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Chapter 3 title:Where is the hope now?

The things we see now are heretoday, gonetomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever...

Bright sunlight made its way through the windows and shine above a small fragile woman who lay sleepily on the wood floor. Tear stains where on her face from crying the night before, she had slept there all night remembering the music. I sat before her, watching her breathing and her body move to be comfortable. I watch as she had a small smile on her face, and there I was watching her sleep with such beauty.

I wanted to touch her and feel her, I wanted to bring her into my arms and comfort her. I knew I couldn't those where the rules, only he was aloud to do this and I would give up so much to just touch her on more time, put my hands on her beautiful skin and wipe the tears away.

Why did it have to be so hard?

Why did it all happen?

There are so many questions but no answers

I walked my body towards the piano and started to play. The keys started to make beautiful music and soon the house was filled with the beautiful notes of a beautiful song.

I stopped when I herd a groan. I looked at the beauty that laid on the floor and walked over to her. I placed a hand over her body, and I felt her warmth on my hand. It was the only way I could feel her, it was the only way it felt like I was touching her; that I was close to her. I took a deep breath and within a second I was gone.

I woke up with bright sunlight hitting my face. I groaned in pain and looked up. It felt as if a small breeze was coming from the windows but all windows where closed. Today felt different, it felt peaceful. I looked around my apartment and realized I must have fallen asleep on the floor. The memory of yesterday came back to me and a small smile graced my lips.

Was it a dream that I had seen him, that I had felt his had on top of mine?

Was it a dream that I had head beautiful music float into the rooms of the apartment?

I got up and stretched my body and then walked up towards the piano, my hands gently went over the keys, and a small memory came to mind.

"Ok you sit here and you place your fingers like so."

'Babe, I think I know how to place my fingers, what I don't know how to do is play a song and I want to learn how to play a beautiful one."

"And what would you like to play my dear."

"I want to play one with such emotion, a song that is truly breathed taking and beautiful and it will move us to tears. That will be the significance of the love we feel. It will be the song that will always be ours

"Then let us begin."

Tears filled my eyes once again as I remembered the memory. I looked at the beautiful piano once more, and walked towards the window. I looked at the beautiful city it was alive, and thriving. I watched as planes fly by and the trees rustle in the wind. The world looked so alive and that's all I want, is to be alive again; to feel alive again, but my world feels so empty without him, and I can't seem to live again.

Our love was so different. It was love that I always wished I could have but always knew that it was only a wish and it would never come true, but then I found him and that wish came true and I felt what love was. The one you only here about in the books and fairytales, and only hope you would have.

I rested my head against the warm window and sighed. My body ached from sleeping on the floor and I was emotionally tired. I couldn't stand being here in this place any longer. I went straight towards my bedroom and showered and got ready. I knew that Nathan and Haley would be by later this evening but I just couldn't stand to look at Nathan any longer, everything I saw if him I saw in the man I lost.

When I was done with everything I grabbed my jacket and my purse and glanced once more around the apartment I haven't been out of in a month, and walked out.

I woke up to bright sunlight making its way through the windows. I focus my eye to the light that was now in the once dark room and realized someone was missing. My eyes roamed around the room for him but he was no where to be found. The apartment was quiet and still. I got up from the couch a little to fast and I felt slightly dizzy, I steady myself, and looked at the couch that I was once on. Flashbacks of the night before came into my mind, and a small smile graced my lips. No one will know that for a couple of hours I felt whole again and happy, because I shouldn't feel this; I shouldn't care.

Memories of what has happened to me came back to mind and anger filled my body. I stood there still thinking of what has happened. It was because of her I was unable to love my son. It's because of her leaving I don't care anymore. Or is that really the reason, could there be more to it?

My mother she hates what I have done to myself and how I am to the child I have created. My brother never forgave me for leaving and leaving my child behind, and my father he just so disappointed in me.

The days I spend drinking and having random sex with random women filled my life when I should have been there with my boy, but I couldn't be there and now I have used my boy to hide away from the world I once knew.

Sometimes I wish I can forget about what I feel and try to remember that I once wanted him, but it's so hard.

I looked out the window and tears filled my eyes. I wasn't one to cry but the pain I felt I couldn't hold it in no longer.

"I love you always, you know that. I can never forget what you have done for me. You're my hero."

"Your hero huh do you feel like this little man will think I am his hero"

I think he will."

"Are you happy where having a baby, because I fell that-"

"Shhh of course I am happy this is our baby, a creation of you and me. This is the best thing that could ever happen to me."

"I love you so much, so much. I don't deserve you."

"We will be ok baby don't you worry."

"It was all a lie" I whispered to my self. I shook my head from the memory and forgetting it fast. I got my self back to my old self and wiped the tears away. I went to my room and got ready and walked out, not caring where my son was.

I walked around the biggest park I have ever seen. There were so many playgrounds and sand boxes. There were even a couple of small lakes that you can go on in a boat. I jumped up and down when I saw the swings; there where my favorite part of the play ground. Every time I swing and I get really high I feel like I am flying. Today my morning nanny and I are at the park and where having a really good day. When I woke up this morning I was lying next to my daddy and I felt so happy. I never felt so close to him. All I want in this world is to be close to him but it seems that he doesn't love me. It's my entire fault of course because of what I did.

I ran towards the swings and asked my nanny to push me way up into the air.

Each push got me higher and higher and I was so high I had to hold on tight or else I would fall off. I closed my eyes and pretended I was a bird flying through the air.

I remember what the man in my dreams said to me, he told me to wait till I was here in this city for one month till I came to the park. I asked my nanny who takes care of me in the night to tell me how many days a month was, she got me a calendar and each night I crossed a day out and today was the day I could finally come to the park. My morning nanny was surprised I wanted to go today, but I told her today was an extra special day or I think it is, but what do I know I am only five.

As I was swinging I saw the prettiest girl I have ever seen, but she wasn't smiling she was sad I can tell. I had this feeling that I should make sure she was ok, but I know I shouldn't talk to strangers because that's what my grandma told me, but she just looked so sad.

"Stop,"

"What, what's wrong you don't want to swing anymore?"

"No I want to go to the jungle gym,"

"Ok, I'll watch you from here"

I jumped off the swing and ran towards the jungle gym knowing my nanny was watching me. I got towards the highest part and noticed the pretty girl walking away; I jumped off and ran towards her.

I was running to fast and tripped over my shoelace and fell, tears filled my eyes and a small sob escaped my lips. The cut on my leg hurt so much. I herd a voice and looked up through my teary eyes to see the pretty girl looking at me.

When I walked out of my apartment today, it was the first time in a month I felt the hot sun hit against my skin and the cool breeze blow my hair out of my face. It was just at the end of the summer, the sun was shining bright as ever, the leaves where green and there wasn't a cloud in sight.

And even though it was still a pretty day I still couldn't let there be a smile on my face. I felt that it was wrong to be happy; I felt like I wasn't aloud to. The pain in my heart was too much but I guess being outside the apartment that I haven't left in little over a month was a start.

The park was my favorite part of New York I know that may sound so cliché but that was the place where the world felt so magical and whole. I felt as if I was in another place out of the world I lived in and inside a world that had no pain to it. It was the first place I came to after I left home.

To me home was a place where all bad went on, where all pain was kept. It was a hard place for me to live in and my secrets that I have mostly come from that place. There are things I never told him when we where married because well it was just too hard. So when I came to this park it was the first place I felt my pain wash away and felt happiness.

As I walked through the park I watched as the little kids played on one of the many jungle gyms. I watched as the little boys and girls laughed while running and playing. There smiles could almost bring a smile to my face. As I walked more further away from the park, I herd little feet running behind me, as soon as I turned around I watched as a little boy fell and started to cry. I was hesitant at first not wanting to scare him but his tears broke my heart. I walked up to him; his bright teary blue eyes looked up at me. Out of no were a small smile genuine smile graced my lips. It was a shock to me because nothing made me smile today, but this teary blue eyed boy made me.

I bent down to looked at his knee and then looked up at him.

"You're going to be ok; it was only a little scrap."

"Are you ok?" he asked me. I looked at him with a wide-eyed expression dumbfounded by what I had just herd.

"What- what?" I said stumbling over my words.

"It's just that when I was swinging I noticed how you had a sad face on and I just wanted to know if you where ok,"

I looked at him, and thought that some how he must be here, trying to make me happy. I never did believe in all that crap where someone dies and they look over you trying still to make you happy, because what I saw last night was just a fragment of my imagination; it couldn't be true. I came to that conclusion while I was walking towards the park, because I always thought they died and that was it.

A breeze went through the both of us. We both looked around and noticed none of the trees where moving; they where still. I looked at him as a laugh escaped his mouth.

I threw my body towards them, as I did a small breeze surrounded them. She looked more beautiful then ever. It was time for it to begin. It will hurt to see that she will move one, but I can not hold her from that for I am no longer here.

I looked at her on more time before I went away.

If only she can see me.

"Did you feel that, that was funny?" he asked through his laughed.

"That was weird," I said freaked out by what just happened.

"No I said funny," the little boy said as he looked at me confused. I smiled a little.

"Yeah funny sorry,"

"You know you didn't answer my question," the little boy said to me. He was smart I can tell by the way he was acting, and very bright. He was the cutest boy I have ever scene. His bright blue eyes stood out, he dirty blond hair was cut short, and his smile; his smile was to die for. It was the cutest thing I have ever seen. There was something about the little boy that made me want to know him more. It guess it had to be him being so adorable.

"Yeah I am ok, anyways where's your daddy or mommy?" I asked now noticing not one of his parents had come looking for him. I stood up and dusted the dirt of my jeans.

But before he could say anything pretty older women came to me, she walked up towards me with a confused look.

"Umm I am sorry what you doing?" The older women asked with confusion.

"I am sorry I just, well he fell and he was crying I was just checking if he was ok" I said to the women I guess was his mom, yet he looked nothing like her.

"Ohh ok, umm come on let go," The older women said to the little boy who was standing next to me. She held out her hand waiting for the little boy to come to her. The boy looked up at me and smiled once again.

"Thank you," he said smiling showing his teeth and started to walk away, but then he stopped and looked at me.

"I am-"

"Come on we have to go," the women said to the little boy, pulling his arm so he can start walking.

As the little boy started to walk away he yelled back at me. "I am Connor-"

"You shouldn't tell strangers your name, come on lets go." the women interrupted him.

I watched as they walked down the path. "Goodbye Connor," yelled back at him. He turned around and waved. There was something about that little boy I just didn't know what, but in him I saw a little bit of hope.

I walked inside the room it was colder compared to the hot weather that was outside. I had forgotten my papers.

I walked towards my office and grabbed them, as I walked out Connor made his way to me. He jumped towards me grabbing my legs.

"Hello daddy I met-" Wait, not yet remember what I told you.Connor looked around wondering who the voice was he sounded like the man in the dream he had.

I watched my son looked around as if he was searching for something. I got his arms to let go of me and watched as his smile went away. I looked at his nanny who smiled up at me and I looked at her but no smile came to my face.

"Make sure that you tell the night nanny that he shouldn't be in bed so late. Goodbye" And I walked away. I stopped caring to know my son no more, I was not that man anymore and the best thing was to just walk away. Last night I felt some hope but I couldn't want hope because it was wrong. I wasn't meant to love him.

I watched as he walked away once again. I love my Daddy but it seems that he doesn't love me. I know it's my entire fault.

What was that voice I had herd he didn't want me to tell him about the pretty girl I had seen today. It was weird but I listened.

I walked towards my room and walked into my closet, I had a cool chair there so I can hide and do stuff in here. I started to feel water come out of my eyes and I looked at the picture I had of my grandma and grandpa. I hated it here, I hate being here. I took the picture of my grandma and grandpa and smashed it at my wall. The tears came out faster and i hugged my body tight.

"Kyle what are you doing? I told you it can't be done like this. Do you think this will help, if she gets to connected to that little boy but it doesn't work out you will hurt her more. And don't think I didn't find out what you did."

"Ezra I know what I am doing, this will work out fine."

"Kyle it can't be done this way; you have to understand. Do you not know what will happen to you if you fight the chance of fate and make it the way you want it."

"I know but I will do it now matter what, my choice was to make her happy it's what I have to do. I don't care what happens to me, and plus i do this i move on and so does he it's what we both want."

"Ezra don't you get it he loves her,"

They all turn to Alexander as he walked in with his dark robe. His face was dark and his eyes where black. He walks steadily towards them, walking with grace.

It will be a shame that they will we will no longer see him soon.

"Alexander you know what he is doing here is wrong; you know that this can not be done."

"I know but it was his choice I can not talk him out of it I am only here to guide and then I will be gone,"

"You see Ezra it is what must be done, and I do not love her because I have never really met her."

"You do can't you see that, Kyle"

"No and I am here to save what little they have. If I don't its all going to be lost, can't you understand it will all be lost?"

"What will be lost Kyle? WHAT! Nothing will, it is what has to be done. If you do more, if you make this your way instead of seeing where the lives take them too then you will be gone, and plus you where to help her, not the rest only her."

"Alexander, you don't agree with him because you know, you understand what has to be done. You want it don't you?"

"I have to agree with Ezra, he knows what he says, he is part of the council. He knows what he is talking about but I am here only to lead you and guide you. I can't make no decision so this is all you, but you made a deal and your only suppose to help her not the rest."

"I am going Kyle but this was never the job, your suppose to be here to make her better not the rest, it was the deal you had remember? If this does not work you do not move on."

They watched as Ezra walked away, his white robe went black, and soon he blended with the black darkness that surrounded the room he went into.

They where about to talk when they herd a voice deep into the bright room; "There is a chance she can die just - never mind," and then the voice went away.

Kyle and Alexander both looked at each other shocked filled there faces.

"Just like what?" they said at the same time.

Alexander looked at the angel he was to help, he knew him better then anyone, because it was like they where one.

Alexander walked towards Kyle he put his cold hand on his shoulder. He looked into his eyes and drew Kyle into him he whispered into his ear and he whispered the words slowly and said "There is a chance that this will go your way but do not forget the truth that lays beyond this. If you do not do what I am here to help you with I will make sure you are sent to the gates." And then he walked away.

"They don't understand that what I am doing is the only way, it will help them; all of them." And he too walk out into the pitch blackness hoping that it will happen and everything will come the way he wants it to.

"I loved you with all my heart I hope that you will know that"

"I know that why will you think that I don't, and I to love you with all my heart."

"What if I died you promise you will move on and be happy?"

"Sweetie where is all this coming from?"

"Its just that I guess when we watched that movie It's just I am scared that if I do die one day, and It can be never but if i do one day I just want you to promise me you will move on and be happy,"

"I am sorry but I can never promise you that, I don't know why you are even thinking that. I-I just... I have to go."

"I told you I wasn't going to promise you that, but here we are today and you are gone."WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME?" I yelled into the empty apartment.

"I didn't want to; I am so sorry my love"Said an unknown voice into the apartment. I looked around and saw no one.

"I love you so much"the voice said again,

"What is that you ….."

"Shh don't say my name, don't say it, no ones to know I am here"

"What- what you talking about, what is this; is this some cruel joke? No it's a fragment of my imagination this isn't real." I bent down, tears filled my eyes. I quickly felt all the hope wash away. I quickly put my hands over my ears to wash out the voice but I still heard him, I still felt his presence.

"I am always here I am trying my best to make it all better, I love you. Soon it's all going to be better," and with that I herd no more. A soft breeze blew my hair back. I stood up and wiped away the tears.

"It's only a fragment of my imagination it's not real," I said to myself in a whisper.

As I walked back I felt a hand hit my chest I looked up and I watched as he looked at me with dark eyes.

"You can't do that; it's not aloud."

"I know" I said to him not looking into his eyes.

He pulled me in and whispered into my ear his hot breath hit my skin. It was like fire hitting me. "Thou shall not see thy love one once we are gone or else hell is waiting instead of heaven"

I looked up at him as he pulled me back I stared into his eyes and I saw something flash before them.

"You wouldn't, its not part of the deal I had with you, you know that those words you said have no meaning to me."

"Yes they do," He looked at me his voice was deep, his eyes where darker then before. "Because to you the heaven you want will be no more. Kyle does not know of this plan does he?" He asked me as he put his head to the side in a taunting way.

I could tell that he knew the answer but I answered back "yes"

"He should know you both are like one person almost, he is the one who is making it happen."

"Kyle will no nothing of this I don't care what you want with me. I am only here to do what is to be done. HE WILL KNOW NOTHING!" I pushed into him with such force but he didn't move. He started to laugh in my face and then within seconds he was gone, but his voice could still be herd in the pitch black room.

"Kyle is supposed to be the one who will fix and save her broken heart but with you even though it was meant to be that you where to help him, if you continue it won't be done and it won't be saved. He can't be here If you are gone who will be there to save and fix it? Then everything will be fall apart and it will be your fault."

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

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