This is my first ever fan fiction. I hope you all like it. Some of this story is based on my life and I wrote this story to get my feelings out.

I know Teen Wolf is American but I'm from Wales so please if there are words that I have got wrong, such as writing mobile phone instead of cell phone please tell me.

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Chapter 3
Sourwolf is missing, I'm worried which is understandable, I'm always worried about Derek, I love him but why are they so worried he sometimes goes missing weeks at a time.

"What do mean he's still missing?" I said unlocking the window so they can climb in

"Derek is gone, we can't find him" said Scott with a desperate look on his face.

"He's probably just gone somewhere to relax for a few days, he will probably be back in a week" I said hoping what I said is true.

"It's not like any other time he's gone" Isaac said

"How do you know?" I said crossing my arms

"We just do stiles, you have to trust us! Please come help look" Scott said.

I still don't see what the big deal but I know there are up to something and I want to know what that is so I decided to follow them.

"We're here" Scott said nervously.

We were outside the Burnt out Hale house "what are we doing here?" I said.

"We need to figure out who's going to search where" Isaac said

"If the whole pack is looking then you don't need me" I said hoping they would agree and leave me alone.

"WE DO... Um.. I mean you know Derek better than any of us, you will help loads" Scott said trying to get me inside the house.

This is my chance, "I'll help on one condition, you stop trying to make me re-join the pack and we never speak again" I said holding back the tears in my eyes. I didn't want that but my friends deserve better than me.

"Deal" they said in unison. My heart just broke.

I strolled through the front door to find the whole pack sitting in the front room. Allison who's eyes light up when she saw Scott, Lydia who ran up and gave me a hug when I walked in, Danny was smiling but I don't think he was smiling at me, I think he's got a thing for Isaac, Jackson who looked as bored as ever and Derek doing that little smile that he thinks no one can see. WAIT DEREK!

"DEREK!, WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE?"

"I'm sorry but we had to get you here somehow, sit down" said Lydia.

I knew they were up to something going on.

"Stiles we know the really reason why you left the pack" Lydia said touching me on the shoulder.

"So before we reveal the reason, I suggest that we all go around the room and reveal one of our secrets first to make it more comfortable, is that okay?"

Everyone nodded.

"I'll start" Alison said, "I wake up afraid that Kate will come back and kill you lot and kill me for being part of the pack.

"I'm in love with someone in this room but I'm not going to say the name because I know that they don't love me back" Danny said looking at the floor.

Am I the only one who has figured out that it's Isaac, I look around the room, shit I am.

"I'm afraid that one day soon I'm going to detect the future death of someone I love and can't do anything about it" Lydia said with almost tears in her eyes.

"Even though I don't act or say it, I am really happy to be in this pack" said Jackson, which sent everyone in to laughter

"I'm also in love with someone in this room but like Danny I'm not going to say who because I know they don't like me that way" Isaac said.

OMG Danny and Isaac like each other, I knew it all along.

"I'm afraid that someday in the future everyone that I love is going to die and I'll be left alone, now before you say anything Derek we know your secret and stiles secret" Scott said.

"Stiles we know that you like like Derek and that's why you quit the pack because you think that he won't feel the same about you but we know that Derek likes likes you to" Alison said.

"Shut up, stop being so ridiculous" I said know I was lying; I was in love with Derek.

"We're not, we see the way you two look at each other and the way both your hearts skip a beat when you touch and beat faster when one of you enter the room and ..."

"That's a load of bullshit" I said interrupting Scott "Now if you'll excuse me, we made a deal, none of you have to speak to me again, goodbye" I said exiting the house and going to my Jeep. "Oh and by the way Isaac that crush that Danny has is on you and Danny that crush that Isaac has is on you ... Your welcome"

I waited until after I got home to burst into tears, that was it, I knew how Derek felt and I'm never going to talk to any of them ever again. I laid there for an hour just thinking about how I can get rid of the pain that is my life. Then I thought of the perfect solution so I took my journal and wrote a goodbye to everyone that I loved and wrote that the world would be better without me in it. I closed the book and Got a belt from my wardrobe.

"This is it"

Thanks for everyone who has read so far, if you feel like Stiles feels in the story and you need someone to talk to, I am here, I have been though it and I promise it does get better :-D xxx