Chapter 2- Barbossa's troubles
Barbossa is sitting in the Captain's quarters that had been divided into two rooms for the "two captains". He started to drink so much rum that he got drunk. He had not gotten this drunk in 18 years. He gets up slowly and sets the rum down. He walks over to his bed and takes off his hat, coat, and boots then lies down on his bed. He stares at the ceiling with sadness. He looks back on that night 18 years ago. He remembered Rachel and him in her bed under the covers cuddling together. She had been lying in his arms eyes closed and smiling. He had watched over her that night with a longing. He had prepared to propose to her the next morning before he left. He could not build up his confidence enough to tell her anything but good morning. She saw him off unknowingly to both of them that she was carrying something that would change both their lives even though at different times. He only wished he had at least proposed to her. He did not blame Jack for anything this time. He was a man that showed little emotion ever but he had started to tear up. He felt ashamed but he could not stop the tears from coming. He started to look at the knife on his bedside table. He grabs it silently, closes his eyes, and starts to move it towards his throat. He was just about to slash his throat when Jack barges in. He drops the knife on the floor. Jack hears this and sees Barbossa looking down at the floor at a knife. He walks slowly over to Barbossa and slowly, not breaking eye contact grabs the knife off the floor. He slowly backs away from Barbossa and leaves the room. Barbosa puts his hand to his throat and looks down at where the knife had been. Barbossa silently screams his pain to himself and closes his eyes. He cannot fall asleep however hard he tries. He puts his boots, coat and hat on. He starts to leave the room when he hears a voice just outside his room. He recognizes Jack's voice along with Gibbs. "I thought he had recovered his sanity completely." "I was hoping he had. I wish I did not have to do this but it is for his safety. He can't keep trying to end his life when he still has many years to live." "So do you want the crew to know about this?" "I think it would be wise to let the ones who don't know about the first time to know. The ones who were there or the ones who know about what happened are to be the ones to guard him. They know his tendencies better. I hope that he will stop soon. He's still my friend after all these years and most of all the mutiny." Barbossa closes the door and thinks on this. He knows what they say is true and that they were only trying to keep him safe. He sighs and says to himself, "Rachel, if only you hadn't left me." He collapses to the floor and cries himself to sleep.