AN: Hey guys so I will sometimes upload two chapters a day, since it'll be a journal chapter and real life chapter. The only reason i'll upload both is because the journal entires are very short. So yea, hope you enjoy!
My Journal
2/13/1505
Hello again journal! Today me and Law went to the park, but before we left Law did that weird thing with his eyes again. It's becoming more and more frequent since . . . since our cousin died. It's as if his eyes became cold and regretful and tries to search for any other pain that someone could be barbering. Once again just as always I'm the victim. Sometimes I feel as though Law already knows that I'm . . . You know? But I have to quickly think optimistic upon the whole situation before I just start crying.
I still think about my cousin every now and then, our families were very close. He was around my age like maybe a month or two apart. He was always pretty mean to me, sometimes to the point where Law would have to step in. I never really spoke against it though much to the dismay of Law, but unlike my stone cold brother I saw something else. Instead of anger and corrupt intentions all I saw was someone hurt, heartbroken, and bitter. Just watching my cousin walk from the kitchen to the living room was like watching a person walk on tacs. He was miserable. Every time I would try to speak to him it looked as if it was complete agony to even open his mouth and move his tongue. In reaction every single time I felt something crawl into my throat and became so hard to swallow, because I knew . . . Yea, I knew.
I tried telling his older sister about it, but she shook it off. Coaxing me to play games or do fun hobbies with her instead of worrying about matters that shot way over my head. She was the sweetest person you could ever think of. Her name was Layla she was kind, funny, defensive, and cool. Her personality was of one out of the dreamworld and she loved, I mean LOVED her little brother . . . If only I . . . I should've tried harder to tell her. They didn't deserve that, none of them did. Layla, well she was devastated. She wouldn't talk to anyone for weeks and barely wanted to eat. Not until just recently has she started to regain her composure, i'm glad she did because I missed her.
I never really understood why everyone was so sad and pitiful, I mean to me it seemed as though this might've ended his suffering. Well hopefully it did. They said that he died by sui- suic- suici- I forgot! But after that they continuously told me that hurting myself was bad and I shouldn't do it. Law stuck closer to me than ever and whenever Layla's family came to visit she would do the same.
Ah, Mom is calling me for dinner! Hopefully it's beef stew this time!
See you again, Mr. Journal!
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