I am somehow disappointed with my early drafts about this next chapter and the next after this one. But still... oh, well. I somehow make it to what I expect it will be. So, probably this is the sixth time that I try writing this. And somehow, I am already confident with it. I have a short conversation between them but their after thoughts, yeah, they have a lot.

LolaSpice: This is the continuation of your other request. Let's see in the future if I will have Lelouch alive in the next one-shots! :D

Fairfan: That's the very reason why I started writing this one. I can't find any fanfiction that has to deal with Lelouch saying what he really felt. And I know right, even Schneizel has a heart. His thoughts were based from what he had told the Black Knights that Lelouch is the person he had loved and feared the most, and also there's a picture of him when he and Lelouch are still young wherein Lelouch clings onto one of his sleeves with Clovis. So that pretty summarize where I catch the thoughts he has and also his own feels.

Obsessed: Thank you very much and I am so glad that you like my writings. I actually hated my writings but you had assured me that they are beautifully written. Thank you very much! :)

foxydame: Thank you very much as well and I actually don't think that I was able to catch the real feelings of the characters. The next chapter will be written with Suzaku's thoughts as well.

REQUEST: "Have the student council plus Suzaku talk to" from LolaSpice.

REFLECTION

"So it is all true, isn't it?" Kallen asked as she stands close to the window panel of the Student Council room. She and the other members of the Student Council decided to talk about the video that Lelouch had left for them. And it is indeed funny to think that maybe, Lelouch is also crying somewhere upon seeing all of them gathered and crying for a fool like him, because the heaven seems to do so as well.

Rivalz dumped his face onto the table and muttered, suppressing his own tears, "He could just have told it to me. I never thought indeed that he'll be an emperor and do all of those things. I know him, and he always seems to have everything planned."

"Lelouch…" Milly trailed off as she softly smiled. "He hides everything because there are individuals that he wanted to protect. After all, among the whole student body of Ashford Academy, it was only I who is aware that he is a prince of Britannia and as well Nunnally's lineage."

"And to find out that Suzaku is…" Rivalz trailed off.

"That's a different case though," Milly stated.

The door leading to the hallway opened up then. The three people who were inside the room instantly glance at its direction. Zero then entered in along with Nina. It was only the two of them.

"Where's Gino?" asked the blonde-haired woman.

"He is with Anya," Nina answered.

When the door closes behind the newly arrived ones, Zero didn't hesitate to remove his mask and slowly look at each person in the room.

Suzaku then muttered, lowering his gaze, "I'm sorry that I need to hide the truth from you. About being Zero. And all about the other things."

"Damn that Lelouch!" blustered Kallen, her face was filled with tears once again when the others look at her. "It is so unfair! He could just have told us before he planned them all."

"There are a few who knew about the Zero Requiem to begin with. But then, Lelouch," Suzaku replied. He stops for a moment because saying the name of his friend is still hard to cope up with, knowing that every time he needs to acknowledge Lelouch, he has to use a past tense because he is already dead.

"Yeah, that man will just say that he did that for everyone's future," Kallen continued.

"The truth is, Lelouch had planned it all," the former knight of the Demon Emperor stated. "That all of you will hate him just as the whole world does, so that you can face the future with a smile."

"You didn't do anything to stop him?" Milly asked, worried.

Suzaku looked at her like a lost child, someone who is indeed in grief. He slowly lowered then his head as he closed his hands into a fist. "He knows that I have my own doubts about killing him. But he trusted me. And for some months of seeing his perspective, I realize that he had finally given up. The world is cruel, and Lelouch is just a prisoner of it. If I can free him from that fate by killing him, then probably it would be enough, since I am the one who always wanted to die."

Rivalz sniffs for a moment and then asked the next, "Does he wanted to die himself then? He said in the video that he don't want to but he was assured that it will be for a better future. But still, there has to be some part of him that is selfish as he always is."

"Yes. He is indeed selfish, especially when it involves Nunnally," Milly agreed.

Suzaku was about to speak up when Nina instantly said, "At the last time that I got to talk with him before he set off to fighting in the Damocles, he told me that he owe me. I told him that I'll never forgive Zero for killing Princess Euphemia. But then…"

"He had done it just as he said, because he also owe you, Nina," Kallen interrupted as she looks away again.

The green-haired scientist instantly falls to sit down on the floor and brought her hands onto her face. "I should have hate him for killing Princess Euphemia. But… all the arrogance he has just simply being the person he is, it's different. I can relate to him. I who had kept silence and him who draws everyone with his arrogance, in the end, we're still just all alone and trying to fit in this world."

Milly then walks towards Nina and brought her to an embrace. "We're all alone, Nina. That's what the world has to offer for us. But not in this new world that Lelouch had left for us. He'll want us to be happy."

"That fool, he should really just have told the Black Knights," Kallen hissed as she tries to stop herself from crying.

Rivalz turned to Suzaku then and say, "Is it really alright to be happy now?"

Suzaku smiled faintly at him. "At least, that's what Lelouch thought we should be doing. For us to smile because he had finally find salvation, just as we all had in this new world he had created."

AFTER THOUGHTS OF THE STUDENT COUNCIL MEMBERS:

Kallen Kouzuki:

Hey, Lelouch. Idiot. I should have started with that word. Thinking that everyone close to you whether as Lelouch or as Zero will be happy upon knowing your sacrifice, you really are an idiot. But you succeeded somehow, because you are right. Upon your death, all of the efforts that was once handed to war was finally lifted and to be put on for more of reconstruction and all other efforts for peace and negotiation. And still, a lot of people might thought of you as evil, remember that there are a group of people who didn't. Remember that there is one person who will keep on admiring with all the things that you've done.

At the time that I've known that you are Zero, I really don't know what to do. I was so devastated with the fact that you are him and you has the power to command anyone against their will. I wanted to believe. And in the time that the Black Knights betrayed you, if you have told me not to walk away, I would have. Because I was all prepared to be at your service. I was all prepared to the fact that I'll do anything even if I know that I am just a tool. That's the very reason as well you have code names for us when we went to battle. Because you got to calculate a chess plan format. I am all willing to be just a pawn.

But you gave me a code higher than anyone, Q1, the Queen. And as the Queen, I should have done something to protect the king. But I didn't. And maybe that's my flaw. Because I tend to believe on whatever the majority has to say. I was so angry when I find out that you've chosen Suzaku to be your knight, wherein I should be there for you when you take the throne. But you've done all of it knowing that he as your friend and also enemy will be so much more willing to do anything you'll ask of him, even to the extent of killing you. Probably you know that if I was Suzaku and you asked me to kill, you know that I can't do it. That's why, you pushed me away so that I could be spared from such burden, so that I can live through the world that I promised to create as well for my mother.

Still, it is not just a world now that you are gone, Lelouch. There are some people who don't deserve to die just for peace. The same as it is that there are some people who are worth of having a much longer life. But maybe, that's the very reason why, Lelouch. It was the good people who died young because fate is too good for them to spare them from a much more painful life while living in a very cruel world.

And now, I'll remember you, Lelouch, as someone whom I loved.

Milly Ashford:

I hate you, Lelouch. You, Shirley and Rolo as well. You all died not allowing me to cast one spell onto each of you. Maybe the too much fun that we all had in the Student Council causes me to lose track of time and never realize the value of life after all. I've live the life so carefree, moving according to what I wanted it to be. That causes me to lose value that I am not the only one on this world. And I will never know when I have to lose someone close to me.

The world is indeed cruel, isn't it?

When I first saw you underneath that cherry blossom tree when I was still in middle school, you were that boy who has such pompous and arrogant attitude, I wonder if you felt the weight of how heavy the world is. Because if you does, you are indeed a great actor for hiding the heaviness of it by wearing a mask. You've matured so much that I only realize how heavy the world is at the time that I saw my friends die. But then I wonder, how many of the memories you've shared with I and the rest of the Student Council were the truth? How many of them were lies?

I wouldn't know the answer anymore, do I? But maybe, when we meet again, I'll ask you. So be prepared with my endless questions at that time! Then, I instantly remember, are you also wearing a mask at the time that you've promised that you'll set off the fireworks with us the next time? Maybe you are, no? Because you asked Lord Jeremiah, with the assistance of Anya, to set them off for you as we watched. Geez, you never change. You only didn't escape most of the works of the Student Council, even a simple firework lighting you also dared to!

But you accomplished something that I thought you'll no longer be able to achieve. The time that I learned that you are a prince of Britannia, I know deep down that you've hidden that very part of you because you fear and hate it. It surprised me to know that you overcome that fear and become the emperor. That's right. That's your greatest achievement. You've become the Emperor of Britannia because you managed to overcome your fear and hate with your past.

And I couldn't be any prouder than I am now. Knowing that you achieve something much greater than that. You overcome that fear in order to create a much better future. And I hope that you are still alive so that you can see this achievement of yours. So remember this last spell I'll cast on you…

REST!

I can assure you myself that you finally find peace with death, even if it hurts to admit that you are already dead. At least, you no longer need to worry if what you sacrifice for is met. Because I and the rest of the Student Council will continue to protect this peace until the end of our lives.

Rivalz Cardemonde:

Lelouch, is this all that you really wanted? The world hates you now and only a few of us were aware of your sacrifice? Is this what you really need to pay for all of the crimes? And now, I don't know what else to do.

After watching the video you have left, I learned that you were Zero before. I admired you as Zero, you know? But then I grow to hate him because of what happened with Shirley's father. I know that you don't mean to do it. And you being Zero causes you to be distant with me. I told you before that I wanted to join you in your new gambling sessions because I missed the old days already, but you told me not to. You told me because it is dangerous for me and you don't want anyone close to you to get harmed. But that's life, you gamble your very own life just to achieve this peace that we all had.

And that's what you always do, right? The very first time I know you is when I was already in a close call of losing on a chess game. You then back me up and played the game for me even if I already lose hope the moment that you reached for the black king and take it as the first move even against an enemy with a very strong defense. But you still win. That's the time that I thought of you as an interesting fellow and urge me to buy my bike. And at the time that you told me why you always start with the king, you said that it is because he needs to move ahead so that his subordinates will follow.

Now, think of it, I was so shocked to know that you proclaimed yourself emperor. I never know that you'll be a prince of Britannia to begin with. But then, I realize that you've been true with your philosophy. As the new emperor, you've walk in towards risk in order for your subordinates to follow you. And now, you orchestrated your death as king, so that the world could follow as well and be recreated as a new one.

You've planned it all along do you? Maybe if I wasn't really powerless at all. If I know how to pilot a Knightmare Frame just like Suzaku and Kallen, or maybe be as brilliant as of a scientist like Nina, or have the guts like Shirley, maybe I could have join you and follow you as well. But I didn't. I just sat there in the Student Council room missing the old ambiance it has when all of you battle on either side of the war.

Still, I keep assuring myself since then, that I shall believe in you. You never make me lose anything, ever since we first met. You win the chess game for me, knowing that I am at the end of the sticks at that time. And I still believe in you because you will always be my best friend.

Nina Einstein:

I will never forgive you, not after what you killed Princess Euphemia. Not only has her body lost life but also her name, her very essence. Being his brother, you know her among anyone else that she can't ordered a massacre and kill anyone at all. She'll want peace and cease all of the wars that's going on. But it was because of you primarily that she become someone she clearly doesn't want to become. Or maybe… it was Zero.

Ever since that time, I always hated Zero. I wanted to kill him and avenge Princess Euphemia's death. I tried a lot of times but I always failed to do so. And then, when F.L.E.I.J.A. was perfected, I wanted to show its power to you so that you'll fear me. But it ended that it also break a piece of my heart. A lot of lives was stolen because I created it. I might not have literally killed them just as you have because there are a lot of people to do the job for you or also you personally killed them, I somehow felt the guilt. There's the regret of doing so after being haunted by a lot of people because of what I've created.

At the time that you've asked for my help to make a countermeasure against it and about your plan to recreate a world that Princess Euphemia hoped to have, I don't know what had come to me to believe in you. Maybe because you assured me that it was what Princess Euphemia's wished for the world. Or maybe it was because like you, I also wanted to repent for whatever sin I have committed. It would be both, I guess.

I was so eager not to lose anyone anymore after witnessing myself how a lot of lives were stolen by the first time that F.L.E.I.J.A. was tested and I wanted to fulfill Princess Euphemia's dream. In a simple way, I believe in you, and I am right that I did take the risk. And I know that you regret killing Princess Euphemia.

Since this is the world that you've created and this is what Princess Euphemia hoped to have, maybe I can at least smile now because I no longer have to try fitting in myself and feel the loneliness of the former cruel world that you've destroyed yourself along with your death.

Reviews please!

I want to hear your reaction about this another one shot. I am sorry if I don't have Gino included in with their talk because I really wanted him with Anya and not with Kallen. I am a LelouchXC.C., SuzakuXKallen, and GinoXAnya fan. And no other pairing. I simply don't comment about the other pairing, but that's my opinion after all. Oh, well...If you want to request something else, just leave it on with your reviews! :D

Thanks! :D