Honebami's PoV
The past few weeks have been torture.
Watching Namazuo walk by you without so much as looking your way hurt almost more than you could bear, but you forced yourself to keep it in, not wanting to burden him anymore. And it was obvious that you had, from how eagerly he had cast you aside; you understood now.
Sleepless nights passed by you like horses on a carousel, floating with you on a never ending ride, with peeling paint and toothless grins.
The koi pond was beautiful at night, like a mirror reflecting the moon, bright enough that the stars seemed to reach for it when dawn came to drag them away. In the silvery light that drifted from the sky above you, you watched the koi swim gracefully through the water, tails flashing brightly when they broke the water's surface. You let their calm movements seep into your head like anaesthetic, soothing your loud, confusing feelings, and leaving you with a sense of peace that only Namazuo had ever been able to give you.
You can feel him slipping away from you, through the water, and instantly seek 'him' in the water, trying to find his koi in the gentle ripples that seemed to distort the world below.
He's with the golden koi, again, and you feel a dull pain in your chest. It's silly, but you couldn't get over the fact that 'Namazuo' had started to ignore 'you', rubbing salt into your still-bleeding wound.
But would this wound ever stop bleeding?