A/N: I forgot to say it in the last chapter, but thank you for following, favoriting and reviewing my story! You have no idea how much I appreciate it, and how much it inspires me to write more! And, um, sorry for the delay.. again. AND sorry for the boring chapter.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kuroshitsuji or any of the characters.
Warning: Hints of child abuse
04. 26. 2008
My name is Ciel. I am ten years old, and I live in an orphanage. I hate it here. Everyone's weird, and no one wants to leave me alone.
Why won't anyone take me in? Is it because of my eye?!
10. 15. 2008
Someone adopted me! I'm so happy! The kind man told me that he could take me in. Maybe I'll finally become a part of a family.
11. 29. 2008
He sent me back. He told me I was a ´demon`, and he even hit me! Over and over again. What did I do?!
02. 09. 2009
I got adopted again! It will probably go much better this time! I'm sure of it.
03. 30. 2009
WHY DID SHE CALL ME A DEMON?! I'M NOT A DEMON! IT'S SO UNFAIR! I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS EYE! I DIDN'T ASK FOR ANY OF THIS!
I JUST WANT A FAMILY!
That's the only thing...
10. 02. 2009
This was the fifth time someone adopted me. As expected, I got thrown out. "Demon," they all said.
Maybe there really is something wrong with me...
12. 31. 2009
"Happy New Year"
In this orphanage, we celebrate by putting up some candles and eating soup. It is the only time in the year that we are able to eat anything other than old bread and cheese.
None of the other children here seems to care about the food, though. They are happy.
Why, I don't know.
11. 02. 2012
I got adopted. Ha! I'm sure this isn't going to last, it never does.
The woman seems nice, though... But doesn't all of them do that in the beginning?
She'll leave me just like everyone else.
12. 20. 2012
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!
That lady... She said someone was after me!
...Why did I run? I should have called the police.
I'm such a coward.
But it's strange... Maybe I should tell my parents about...
"Ciel?"
The boy quickly closed the book and put it in his drawer, just before his mother came into his room.
"W-What is it, mother?" Ciel asked, glancing at the now closed drawer.
"Why did you come home so late? I was very worried about you!" his mother exclaimed, looking really hurt.
Ciel looked down at his feet and sighed quietly. "I'm sorry, mother. I forgot the time," he said.
His mother frowned and walked over to him, then put her hand on his cheek. "Ciel, you know you can talk to me about everything," she said and sent her son a soft smile.
"I know," Ciel replied.
His mother sighed and took a few steps back.
"...Do you want anything to eat?" she asked quietly.
Ciel stared at her for a while, knowing that he would not be able to eat anything without throwing it up afterwards. The picture of the lady seemed to have been burned into his minds, and he was sure he would not get it out of his head any time soon.
"I ate out..." he said and sent his mother a reassuring smile.
"Oh... That's good," his mother said and gave him a short hug before walking out of the room with a silent "good night".
After she had gone, Ciel sat down on his bed. He was unexpectedly tired, but he knew that he would not sleep.
"He's after you," that woman had said. Well, that ´someone` was probably the one that killed her.
But... how did she know his name?
Ciel mentally shook his head and glanced at the drawer again, before taking the book out.
This was going to be a long night.
Ciel was sitting in his room. He hadn't slept all night, and his eyes were so heavy he felt as if he would fall asleep any minute.
A small ray of light was shining through his almost closed curtains. Even if the ray wasn't that big, it made his tired eyes burn, but he didn't have the energy to walk over and close the curtains.
Any time now, his mother would come in and tell him to wake up. Then he would have to go to school.
The thought made him feel sick. He had always hated school. Since he moved around a lot, he had gone to a lot of different schools, and he had hated every single one of them. In every school he had gone to, there had been at least one person who chose to pick on him, and humiliate him in front of everyone in his class. The main reason for the bullying was his eyes. The left one had a deep blue colour, while the right one had a very rare purple glow with some weird mark on it.
Ciel sighed. The only ones that had at least tried to accept him had betrayed him, and his stepmother would probably do the same.
He was sure of it. There was no way he could trust anyone. He was alone.