A/N: Sorry it took so long! I kept writing and rewriting and nothing was working. Sorry if there are any typos. But now the wait is over :) I hope it was worth it lol. It's my longest chapter yet! BTW italicized words are thoughts. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: My name is not Stephanie Meyer…I own nothing Twilight..except my team Jacob T-shirt hehe.
Chapter 3:
BPOV:
*A week later*
Jake had been avoiding me all week. I know he still wanted me because sometimes I would catch him looking over at the house in a daze.
I don't want to be a home wrecker…I just want sex. And if I happen to find love so be it.
I guess you could say I like the chase.
How did I get this way you ask? Well. Every guy who I have ever thought I loved has fucked me over…it never fails. I don't know why it happens but it gets old very quick.
The last one had to be the worst.
His name was Edward, he was my everything and I gave him all of me. We were together for 3 years and he was perfect. He had brown messy hair, perfect teeth, beautiful eyes, great style, a perfect family…I could go on.
I loved him more than anything…until I walked in on him and the school's biggest whore, Tanya, fucking in his bed.
I was devastated. I thought he was the one and we would get married sometime in the future and be together forever…little did I know, this affair had been going on for about a year according to the bitch.
I didn't even know what to do with myself. The day after I found out I confronted him and the only thing he had to say was: "Sorry babe..I never meant to hurt you..ha but shit happens right?" and with that he walked away. Leaving me alone and hurt.
The next school day really messed me up when I pulled up and saw Edward and the bitch walking hand in hand through the parking lot.
After that, I vowed to never feel that way again. My guard was up and I dare anyone to try to bring it down.
I started dressing more provocatively and I stopped respecting myself the way I know I should. I started having sex with guys who I know didn't give a damn and I started to party. And party often. It didn't matter if I had school the next day or not I was going out. That's why my mom sent me here. She couldn't handle the person I was turning into. And I don't blame her…I was a mess and I would have done the same thing if put in her position.
At this point of my life, love is a myth and I could give a flying fuck.
I looked myself over in the mirror and I was pleased with my appearance. I was wearing my low rise hip hugging jeans that made my butt look amazing, my loose purple tank top and my black lacy push up bra and panty set. I put mascara on with a little bit of lip gloss and I let my hair air dry so it was in loose natural waves and wore my signature black high top chucks.
Let's do this. I thought to myself as I headed out the door for my first day of school.
JPOV:
I had been avoiding her. And for good reason. I couldn't risk my life and my marriage for this girl.
"Hey babe I'm gonna head to work…still not feeling well?" Leah asked me.
"Uhh no I'm just gonna stay in today…I'll see you later though" I said smiling at her.
"Okay…well just call me if you need anything k? Love you sweetie" She said leaning down to kiss me.
"Mmm me too babe" I still couldn't bring myself to say it back.
I know it wasn't right to lie to my wife but it's not really lying if it's never brought up again right?
Wrong.
I wasn't really sick but I just couldn't chance running into her again.
Come on man…you're running away from a teenage girl! Grow some balls and tell her to back the fuck off! I said mentally beating myself up.
Okay. I'll wait till she gets home from school and if Charlie isn't home I'll talk to her about it. I stood up feeling a weight lift off of my shoulders and I decided today was going to be a good day.
I spent the day cleaning. I felt I had to do something special for my wife because of the way I have been acting around her. I haven't really touched her since that day and I think she is beginning to feel unwanted.
I do love her but I just can't get Bella off of my mind. Stop. This ends now.
I'm going to cook her favorite meal tonight and make love to her all night long. I thought to myself as I headed to the store to pick up all the ingredients I need for Chicken Alfredo.
I came back about twenty minutes later and realized Bella should be home around this time.
I drove up anxiously and noticed an unrecognizable car in the driveway.
That's not Charlie's car…maybe he got Bella one? I thought to myself as I was getting out of the car.
That meant she was alone…now's my time. I thought preparing myself.
I dropped my stuff off in my house and headed over.
I got to the door and raised my hand then stopped. Is this really a good idea? I can't do this…okay don't be a bitch let's go! I thought as I pounded on the door forcefully.
"Who is it?" I heard her say through the door.
"Jake. Open up we gotta talk" I said putting my hands in my pockets.
She opened the door standing with no shirt on and her jeans unbuttoned and a smirk on her face.
"Can this wait till later on? I'm kinda busy" She said staring me down.
That's not her car outside. Now I get it. I don't know why but at that moment I wanted nothing more than to go in there and punch whoever was in the house with her.
"Hey baby girl can you hurry it up I gotta be somewhere in an hour" I heard the guy say from the living room.
Baby girl…who the fuck is Baby girl?
"Yeah hang on" She shouted back.
"So Jake…if u don't mind I.." I didn't let her finish before I burst through the door and headed for the boy.
"Hey get out now!" I towered over the kid who looked like a deer caught in headlights. He grabbed his clothes and ran out of the house, got in his car and drove away.
"No Paul wait!" She yelled after him.
I turned to Bella who was staring at me like I had two heads.
"What the hell was that for Jacob?" She said still staring at me.
"Put your clothes on Bella" I said noticing that her breasts were very close to tumbling out of her bra.
"No I wanna know why you just did that!" She said angrily.
Why did I do that?
"Because…you're way too young to be acting like that" I said trying to come up with something on the spot.
"Really? You didn't think I was too young last time I saw you…" She said walking closer to me.
"Look. That's what I wanted to talk to you about…" I said backing away from her.
"Jake this is bullshit. Talking could have waited till another time…what's the real issue here" She said stopping and crossing her arms pushing her boobs even more out there.
"You're right. It could have waited until tomorrow. But I don't think it's a good thing for you to be throwing it all out there like that and not respecting yourself. You're better than that" I said firmly.
"One: you don't know shit about me so don't pretend you do. Two: it's just sex! He doesn't have to respect me I don't even know his last name…he just has to give me what I want. And three: I bet if Charlie hadn't knocked on your door that day, you would have fucked me right then and there" She said shrugging her shoulders.
"Bella…I just don't think it's a good idea is all..you can do way better and possibly with someone who cares about you" I said looking her in the eye while saying it.
"Fat chance. When people care it just makes things complicated…and someone always ends up getting hurt and it's all just a big mess" She said looking down at her feet.
I have never seen her this vulnerable before. I want to hug and kiss and feel her all over at the same time.
"Besides Jake, love is a myth…it's better to just have no strings attached and…and I'm really sick of talking about this so either change the subject or get out" She said turning away from me.
As she turned around I looked down and noticed her black lace panties peeking out of her jeans and the way her jeans hugged perfectly around her nice round butt.
Dammit Jake focus!I slowly brought my focus back up and realized she was looking at me out of the corner of her eye.
"Yeahh, my face is up here big boy…not that I mind…in fact…" She trailed off while unzipping her pants and slowly pushing them down her legs and stepping out of them.
"God you know Bella. I..umm…" I stopped talking when she put her finger up to her mouth and whispered a 'shh' and began walking away and up the stairs.
Things could happen one of two different ways. One: I could follow her and possibly do something I will regret. Or two: I can just leave now and avoid any type of problems.
Then I thought about the last time we were together and I put my hand on the rail leading up the stairs still contemplating what to do.
I swear I'm not Jake when I'm with her…I turn into my super horny alter ego…Jack. I have an angel on one shoulder and Jack on the other…and he only comes out when she's near!
The angel told me to leave and forget all about her but Jack was overpowering him by saying 'black lace panties Jake! Think of what's underneath!'
I thought so hard about this that I began to sweat.
Maybe if I just go up there and talk…just talk…and only TALK..things will be okay?I began walking up the stairs and noticed something hanging from the railing at the top of the stairs. My palm began to get clammy and it almost pissed me off. I never get this nervous. Ever. I'm always cool, collected and in control. But right now…she had the reigns.
I reached the top of the stairs and grabbed what was on the rail…
Her bra.
I felt myself getting hard and the harder I got, the more nervous I became.
Talking is good. I like to talk…just keep 'talk' on the mind.
I looked up searching for her room and right across the way I saw something that made me want to cry out. I saw something black hanging from her doorknob that seemed to be the same material as the bra I was currently holding.
"Holy shit…" I said as I reached out and grabbed on to them.
If I'm not mistaking, these were the only two things she had on…that means…
I opened the door slowly and peered around the room. I walked fully inside and shut the door behind me. I looked all around the room and noticed that she was not there.
"Um Bella?" I said looking around.
"In here Jake" She shouted from the closet.
Just a one time thing then it's done. I promised myself.
I walked over to the closet and opened up the door only to find her in a light pink sports bra and a matching pair of boy shorts type underwear that said PINK on the butt.
….uhhh what the fuck is this? Still sexy but she shouldn't be in that!
"Oh…um hey..I guess?" I said very confused.
I can't say I wasn't disappointed to find her in clothes and not ready for me to ravage her.
"Hey…something the matter?" She said smirking at me.
Damn that sexy smirk.
"Well…I just thought..I mean I thought you…forget it" I said looking down at my feet this time.
"You thought what Jake?" She said reaching toward the zipper in the front of her sports bra.
"You thought I would just let you come up here and let you touch me…maybe even fuck me so hard it will hurt to walk the next day?" She said while slowly unzipping the zipper revealing more and more of her breasts.
She reached the bottom and the bra was so open, I could almost see her nipples then she licked her lips and stopped.
"But if I recall…I remember this man once telling me I shouldn't be 'throwing it all out there' and I take direction very well" She said zipping her bra back up smiling at me and walking past me out of the closet.
Fuck.
"Wait. You can't just do that…" I said pulling her back around.
"Well Jake what kind of person would that make me if I just went against your word like that?" She said sarcastically.
"Bella…" I said giving her the 'don't be dumb' look.
"What? What do you really want Jake?" She said looking serious.
You.
"I want…I don't know what I want" I said feeling ashamed.
I want to have my cake and eat it too.
"Bull. Look I already told you. I don't want anything more than a good fuck from you okay? I don't want to be with you or any shit like that. Just sex. You know how I feel about 'feelings' I guess and I know for a fact you want me too" She said looking me square in the eye daring me to disagree.
"Stop." I said looking away from her.
"You wouldn't be in my room holding my underwear hoping for sex if you didn't want me you wouldn't… " I didn't let her finish when my lips crashed into hers.
Helloooo alter ego Jack.
She seemed taken back at first but when she recovered, she began kissing me back just as fierce. She wrapped her arms tightly around my neck and my hands were digging into her hips never wanting to let go. I reached down and grabbed her firm ass and lifted her so she could wrap her legs around my waist. She moaned into my mouth when I ground her down into my raging hard on. I repeated my motions until I had her whimpering.
"Ohh Jakee I want you so bad" She whispered in my ear.
"How bad baby? Tell me how bad you want me" I said breathing into her neck.
"Here I'll show you" She said while taking one of my hands off of her butt and reaching it around to her core and let me feel how wet she was.
"God Bella…you're so fucking wet. I need you" I whispered to her as I began walking us over to the foot of her bed.
"Then take me…now Jake" She said as I laid her down on her bed and began crawling on top of her.
Just once.
I grabbed her waist and moved her to the top of the bed and I parted her legs so I could kneel between them.
"I hear you're great at taking directions huh? Take off your bra" I commanded her.
She looked at me dumfounded at first, then got that infamous smirk on her lips.
"Yes Jake. Anything you say" She said with a smile playing on her lips.
She slowly dragged her fingers from the waistband of her underwear to the bottom of the sports bra where she slipped her fingers underneath and rubbed her nipples until I could see her little buds poking out beneath the fabric. Then she slipped her left hand out and began unzipping it once again. I sat patiently and watched even though my patience was wearing thin but I wouldn't dare say anything now. She got to the bottom and jiggled the zipper which in return made her breasts bounce underneath.
I was mesmerized.
She finally unzipped the whole thing and just as it slid down to reveal her tiny pink nipples, that I have been waiting what seems like forever to see, her right hand raced over and hid both nipples from my view.
Oooh she wants to tease huh? Well two can play at that game.
She shimmied off the left bra strap and slipped her left arm from it while still keeping hidden. Then she skillfully replaced her right hand with her left so she could remove her right arm from the bra. When she finished, she peered up at me and licked her lips and squeezed her breasts at the same time.
She is so beautiful. With her pouty lips, her chocolate brown eyes and her chestnut hair…who wouldn't want that? Hmm maybe a married man Jake?
I shook my head clearing my mind of anything other than Bella. I'll deal with it when the time comes I thought to myself.
"Shit Bells…you're so damn beautiful baby" I said still mesmerized by what she was doing.
She had leaned back on the bed in front of me, arched her back and started to rub and pinch her nipples and knead her breasts at the same time. She was moaning and saying my name moving her hips in a way that should be a crime.
I was overheating. I looked down and realized I was still fully clothed and I removed my shirt as fast as I could then I began working on my jeans. I was strained painfully against my jeans so when I got the zipper down I took a sigh of relief.
"Jaaakke ooh Jake pleeease fuck me" She moaned as she turned over onto her stomach.
"Let me see you first" I said pushing her onto her back.
"Ugghh I like some roughness…when I'm in the mood" She said biting her lip and raising one eyebrow while sitting up and finally revealing herself to me.
Perfect. Her perky full B cup boobs were the epitome of perfect and they fit her petite frame…well perfectly.
I giggled to myself on that last thought. She must have thought I was laughing at her because she began to blush and I noticed it reached all the way to the swell of her breast.
"Okay ha ha I get it they're not that big I know but you don't have to be an asshole and laugh in my face..at least wait till you go home or something" She said reaching up to cover them.
"No no. Ha not you…me..I was just thinking about how perfect they are…never at you" I said replacing her hands with mine.
I leaned over and kissed her collarbone and moved downward kissing and sucking until I had reached her right breast. I looked up at her and her lips were slightly parted and her eyes were hooded over by lust. I reached her pink bud and I flicked my tongue over it making her inhale and stick her chest out further to me. I repeated the same action to her left one then I leaned up and blew my breath on them causing them to peak and her to shiver from the chills.
"Jaakke ughh" She moaned as she placed her hands on my shoulders motioning for me to turn over.
I flipped onto my back and watched as she sat up and traced her fingers down my abs.
"Two, four, six, eight…I like" She said smiling down at me.
When she reached my boxers, she slipped her hand in and gripped me firmly. I couldn't help but to moan at the contact. She stroked me a few times then let go to push my boxers down to my ankles where I kicked them off.
"Mmm Jake..I can't wait to have you inside me" She moaned as she climbed over me.
She straddled me and I sat up so we were face to face. I looked down and realized there was only one piece of clothing separating us from touching each other where we really wanted to. I grabbed her butt once again and began moving her against me. She put her hands on my shoulders and tilted her head backwards moaning my name. I took that opportunity to attack her neck being sure not to leave a mark.
I flipped her back over and took off her underwear. I sat back for a second so I could look her over.
Ahh I loved that she was bare and smooth all over. Oohh and so damn wet!
I took my finger and felt around her folds before thrusting it into her opening. After a bit I added two more fingers and she was she was screaming my name so loud I'm sure the neighbors would hear…If we were home.."Ohhh shiitt Jake I'm cumming I'm cumming don't stop please!" She moaned while her body began shaking uncontrollably.
I could feel her warmth coating my fingers and I couldn't wait to feel it around me.
Her eyes were shut and she was coming down from her high. I pulled my fingers out of her and put them to my mouth sucking them clean.
She tastes so sweet like strawberries.
"Mmm so good Bells" I moaned touching her again.
"Do you have a condom?" She asked bringing her gaze back to mine.
Shit. I hadn't planned on this! And I can't just run home now.
"Uhh no I hadn't planned on this. Do you have any?" I asked looking around the room.
"No. The guy usually takes care of that with me…but I am on birth control" She said with a smile.
"Ahh um as much as I want to..and believe me I really want to…I just don't think it's worth the risk.." I said hanging my head on her shoulder.
"Hmm. I bet I can make you think otherwise" She said turning me onto my back once more.
"I bet I can make you scream my name Jake..but it's all up to you" She said straddling me and grabbing my dick aligning it with her opening.
God I can feel her..I want to be inside her so bad…I thought to myself as she began sliding me into her.
I closed my eyes and just let myself feel. She was slowly sliding herself onto me and I didn't think I would last very long so I started thinking about random things.
Umm work…skunks..fuck she's so tight and wet. No bad thoughts Jake..okay dad in the bathtub..yeah that'll work.
She finally got me fully sheathed inside of her and we were both panting. She needed to move and soon before I exploded inside of her but she needed a minute to adjust to my size. I grabbed her hips and started moving her up and down on top of me and she put her hands on my chest scraping her nails down and back up.
"Ohh Jake you feel so good inside of me" She moaned riding me faster and faster.
She was getting close and I could feel her walls clamping down on me every time she slid back up. Her breasts were bouncing up and down rapidly and I reached my hands up to grab hold of them.
"Fuuccckk Jake I'm close go harder pleeasseee" She said moaning aloud.
I grabbed her hips and flipped her on her back still staying connected and began pounding into her forcefully. I got on my knees and angled her hips upward so I could reach a different angle and her breathing got even more labored.
Come on Jake just a little bit longer. I chanted to myself.
I closed my eyes and tried to put my mind in a different state but when her moans got louder and she began to shake under me, I couldn't hold out any longer. I opened my eyes to look down at her and I froze.
"No no keep going I'm so close Jakkeee come on!" She moaned urging me on.
But when I opened my eyes I saw Leah's face on Bella's body. She was staring at me with sad eyes and she was mouthing 'How could you' to me. I shook my head trying to get the image out of my mind but every time I looked back at her more tears ran down her face.
I can't do this.
"Okay I'm sorry I teased you but pleeeeaase just finish Jake please" She pleaded moving her hips against me.
"I'm sorry…" I said to both Bella and Leah.
I rolled off of her gathering all of my clothes and dressing myself while she just sat there still not moving.
I can't believe I just did this! I thought to myself.
"Jake…didn't anyone ever teach you not to start anything you can't finish?" She said sitting up finally.
I just ignored her as I finished dressing myself. I couldn't look at her after what just happened. I am a horrible husband. The worst part was I still wanted to go back and fuck her till she was breathless.
"Bella…I can't I'm…" She didn't let me finish.
"You're sorry yeahh yeah I get it whatever. Why don't you head back to your lovely home and wife and I can have somebody else come take care of what I need" She said putting her own clothes on.
For some reason that ticked me off. I didn't want some other punk with his hands all over her! Jesus Jake, this is not your girl…OR any of your business.
My hands were shaking and I wanted to scream at her..but once again, this isn't my problem. I calmed myself down and just looked at her while she searched through her phone most likely for that punk Paul's phone number.
She finished her text and looked back up at me irritated.
"You're still here? Well Paul is on his way so I think its best if you just go" She said turning to open the door for me.
"Come on Bella…that's not fair you know the situation I'm in" I said walking toward her.
"Yeah that's why the door is open. So go" She said avoiding eye contact.
"Bella…you have to understand how hard this is for me" I said turning her face to look at me.
She just turned away and I stormed out of the room and out of the house livid.
That little jerk off better not come back here! I thought while walking back to my house.
I walked in the door and tried calming myself down by pacing back and forth and breathing evenly.
Why the hell do I care so much? It shouldn't matter to me who she's with.
I had some serious thinking to do. Do I tell my wife that I have been unfaithful? Or should I just let it go and go on with my life? Fuck I had some thinking to do.
I hopped in the shower and decided to nap on it. But when I fell asleep all I could think about was what had just happened between Bella and me.
Well if I can't live it I can dream it.
I woke up startled by my bedroom door being slammed open.
"Cheater!" I heard my wife yell clearly upset.
Holy shit I'm caught. I thought as I sat up faster than I ever have in my entire life.
A/N: Gahh this was a hard ending to write but I hope you all liked it! This will end a Jacob/Bella story so bear with me. Reviews are always welcome. The next chapter shouldn't take so long. Happy New Year!