Misunderstandings

I don't own TSLOTAT, this is just fanfiction.

Amy's POV:

I was so relieved when Ricky walked away from were Cam and I were standing. Cam is nothing but a friend. I hope Ricky would be understanding, because he had been in the past. To avoid embarrassing myself any further with Cam, I stayed and talked with him for a few more minutes. He began by asking, "Hey Ames, (which he started calling me out of the blue), I hope I didn't cause any problems for you guys, because I certainly didn't mean to." Then I responded, "Of course not Cam, as I said, I had already mentioned you to Ricky, so it's no big deal. I do have to continue my shopping, but we can talk later if you want to. Cam said, "I would like to call or text you later so we can figure this assignment out before the weekend is over". I answered him with, "Okay Cam, we'll talk later, bye."

I hurried to where I thought Ricky might be, just as I thought he was standing there near the cookies. For the first time in a couple of years I wasn't sure what to say to him. So I started with , "Hi". He just looked at me for a moment looking a little confused. I continued with "Is something wrong?" He just acted as if nothing was wrong and we continued to get the rest of the things we needed at home.

Normally when Ricky gets frustrated he needs time to himself. I was really hoping he wouldn't do that because it was just him and I once we got home. After a very silent ride home we brought the groceries in and began putting them away promptly. Once we were done, I had to say something. Just this morning we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. Now we had nothing to say. The silence was killing me so I dared to break it. "RICKY TALK TO ME!" I said with yearning in my voice. "What exactly would you like me to say Amy", he said with heavy sarcasm. "I just want to talk it out, just don't leave like you always do, please Ricky". I answered. Then he said, "Would you like me to tell you how much I love you? Or tell you that I'm pissed off because you neglected to tell me that Cam from school is a dude. Or should I tell you that I hated the way I felt when I saw you so close to him. Or should I tell you that you seemed genuinely happy in his company and I hated it. Should I keep going Amy, or is that enough for now?"

I began, "Ricky I…I'm sorry I didn't tell you Cameron was a guy. I honestly thought it was nothing serious. But it obviously bothered you. You should know, you have nothing to worry about. Just a few months ago you asked me to marry you and I accepted, which means I only want to be with you and no one else for the rest of my life".

Ricky's POV:

I really don't think she understands how I was feeling. I love her so much it's crazy. I never knew I could feel this way about a female. She has made me see things and feel things I never thought possible. But what scares me the most is the thought of losing her. Amy and John mean everything to me in this world. They're the life and family that I never thought I deserved. They make me better then I was; They make me wanna be better then I am, just to make them proud. I just wish she understood how much seeing her with that guy bothered me, especially after the weird feelings I've been having lately. I didn't want her to feel like I didn't trust her so I never mentioned it.

I remember a time when I used to run away from everything that hurt me. But now that Amy and I are engaged, I promised myself to try not to shut her out like I used to. I was lucky enough to find such an amazing connection with her. I don't ever wanna do anything to push her away. I'm gonna try like hell not to. It's just really hard for me to share my feelings with anyone. Even Dr. Fields has to work really hard to get me to tell him what's up with me. Ultimately, my emotions are hard to digest, let alone elaborate on, so for now lets just say I'm trying.

Amy's POV:

I didn't know what else to say to Ricky at this point. I hope he understood me. He has no reason to think that I didn't mention Cam was a guy because I was up to something. Cam and I are just friends and nothing more. He is a really nice guy and maybe if I tell Ricky more about his life, he'll understand why he and I seem to click so well. Come on, the guy just lost his girlfriend and the mother if his child so suddenly forever. He could not be interested in dating anyone yet, especially engaged ol' me.

After several minutes of quietly thinking amongst ourselves, Ricky said," You are my heart Amy, and I know you love me. I'm just not use to this real love thing we have here. This is the first time I've ever felt like this about someone and it scares me. I had feelings for Adrian but they were nothing compare to what I feel for you. Not to mention you've given me the most amazing gift in the world by giving birth to John. You mean so much to me on so many levels it's astounding. So as sad as it is to say, I'm kind of expecting my world to come crashing down on me as if my happiness with you and our son is too good to be true".

I had tears in my eyes as I listen to the man I loved, expressing himself in a way he almost never does. I took his heartfelt words to mean that he was honestly upset by the thought of me even interacting with another man. He failed to realize how truly important to me he was. I said with as much sincerity possible, "Ricky, I love you so much, you have no idea. Do you know that you are the only man I have been with physically? Do you realize that even though I had a guy who was willing to stand by me and take care of someone else's child, all I wanted was you. Ben wanted to have sex with me so bad that he cheated on me with that Italian girl and Adrian. You wanted me and I wanted you so I made love to you when I felt I was ready. Don't you ever underestimate my feelings for you, do you here me?

Ricky's POV:

"I love you too Babe", I said. With that I went over to Amy and grabbed her with such force it scared her. I wanted to love her with every part of me and that's exactly what I did. We went at it for hours. Damn, I love that girl. Its crazy how much I love her, and she loves me. Hopefully we don't have any misunderstandings like this again because we do trust each other, I think.