on my back stopped.

I looked up at him with a confused look on my face. "You want me to stop?"

"N- uh… NO! I just…" he stared at me and sighed, "That kiss was amazing."

I couldn't help but smile one of the biggest smiles of my life. "Yeah, it was. You want another?" I giggled before I pressed my lips to his again. Before I could even think - thank goodness - his hands were traveling up my shirt again, now almost on the sides of my breasts. The anticipation of his touch was killing me. Just the thought of him touching me… intimately… turned me on. I was glad then that I had released some of my sexual tension a little earlier so that it was slightly easier to control myself now.

I did say SLIGHTLY, right?

Once I noticed little Jake start to feel a little harder… and … bigger underneath me, it wasn't so easy to control myself. The towel Jake had wrapped around himself was still there even though he had put his boxer briefs on as well. I knew this because I could see the elastic of them sticking out above the towel. That's when Bold Bella came out to play. I know I must have multiple personalities because the other side of me was screaming at me to not do what I was wanting to do.

Even though I didn't want Jake's hands to move from their spot climbing up my back, I had to move this along. I unlatched my lips from his and sat up, scooting down a bit to sit on Jake's thighs. I untied the towel that was around him, it now lying flat underneath him. I stared down at Jake's boxer briefs for a moment in wonder. I blushed when I looked back up and noticed that I had obviously been staring longer that I thought. Jacob was looking at me, astonished.

When he didn't say anything, I took the initiative and leaned over him to kiss him again, this time my hands on either side of him on the bed. Fireworks again. It was so amazing how I felt what I felt just by pressing my lips to his. This time, when our mouths opened against each other's, his tongue slid against my lips and then into my mouth. Holy shit… he wants more… so do I… C'mon, Bella, muster up some courage and just go for it… he deserves it… show him that you want to be with him like this. It was now or never. I let my lips separate from his and moved them to his neck again. I placed butterfly kisses towards his chest, then down lower to his beautiful, perfect, yummy abs. My last soft little kiss landed just below his belly button. I didn't have the courage to look up at him so I just did what instinct - and Jacob's moans - were telling me to do. I hooked my fingers in his boxers and pulled them down. I was sitting on my knees in between his legs on the bed and once they got down low enough, I moved off the bed to take them completely off. I stood there for a moment, before I felt that boldness take over my body again and urge me back onto the bed in between his legs.

I stared at his beautiful body for longer than I thought appropriate, but I couldn't help it. Being "Bella the Curious of Phoenix" I had been watching porn for a few years now so I'd seen my fair share of dicks, but I didn't expect Jacob's to be so … perfect. I knew I was sounding like one of those terrible character fantasy stories online, but it was true. He was big, that's for sure, bigger than I thought he'd be, but I guessed that's just because I always saw him as being younger than me and him looking so sexually perfect and ready and willing just didn't make sense in my mind. I finally looked up into Jacob's eyes and noticed, by the look on his face, that I had obviously been staring too long.

"What?" I asked, trying to be all nonchalant.

"Isabella Marie…"

"Don't talk like my Dad, PLEASE."

"I'm just … kind of shocked that you … want to …"

"Did I not just tell you I was curious, Jacob?"

"Well, yeah, but-"

"But nothing. If you're objecting, then roll off my bed and go downstairs, otherwise, I'd like to fulfill my curiosity, if you don't mind."

"I'm not going anywhere," he said a lot softer than I expected.

"Good," My hands moved up Jacob's thighs and I watched his erection twitch. I knew he wanted this, but I also knew that doing this was going to forever change how Jacob and I acted around each other. There was no going back now.

"What exactly is your curiosity?" He said quickly, obviously a little nervous that I was going to take complete advantage and rape him or something.

"I just wanna touch you…" I admitted, my hands now on his upper thighs.

Jacob took in one big breath and let it out slowly. He was awaiting my next move and his anxiousness was getting the better of him, making his heart beat so hard that I could have sworn I saw his chest beat along with it.

"I should have blindfolded you," I said, looking up at him again. "You staring at me is making me nervous."

"I-I'm sorry, Bells, but I've never seen anything so … HOT in my life."

"All right, all right. Just… never mind."

"What? I'm not gonna criticize you."

"Promise?"

"Hell no. What would I say, 'No no no, you're doing it all wrong!'?"

I grinned, "Ok." It took me a few moments to figure out what exactly I was going to do here, especially since I wanted to look like I had SOME clue as to how to physically please Jacob. So, since it had been working nicely to calm my nerves the past couple minutes, I moved up and softly pressed my lips to Jacob's beautiful, full, pouty ones. I moved them slowly against his, slightly opening my mouth again, this time taking the initiative and moving my tongue into his mouth, letting it run across his tongue, the back of his teeth, the top of his mouth, the inside of his lips. I wondered if Jacob was enjoying this, and I almost stopped to ask him since I'm always the one trying to please everyone else, but I knew he'd juts roll his eyes and tell me to do what I wanted since it was my own curiousness I was trying to satisfy here.

When Jake figured out that I was letting my head get into this too much, he took a little control from me and put his hands back up under my tank top on top of my back. The warmth helped my body let go of some tension, and his more intense kissing also did the same, taking some of the responsibility away from me. Knowing he had the kissing under control, I let my left hand drop down his side, running my fingers over his soft skin. I moved my body slightly to the side, so I wasn't lying completely over him, and once my fingers were tracing the skin right above Jacob's bellybutton, I had my lips let go of his and just stared into his eyes, wanting to see his reaction. He looked at me with the most intense eyes I had seen in a long time. As I stared into those beautiful brown pools of love, I moved my hand lower to finally grasp his cock.

He didn't want to, I could tell, but he gasped slightly and, for a second, closed his eyes and bit his lip. But after a long exhale, he looked back up at me and leaned in to kiss me. I let the kiss go on for a few seconds, but let go right after a slight moan moved through Jacob's throat. I grinned at him and then placed a kiss on his neck, then lower on his chest, and then his abs before I sat up in between his legs. My hand slowly stroked Jacob's long shaft as my eyes moved from it, to Jake's face. He was enjoying the physical pleasure immensely, I could definitely see that, but it felt like he was enjoying the sight of it even more.

It had been quite a few minutes since either of us had said anything, and that was probably due to nerves, but I had to break the silence. I felt like perhaps saying something might break the slight awkward tension that was filling the room.

"You liking this, Jake?" Oh my god, Bella Swan, did you really just say that? So much for the hottest moment either of you have ever shared.

"Ugh… Bells…" Jake groaned then reached his hands out to touch my arms. "I… am but… its fucking torture…"

"What?" The movements of my hand stopped. I was taken aback, kind of upset and not sure why Jacob would say such a thing. He knew I was new at this, why would he be so mean?

"No no- Oh god- Don't… don't stop. Please." Jacob's voice was strained and his breathing was hard and fast as he spoke these words.

Please?

Please? Did I really just get Jacob Black to say please? Like… begging me almost? Mmm… damn it. Now I'M turned on. Uh oh.

I knew my more bold personality was going to come out soon enough, but I didn't expect it this quickly.

"All right… I won't stop…" My hand moved a little faster up and down Jacob's shaft, the length of which I could already sense was getting bigger. It was harder now, too, and I knew I must be doing SOMETHING right.

"Yeah that's… that's better…" he sighed, his hands leaving my arms and slightly grasping my bed sheets. So he just wanted it faster, huh? I could do that. My strokes got faster, the heat radiating from him almost too much for me to handle.

"BELLS!" He screamed, and I thought that was a good thing, but he reached up and took my hand off of him.

I looked at him, completely confused.

He just stared at me for what felt like an eternity. Then his beautiful mouth opened and his eyes closed. "Sorry. You were … that was … great, I just… there is such a thing as TOO fast."

"What, you didn't want to cum?"

Jacob's right eyebrow raised and then he shook his head after a slight chuckle. "You're just too anxious to make that happen, Bells. Of course, I should've known. You're always trying to please everyone else-"

"What?"

"I didn't mean it like that and you know it."

"Ok…" I was blushing so hard it almost hurt. Jake raised a hand to my cheek and made me look up at him.

"We have quite a while to get to that point, Bells. Believe me, you have me INCREDIBLY turned on right now, but that doesn't mean you have to finish the job in five seconds."

"But at first you said it was too slow," I said, my fingers tracing designs on Jake's abs.

"Well, yeah… but uh… that doesn't mean you have to work me like you've got to sticks and you're trying to make fire either."

I laughed at that. As much as that should have insulted me, I laughed. He was glad that I did.

"Bella," he whispered, "You know what I want. You know what I like. I just don't think you know that you know yet."

I was confused for a second, but then he went on, "Just let our bodies work together… like… do what you think is right without using your head so much. Your mind, I should say."

I grinned and thought about that for a second before placing a hard kiss on his lips. "Fine," I said, pulling away and pushing him back into the mattress. "Let me do what I want… but if its bad you better tell me exactly how you want me to do whatever you want me to do."

This time I knew it was going to be different. There was only one way I was going to satisfy my curiosity and when I put both my hands on Jake's hips, he knew as well.

"Bells, you don't have to-"

"Shut up, Jacob."

He zipped his lips up and threw away the key as I smiled at him with that devious little smile I had always wanted to use on him, that he had used on me too many times. Perhaps now I could be the one making him shift uncomfortably with heat and excitement.

I knew it was going to take quite a bit of practice, which I'm sure both of us were fine with, but I was willing to make the first go at this and try my hardest to make it pleasurable for him. And hell, for me too.

It was probably because he knew I would kill him if he ruined this for me that he didn't speak up or protest or anything like that but it was easy to tell from the look on his face that he wanted to say something. Whether that was 'Fuck yes' or 'Bella, no!', I didn't know. Still, I went for it, and pressed my lips softly to the side of Jacob's long shaft. He immediately groaned.

I grinned. He thought that was torture before? This is for making me stop, mister Black.

I thought it was kind of weird kissing his dick like that, so I just went the traditional route and opened my lips to take in the head of little Jakey. I looked up at Jacob and his eyes had widened, his mouth in an open in the same way it always is when I tell him something shocking, but this time he was obviously just shocked by the fact that little innocent Bella was not the little innocent Bella he seemed to think she was.

I moved my head down to try to take more of him into my mouth, not taking much and almost feeling bad that I couldn't. When I tried to take a little more, I choked and had to move off of him for a second to cough. I let my hand slide back onto him and stroke him while I caught my breath.

"Bells… you don't have to-"

"Jacob, remember that I'm the one that's got a hold on your dick right now. Don't piss me off."

"Ok ok ok… do what you want," He said quickly, his hands up in self defense. "Just don't rip my dick off."

I smiled at him and decided to try it again. "This isn't just for you, you know. I honestly wanna learn how to do this." And I was being truthful. I hated that some girls at school would talk about their sexual escapades and I was always the one nodding but never having anything to add. Not like I would anyway, that kind of stuff I'd like to keep private, but I'd still like to at least feel somewhat informed and … experienced.

"You want me to tell you … you know… what… what feels good?" Jacob asked, his cheeks actually flushing a little.

I couldn't help but smile at that, he looked so cute I could've eaten him up. Of course that was a strange thing to think at this moment. "Yeah," I said, leaning back down. "Just tell me how to … what you think I should … you know."

He nodded and I put my mouth to him again, stroking the lower half of his shaft at the same time my lips encompassed the top half - ok, top third - of him. I moved slowly down and up, slightly sucking when I would move up so if I would ever move my mouth from him, it would make a cute little popping sound. I thought it was pathetic and almost sick that I thought that sound was 'cute'.

Jake's eyes were closed now, his head back in the pillows and his hands gripping the bed sheets. "That's really nice, Bells," he said in a low, husky voice. Lower and huskier than usual, that is. "Mmm…really nice."

I took that as a good sign, though I knew from all the porn I'd watched that 'really nice' was not something the guys would usually say. Perhaps that's just because Jake wasn't trying to sound like a porn star? I didn't know. He'd tell me if it didn't feel right so I just let it go.

Next I let my tongue sort of play with the head of his cock as I sucked on him, and I guessed that was what had been missing since the sound I was looking for finally came out from Jake's throat.

He gasped, then "Uunngghh… Fuck, Bella…."

Yes. Got him to say 'fuck' in that beautiful pleasured voice. That's what I had been waiting for. So I went at it some more, using my tongue more and speeding up my sucking. I was actually really enjoying this. Enjoying the wonderful noises he was making, the beautiful way his body was tensing, the gorgeous pleasured looks on his face, and the way his hand finally made their way to my hair. Oh how I'd dreamed about Jake's hands in my hair, lightly pulling at it because he was drowning in pleasure and closing in on an orgasm.

"Bells… tell me…. if um… if you don't … want me to… oh fuck…"

I pulled my mouth off of him for a second but kept my hand going. "No, Jake, I like it… when you pull my hair."

That must have triggered something inside him because he moaned and threw his head back his eyes almost rolling back into his head. I leaned down to take him in my mouth again, moving my lips and tongue on him just as fast as before, but clamping my lips down on him tighter, wanting that release for him. He pulled my hair a little more, but not enough to pull any out or to even hurt very much. He made my head move a little faster on him and as his body tensed even more underneath me, I got that 'uh oh' feeling inside me, wondering what I should do. I had gotten asked this question many a time by perverted boys at school, but now that it was actually time to make a decision, I didn't know what to do.

Hey Bella, do you spit or swallow?

Shut the fuck up, perv.

But what did I do?

"Bells…. I don't know if you… want me to… in your mouth… I just… I'm…. oh fuck, Bells I'm gonna cum."

I couldn't believe he said that. If there were four words Jacob could say to turn me on, those were it. I could feel that little twinge inside me and I knew I was going to be so wet after this was all over. I was so turned on, it felt like my body temperature was getting close to as hot as Jacob's was.

Quickly, I pulled my mouth off of him again and made the decision. Perhaps I'd use my mouth another time. "Just cum, Jake. I wanna know I made you… feel good. I wanna know I made you cum."

Jacob looked up at me, his hands having fallen from my head were now reaching down on my thighs. He squeezed them and drew in a big breath.

His body tensed as my hand moved fast along the whole length of his cock. I leaned over him, wanting to be wrapped around him when he came, wanting to feel his whole body convulse next to me.

With my right hand on his arm, and my other stroking him, I leaned my body against his, my lips moving up to his ear. "C'mon, Jake… Show Bella how she made you feel…" I kissed his neck and then felt his body go rigid.

"Oh fuck, Bells!" Then he shook, letting go of that tension, and came all over my hand and his stomach. I looked down, almost… what's the word, proud?… of myself for what I'd made Jacob get out of this. I turned my head again to him and before I knew it, his lips were on mine, his hands on my back, holding me close to him. He had to let go of the kiss quicker than I would have liked just because he needed to catch his breath. I slowed my hand on him and then let go of his cock.

I then noticed why every porn video and every story online and every sex scene I'd ever watched in a movie ended precisely after the guy had … well, finished. Because this was not sexy at all. I bit my lip, looked down, trying to avoid Jake's eyes because I didn't want to know that I felt awkward.

"Um I uh… I'll be right back." I jumped up, awkwardly holding my hand off to the side of my body and ran into the bathroom. I washed my hands, not necessarily grossed out, in fact, I wasn't really grossed out at all, just a little uncomfortable with not knowing exactly what I SHOULD have done in that situation. When I came back into the room, I had been clever enough to bring a wet towel for Jake and I handed it to him as he sat up in bed, looking at me with this awkward smile on his face.

He started cleaning up his stomach and spoke without looking at me, "So you always gonna run out of me like that afterwards?"

I stared at him with a scared look on my face. Oh no. I'd hurt him. "I didn't know you would… I'm … sorry… I just-"

"Bells, it's ok," he interrupted me, folding up the towel and throwing it in my laundry basket. "I was joking. Though it would have been nice to snuggle."

I rolled my eyes. "Shut up!" I screamed, taking one of my teddy bears from my dresser and throwing it at him. "We didn't … have sex, we don't need to snuggle, I just gave you a little… blowjob."

"Ok, I dunno about you, but that wasn't LITTLE."

"Yeah… you're right… nothing was little about that." And there it was. The stupid line I knew I'd say at some point tonight. I was just WAITING for something embarrassing to come out of my mouth tonight. Ok that didn't sound right either. Ugh.

Jake just grinned that smug evil grin he loved to put on his face and stood up, walking around to the end of the bed where his boxers were and picked them up. He put them on and stood there, a few inches from me, his hands moving out to touch my arms. "Were you ok with that? With doing that? Did you… satisfy your curiosity?"

I just smiled at him and nodded. He smiled back and moved his arms around me before I let my arms move around his neck. Jacob leaned down and pressed his lips to mine in a soft, sweet, slow kiss. It was a kiss that made me feel like we'd been together for our whole lives, like we'd not just had our first real kiss less than an hour before, like we'd loved each other more than anything in the world for longer than either of us could remember. Why did it make all the bad things seem to disappear? Why was this so perfect?

I sighed and Jake's lips moved from mine. "What are you thinking about?" He asked, his hands moving softly up and down my back under my tank top.

I looked into his eyes, trying to figure out the best way to say exactly how I was feeling. I couldn't. "Just how much I can't wait to get the favor returned."

Jake's eyes blazed and before I knew it I was being lifted off the ground and spun around, almost thrown back onto the bed. "You're lucky I'm also a curious person," Jake said as he crashed his lips to mine once more.