This is my first attempt at writing a whole story from 1 persons point of view, or their inner monologue.

POV Ashley

I wake at 6 am. I don't know why I even bother to set an alarm these days. Since becoming a super vampire I normal only sleep for a few hours. I think I set the alarm because I never was a morning person. And even though I'm awake, I'm still not a morning person. I read or crosswords in my room or the sunroom. I like it when it's quite. The day slowly starts, to the sounds of ocean and birds. Every month they change to sound that comes over the intercom in Ward 2. So the residents can slowly wake to the sounds of nature. I have a small glass of my breakfast.

Today is sparing with Nikola, for the 5th time and lesson #1 on teleporting. I'm scared, big time! What if I teleport somewhere out of the city. Nikola said when my dad first got his powers. He and James Watson helped him figure them out. Guess I should go easy on Nikola this time. Last time we spared I kinda on purpose hit him hard. I know Jess knew by the look she gave me. That I did it on purpose, but she didn't rat me out.

It's hard for me to think about my life now. I feel like my life is in limbo. I'm not who I was. But I don't know what the future holds. I know a lot of time has passed from the time Henry and I went to the Cabal and now. But it also feels like it just happened. I also know that I would be a prize for any Cabal like place to capture. Which makes me think I don't ever want to leave this place.

Jess knocks on my open door.

"Ya Jess, I'm ready to go."

"Yes, I slept ok."

I rarely get nightmares anymore or at least that's what I tell her. I don't know if she believes me. Having a telepathic friend/aunt is sometimes a pain, but in a good way. She knows me better then I know myself.

We walk outside into a part of the grounds that is used for wrestling or sparing. Nikola is already there waiting for us. He's funny, he has a special set of clothes he wears for sparing. They are a thin dark top and tan slacks. The slacks are a thick durable fabric. He can stand the idea of wearing sweatpants or active wear. I hate to admit it, but he's starting to grow on me.

We start with just like normal, just him throwing punches and me dodging them or blocking them. Then we work on him using his claws and speed. But still I'm only to dodge them or block them. I know it's to help control the rage I feel when attacked. I feel my blood start to boil and I want to take his head off. Jess seems to know when I'm about to loss it. She lets him push me until I want my claws to come out. That when we take a 5 minute calming break.

I'm still wound up but that's part of it. To control the rage I sometimes feel. I've killed things before, but I was always in control. When I get really enraged, I feel lost. Like I'm watching my body do things and I can't stop it. That's why we train like this.

We move on to Nikola and I are in full Vampire mode. Now it's my turn to punch and claw. While Nikola has to dodge or block my moves. But today Jess wants me to pretend I'm sparing Declan or my brother Greg. To only use the force needed to stop a human. It's tough as hell to do! But I understand that I'm so strong now, I could kill a human by hitting them just right. I connect with Nikola's left leg, when I try to sweep it. He flips in the air. He's ok but I see Jess' face. She makes sure Nikola's alright and we go again, for another 10 minutes and then stop. She asks me if I'm tired. Nikola seems pleased I'm doing better.

"No, I'm fine Jess. Sure I'll have some water."

"Thank Nikola, I'm glad you think I'm doing better."

"Yes Jess, I know you are proud of how well I'm doing, too. I just meant Nikola can feel it in how I fight. In how much strength I put into a punch or kick."

"Scared to teleport? Are you kidding? I'm so ready, let's get it on."

I try to act tough about teleporting but Jess knows. How she can see or feel the change in me is sometimes crazy. But I do feel safer around her. Safer from the part of me I'm still learning to control.

Jess takes a rope and make a large circle and puts her collapsible chair in it. It's 15 feet away, and Nikola tells me to try and teleport into the circle. Here goes nothing. I don't make it for the first 8 tries. I'm all over the place. Sometimes 15 feet in the other directions. Then I make it, but I'm lying on the ground. How is that even possible? Nikola is very encouraging, even making me laugh at the whole thing. 'Saying if I was a teenage boy trying to get into the girls locker room. I'd be more motivated.' I think he's spending too much time with Jess.

They make me do it 6 more times then we stop. I'm tired and really hungry. Nikola says that's normal. After a lot of activity he gets hungry. We walk back inside. Jess is disappointed that I have her put my bracelets back on. I don't wear them in Ward 2 anymore. But I still feel safer when I leave the ward, knowing if something happened. There is a way to help stop me.

Jess and Nikola don't walk me to my ward today. We go to the living Unit. It's the first time I've been there. Nikola shares some of his food. While Jess settles for some stew and fresh bread. No one is in home except Greg, who is a sleep. I listen to hear his heart beat and his breathing.

"What? Nothing, I was just listening to the noises in the Unit. Can I see the doves?"

I hated the pigeons that were always on the Sanctuary roof. Now I find I miss the noise of their wings. Or just the noise of the city. After lunch Nikola needs to shower and get some other work done for mom. Jess and I stroll back to the ward. We pass Bromley and we hug, I miss the big lug. I see Willow hold Lizzie and I take her. Her Jaguar form is beautiful and her fur is like velvet. Willow seems nice, I've never seen her in human form. I'm told she's hotter then mom, and my mom's hot.

Lizzie loves scrunching her face at me or Nikola. She knows we can make are face change, and she thinks it's funny. Probably the only kid on earth who laughs at a vampire, but I love it and her! If Jess stays here and Lizzie grows up like I did, with all the abnormals. She's going to be absolute fearless.

We walk into Ward 2. Most of the residents love when Lizzie comes. Two Face is there and both of them say hi to her. She laughs and tries to look at them both at the same time. There is another resident that almost never speaks, to anyone. He's French and does speak any English except yes and no. Lizzie waves and he slowly walks over. His name is Hone and he wears gloves. His body is elemental and can get very cold. He does good at controlling it. But controlling his hands is the hardest part. He smiles and says 'Hello' in French. Lizzie blows him a kiss and you can see it truly warms him.

Jess and Lizzie visit for a few minutes, but I can see she's tired. She's having another baby and it takes a lot out of her. Sometimes I wonder how she was able to help me when she was pregnant with Lizzie.

I play online video games with other residents. My favorite is Civilaztion! I'm playing with 2 beings in Ward 4 and 1 in Ward 3. Even some in the SHU are allowed access to games. It makes us all feel more connected.

Mom calls me from her office everyday about 4. If she doesn't then I call her. I remind her to finish working if she's in her office. She needs to go home eat, relax and hangout.

"Yes mom. Yes. I know. Ok. I love you too."

I remind her that she should start thinking about letting Will take over her spot as Head of House. That would give her more time to just be Head of the Network. After all what has she been training Will for all these year for. She needs to let go and leave more time for friend, family, her studies and a maybe few hobbies maybe.

It's bedtime, Greg just left. He doesn't come every night like he used to. But he still comes about every other night, even if it's just for 10 minutes. I love Greg and Gina! I'm so glad mom had them. I'm also glad I'm still the oldest. I like thinking of how I would have bossed them around. If we had all been raised together.

I pull the covers over my shoulder as I lay on my side. What does the future hold for me? Will I ever feel confidante in my own skin again? Will I ever go out on missions again? Shoot will I ever ride a bike again? Go to sleep, I tell myself. Tomorrow is another day, lets see what it brings.

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