FLASHBACK….(FRESHMAN YEAR)

"Hit the showers everyone!" I heard Cassie instructed us. This was the worst day of practice for me. How could you take orders from someone who you can't even look directly in the eyes? I don't think I'm ready to talk to her yet and I have a feeling that she noticed I'm distracted.

I quickly turn around to go to our lockers but Cassie suddenly blocked my way. I was not able to hide my shock by her action. When I looked at her she seems very confused.

"What did I do this time?" she looked around then walks closer to me, I step back which mad her arch her brow. "Seriously, what's your deal?" now she sounds irritated with my action.

I don't know how to respond to that. So I just looked down and wait for her to walk away, but she didn't. Dammit!

"Sanny, talk to me." I shut my eyes tight because I don't want to see her sad. I can hear it in her voice.

"Y..you lied to me." I finally had the courage to speak. "You said you like boys and you find Santino cute." I looked at her with my accusing eyes. "That's why I agreed to have.. with you." She was taken a back with what I've said, her face didn't hide much.

She let out a deep sigh. "I didn't lie. I like going out with guys and I find your brother cute." She calmly explains to me. "Why are you so upset about this?"

"From the start you knew my brother likes you." She suddenly became uneasy. She again looked around us all though we both know that cheerleaders are the last students to go home because of practice.

"Urg! Why does everyone make it a big deal? I have every right to say no." she snaps at me.

"Because I'm his sister and I don't want him to get hurt, it is a big deal for me!" then I whispered. "And something happened to us, so I feel guilty."

She just shook her head. I could see that she's trying hard not to cry. "How about me, do you even care how I feel?" before I could answer her, she turns around then walks away.

I felt bad. I hate arguing with her let alone make her sad. She's my best friend and I care about her but I care about my twin brother too.

When Santino went home that night, my heart broke. He's drunk and completely broken but the hardest part is knowing that I am the reason why he's like this.

I helped him get into his bed. Good thing that our parents are too tired to stay up late. So I waited for him to come home. Maybe because I feel guilty for what he is going through right now.

I'm about to tuck him to bed when he reached for my hand and squeeze it. His eyes are still closed but I could feel his breathing became uneasy.

"She's in love with someone else." His voice cracked. Then the most heartbreaking moment happened, there are tears flowing on his cheeks. Santino only cries when he's feeling so much pain inside.

I sat next to him and hug him. I could feel his suffering inside which made me let go of the tears I'm trying to hold in. I can't bear to look at him right now. I kissed his head then tuck him in his bed. When he's already asleep I went out of his room.

As I let my body fell down on my bed I can't stop thinking about my brother. I've never seen him like that. Cassie was his first love and his first heart break. I close my eyes and let sleep take over me.

I received a text message in the morning that out practice was cancelled. I felt relieved but sad as well. Both of them are hurting and there's nothing I could do about it. But still I promised myself that I'll be by my brother's side on this one.

Santino left his Ducati bike at Matt's house last night. Thank goodness he's not suicidal enough to ride that back home. Our fifteen minute travel to school seems like forever because he's not in the mood to talk. I had to do something. So I pulled over then I step on the breaks. I earned a sharp glare from him.

"What the hell Tana?!" he exclaimed.

"Look, I know it hurts like shit but please don't skip school. Your teachers told me yesterday you skipped all of your classes after lunch." I told him in a low voice.

I could see his jaw gritted "You're not mom so don't fucking tell me what to do!" he shouted.

"No, but if you don't stop this, you will hear a repeat from them soon." I snapped at him. I calmed myself. Shouting at him will do no good so I counted one to ten on my head before speaking again. "Tino, you've work hard for this, don't throw it all away for ..her."

He clenched his hands above his knee until his knuckles turned white.

"She's the reason I had all of this." Then he looks at me, with such pain in his eyes. "Just drive or I'll walk."

I had no choice but to drop it. I don't want him to be late so I just drive until we reached school. He quickly stepped out of the car before I could even park it. I need to do something about this because if not, Santino will surely waste his life.

PRESENT DAY..LIMA, OHIO

McKinley High is smaller than my old school. I missed my best friend Kurt, he would surely love here because there is no uniform. He will have an excuse to wear all of his designer's clothes and boots.

As I walked the hallway I could see some of them staring at me with a confuse look.

My eye's grew wide when I saw two jocks walking at my direction with large slushies on their hands. I composed myself and refused to panic. They stopped few feet in front of me. Both of them checked me out.

I made sure that I would totally look hot today because I want to gain attention. Good thing that Quinn texted me this morning to avoid jocks with slushies because that's how they welcome new students or losers from glee club.

The bigger guy with long hair shifted his head to the other jock. "Dude, she's too hot. She might be my future girl."

I just throw up in my mouth. The other jock smirks while looking up and down at me. I narrowed my eyes, fuck! This one's totally gay! My gaydar just went wild for this one.

"It might cool her down." When he's about to slushie me I raised my hand in front of their face.

I put my scariest HBIC (as my friends in cheerleading squad call it) face. I looked at the bigger guy first.
"I'm very offended that they sent two overly grown chimpanzees to welcome me here, but anyways I just want to share something and hopefully you two are clinically tested to relay my message." I raised my brow for an added intimidation which I could see is working.

"If you ever, even once, put that disgusting slushie anywhere my body or clothes, I'll pull your tongue from your shitty mouth and cut it with my nail pile, chop it into tiny miny little pieces then make you eat it on your death bed." I stepped closer to the other guy and pull his jacket so I could whisper into his ears.

"This is especially for you pumpkin. I'm gonna fucking kick you out of the closet if you don't make your little friends go away. I can smell your gayness from my car." I could see his face turning white while the other one was so intrigue on what I said to his friend.

I walk way pass them without turning back. I held my head high and walk with confidence while the students give way to me. I just smirk at them then glare to those who dare to make eye contact.

I reached the end of the hallway when I heard a girl squeal, the jocks called her Man hands. Poor soul but it's better her than me. That's right, find another weakling because Santana Lopez is bad ass and no one can mess with me.

Last update for tonight. :D

I hope to read your comments tomorrow. Night everyone. .