I'm so, so sorry. Jinx is all my fault. I should have talked to you about this. But I chickened out. I was afraid that you would probably think less of me what difference would it make if I told you back then or now? Right. We'd know how to deal with this fucking blue-haired nuisance.I don't like keeping secrets from you, cupcake, I really don't, but you have no idea how difficult it is for me to talk about my past, a past I'm struggling to forget. I'm trapped in my mind, Cait. All these things keep repeating themselves in my dreams over and over again. It's horrible and it fucking sucks.When I was still a child, they picked us up from the streets. Having no one else, we thought we would finally get a home. Oh, how wrong we were. We were brought to a laboratory where they tested on us all different types of chemicals. We were exposed to radioactivity, for fuck's sake. Each day was a torture. But without knowledge, they were infusing us with weapons that would soon turn against them. So if you were wondering how I obtained my quick healing abilities and my strength, that's how I did. Though I did learn how to fight later when I was in my gang. Jinx and I escaped together and joined them. For once, we weren't mistreated and we were doing something that we thought it was worth it.Jinx and I were practically inseparable. She was the mastermind behind everything. Under all this madness, I believe she's still the same genius I remember. But I believe this madness began while we were still in Zaun, in that fucking lab. Whatever they were infusing her with, surely fucked her brain up too much. I never noticed that there was something wrong with her except the occasional anxiety attacks we both had. But other than that there was no sign.
I bet she snapped completely when I abandoned the gang and hid in Piltover. I don't really know what happened to her afterwards. But she probably found out where I was and here she is now. I'm not sure what she wants from me, she's a psycho. Perhaps she's trying to send a message across but I'm just too stupid to get it. I don't know anymore, Caitlyn. I wish you can forgive me one day for hiding all this stuff from you, should you ever find out.
Vi