A/N: asdfghjkl o_o So basically I got a random crapload of imagination flowing through my brain... And, well this happened.

Disclaimer: Well obviously I own nothing to do with TVD or Beremy wouldn't have broken up.

'I awoke, only to find my lungs empty

And through the night, so it seems I'm not breathing

I've become a simple souvenir of someone's kill

And like the sea, constantly changing from calm to ill

Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole

Oh how I'm breaking down...

Someone come and, someone come and save my life' – City and Colour [Sleeping Sickness]

Jeremy's POV:

The air around me is still.

It's quiet, this hospital that I'm wandering.

I feel like I've just woken up, or well, maybe I have. I don't really remember what happened.

Seconds after this thought it's when the shadowy figure walks into the room.

She begins to cry in an instant, but she's ignored my presence completely.

As the tears fall her image becomes clearer and so does this whole situation.

Bonnie. Crying. Hospital.

I hesitate to turn but I know there's no point in hoping it won't be what I expect.

I turn around to see my limp and unconscious body laying there in a hospital bed.

What confuses me is that Bonnie's been left alone.

My body's not covered with the usual white sheet of death and the heart monitor... It's still going.

I'm alive? Maybe this was what happened to Matt. He mentioned seeing Vicki before Bonnie saved his life.

If I'm here now, in this out of body experience, it can only mean I'm close to death or close to coming back, but there's no sign to tell me which of those it is.

Death's not that simple.

Great. I'm stuck here until I either die or don't die watching Bonnie in pain as she watches me. Perfect. Fucking perfect.

I follow her movements as she sits down beside the bed and takes hold of my hand.

For a moment I think I feel her touch. But I know that's just what I'm hoping for. I don't want to die.

I know nobody does but, if I die, who does she have left?

Caroline and Elena will both outlive her. With the council finding out about what they are, it won't be long before they'll have to go.

Damon and Stefan only ever looked out for her for Elena's purpose. Abby abandoned her. Twice. All she could have is...

Jamie.

For that split second I don't know whether to hate him or myself.

It was my fault I lost her; I don't even know what possessed me to do it. Elena was right; you can't love a ghost forever. I don't, not anymore.

Alaric told me once, that you won't know what love is until it's gone.

When Vicki died, I was hurt.

When Anna died, I was hurt.

When Bonnie left me, I was lost. Hurt. Angry at myself. I regretted everything I'd done instantly.

That's when I knew that I loved her.

But who am I kidding, even if I make it out of this I can't go begging for her forgiveness. She doesn't deserve that.

I want her to be happy, even if it's with him.

Lost in my moment of thought I've not even realised that Bonnie's been speaking. I'm not sure what she's saying. I can only hear the murmur of her voice.

I move to the opposite side of the bed and look at her, hoping that she'll see me.

"Please, please be able to hear me" I sound pathetic begging, but I'm a dying man. What am I supposed to do apart from contemplate how shit my life is?

"Bonnie... I know you can hear me" I tell her, hoping to see her flinch even in the slightest as a reaction.

"Please wake up"

... The voice wasn't my own. It was hers. "Bonnie?"

She doesn't reply. She still can't hear me but it's a relief that I can hear her.

"I need you to wake up Jeremy. I need you to wake up for Elena. For me"

The way she leaves the sentence hanging suggests she has more to say but can't, almost as if she knew I could hear her every word.

"I'll try" My words come out in a hopeless whisper as a response to her.

"I said it to Grams, y'know?" Bonnie told me, as if I knew what she was speaking about.

"I told Jamie too. That's a reason he's gone now, he left with Abby. She needed him anyway" I feel almost sinister but I can't help but let my mouth form a small smile.

"I told Emily too, when I saved you. The only person who's not heard it from me directly is you"

She continues "It's funny; Alaric told me once that I wouldn't know what love was until it left me"

I can't help but laugh. Alaric may have been an alcoholic but it didn't mean he wasn't wise.

"When you died at the Mystic Grill I knew I loved you"

I smile sadly. Finally hearing those words from her like this was not what I imagined.

"When you cheated on me, I still loved you"

It hurt to hear the pain in her voice. The pain that I'd put there.

"When I had to stop your heart, for a moment I lost you and... I still love you, Jeremy. No matter what I do, I will always love you. Even if you don't feel the same"

I'd imagined I'd be able to say it back to her. So I do.

"I love you, Bonnie"

At that very moment, it's as if the entire room jolts forwards.

It's dark. My eyes open up again for a split second. Bonnie's in front of me. I can feel her hand squeezing mine in her grasp. But before I know it, it's dark again.