A/N: This was newly Beta'd by Ravenic Tauro who used to be Shadow Raven.
Info: This is a wrong Boy-Who-Lived story. I've read a few and decide to make my own. I'm not copying anyone before I start. I just got inspired. There will be a few things from the books in here. If you find them, well okay. Now this will be a grey Harry. It means he likes both the dark and light. His in the middle. This WILL be OCC, and NC. Now this is the last warning if you don't like turn around! Oh and this is my first time writing in third person.
Chapter 3: Lily's Regret
Lily Potter starred outside the window in her private study. Outside, her son Alexander Potter was with his father as he taught him how to ride a broom. Lily turned away from the window in disgust. Her baby wasn't here. It should be Harrison out there too, learning how to ride a broom, and spending time with his family; not being stuck in an orphanage, with probably no idea about his magical heritage. She sighed as she thought about Harrison. His messy black hair, so much, like his father's, but his eyes, those eyes, that were so much like her own to the last gleam. He would no doubt be very handsome when he gets older with many girls begging their parents to agree to a marriage contract.
Lily got up and passed a picture of Alexander's, or Alex as she taken to calling him, 7th birthday party. Everyone was there; it was a huge blow-out bash. Alex had everything he wanted there; 9 different types of cakes, 3 mountains of presents from everyone who attended, a bunch of people praising him including his friends, and his father wearing a big grin. Lily couldn't bear to be there for more than 3 hours.
Next to that picture was one of all of them together at Lily's birthday. It was a small party with the Longbottom's there, but they didn't stay long since Neville had a diaper rash, and was a bit cranky. Sirius was next to Lily with an arm thrown over her shoulder, holding Harrison close. James was on Lily's other side hugging her, and smiling largely at the camera. On the other side of him was Remus, holding Alexander, who was crying making Remus look down.
Lily sighed, and felt her heart clinch a little looking at her friends, no, family. That's what Sirius and Remus was-were, her family, but not anymore. A few days after Lily came home; the guys came over, and asked where Harrison was. Lily still remembered it like it was yesterday.
Flashback Start
Lily walked to the door and opened it. Standing there was her two best friends. She smiled and let them in.
"Hey, Remus! I didn't think you were coming until a bit later. Sirius, no offence but what are you doing over here? Whose heart did you break today?" she asked teasingly as they let themselves in.
Remus chuckled and kissed Lily on the check. Lily sighed looking at her friend. He looked tired and worn. His sandy brown hair had some grey already, and his grey eyes had heavy bags under them. He walked then walked into the living room where James, Alex, and Har- were. She cut her thoughts off. Harrison wasn't here.
Sirius was staring at her pretending to be hurt.
"Really, Lily? I would never break someone's heart," he said mockingly.
Lily gave him a pointed look.
"Okay, so I broke up with Sandy today," he said before walking by her.
Lily rolled her eyes and closed the door.
"Don't you mean, Susan?" she asked.
Sirius paused before nodding, and walking after Remus. Lily smiled softly, the first one in days, before walking after them. She sat down on the other side of James and watched them play with Alex. It was only a little while after that Remus looked around.
"Where is Harrison at?" he asked being attention to Sirius. He looked up, then around too.
"Yeah, Where is little pup? He asleep?" Sirius asked.
Lily sighed sadly, and shared a look with James, one that didn't get missed by the two other Marauders. They looked at them with guarded looks.
"Where is Cub?" Remus asked standing up, ready to pull out his wand.
He felt something off, and didn't think they were his best friends at the moment. Sirius had the same idea, and already had his wand out. Being a member of the Black family, he was definitely paranoid, just not as much as Mad-eye Moody, but like he always said or yelled in your face: CONSTANT VIGILANCE!
Lily choked out a sob. "Harrison's at an orphanage," she cried.
Their heads snapped to her, wands raised. They knew that this wasn't Lily Evans-Potter. She would never give up a child.
"Who are you and what have you done with the Potter's?" Sirius barked.
Remus was beside him growling, wand now turned to the pretend James, who sighed heavily.
"Padfoot, Moony! Calm down! It is really us I'll prove it. Remus you've been a wolf since you were 4, oh, and you had the biggest crush on Bellatrix back before she went crazy or simply came out saying she was evil. You thought she was cute and maybe different from her family also," James said.
Sirius dropped his wand a bit and turned to look at Moony, with a look of disgust on his face.
"Really, Moony? Bellatrix? Bellatrix Black? My cousin Bellatrix? Are you CRAZY!" he screamed confused for his friend's sanity.
"NO, it was in my first year, when I first met her. Now, if you're the real Potter's like you say. Why is Harrison in an orphanage and not here?" Remus said, making Sirius snap back them and growl.
Lily couldn't take it anymore, and broke down in tears, her body racked with dry heaves, and sobs. Seeing it was really them, they lowered their wands. James sat Alexander on the couch next to him before running his hand over his face with a sigh.
"You have to understand. Dumbledore told us, that because of all the special treatment Alexander was receiving there might be a chance that Harrison will grow up dark. We tried to protest it, we really did. But what he said made sense. Nobody ever noticed when we went out that there was a second child. They only ever saw Alexander. When we went to get our family pictures taken, they asked who we were babying sitting. Plus, when Alexander gets older, it's only going to get worse. Also, he's going to have extra training and people using Harrison all the time to get to him. We don't want that for Harrison. Lily really didn't want him to turn out like her sister. You saw it at their parents' funeral. She slapped Lily, called her a freak, and said it was all her fought. We just wanted him to grow up normal, and not being in Alexander's spotlight," He explained.
The two man felt nothing but betrayal, and disgust as they starred upon the people they had once considered family.
"No, I don't understand, nor will I ever. I would never give my child up like that because of what someone said. He wouldn't never had the chance since we all would have loved them equally, Harrison would've understood when he was older, but you not giving him a chance made it worse. And you know better than that what I grew up with for parents, and if I managed to not be evil and kill, everyone then how would Harrison, being raised right? Have you thought about how he would react being brought up because his family didn't want him? Or him thinking that? What if that made him dark? Did you think of that?" Sirius spat at them. He didn't wait for a respond but stormed out the house, breaking all ties to the Potter family, his mind was only on Harrison, his pup, his godson.
Remus stood there shocked. Lily was crying harder thinking about it more. They had made a huge mistake. James turned to Moony, with desperate eyes.
"Moony? You understand why we did it don't you?" he pleaded. Remus looked tiredly at them, he couldn't feel anger, only disappointment.
"Yes, but I wouldn't never thought I would see the day that James Potter takes the cowards way out because his is simply too scared on how his son would've turned out. While leaving Harrison to live in a place with no family, Alexander is here, living the high live. You two truly disgust me," he said before turning and leaving.
James starred at the spot his once best friends stood, shocked. He didn't feel anything else, as he blocked out his wife's crying and screams.
Flashback End
Lily wiped a few stray tears away. She wanted her son. Lily then felt determined. She wanted her son damn it! And hell better have fury for those who stand in her way. She marched out the room and down the stairs of the Potter's manor. She stumped outside with a furious look on her face.
"JAMES ADAM POTTER!" She screeched loudly, her red hair billowing behind her, with green eyes turning darker.
James turned to his angry wife with a crazed look in her dark emerald eyes. James swore they were turning blacker before him. He turned to see his son off his broom, and hiding half-way behind him. James gulped.
"Yes, Lily-boo?" he asked hesitantly, as if he was afraid she'd breath fire.
"DO NOT LILY-BOO ME! I WANT MY SON BACK! AND I WANT HIM NOW!" she screamed, her voice echoing and making near animals fly, and run.
James opened his mouth before shutting it with an audible click. He didn't show it very much, but he missed Harrison nearly just as much as she did. He just was able to focus and put the guilt to the back of his mind.
"Are you su-?"
"Yes, I'm BLOODY HELL SURE! LET'S GO NOW!" She said before going back into the house.
James grabbed Alexander and ran after his wife, glasses slipping off his nose. He caught up with her at the door.
"Lily, please. Listen to me, calm down. Let's talk to Dumbledore first and see what he has to say about it," he said hopping to buy some time to calm her down. She looked at him incredulously. He looked back at her confused.
"Dumbledore? Dumbledore? That same one who convinced us to give up our son? Are you crazy? What happens if he doesn't think it's a good idea? Are we not going to go get him?" she asked shocked.
James rolled his eyes at her. He shifted his hip that Alexander was on, thinking he was getting too old to be carried like that.
"No, we just going to get his opinion and see what would be better. That's all, if he says no we will still go get Harrison," he said simply. Lily just stared at him before nodding tiredly.
"We are going to see Grandpa Al?" Alexander mumbled from his dad's shoulder.
Lily nodded her head. Alex smiled, he wanted to see his grandpa, and he always brought such nice things. Lily looked at James and gave him a pointed look. He muttered an 'oh', before walking to the fire place. James looked down at Alex.
"Hold on tight," he said. He grabbed the Floo powder before throwing it in.
"Dumbledore's office," he shouted clearly before stepping in. He felt the tingling sensation before he stumped out into Dumbledore's office.
Dumbledore sat behind his chair peering at James and Alexander out of his glasses. Fawkes trilled sadly at the intruders as though knowing why they were here. Before a seconded passed, Lily was right behind them. He smiled a fake smile at them and motioned to his candy that held a douse of calming potion, and a hint of controlling potion, at least to those who wasn't he.
"Lemon Drops?" he asked. Lily shook her head.
"We want to go get Harrison from the orphanage," She growled.
Dumbledore wanted to roll his eyes. He put on his simple grandfather air around him before speaking softly.
"I'm sorry, but I really can't allow that. It's time for Alex to start his training next week. Harrison is going to be neglected, and lonely causing him to grow resentful and turn dark. I simply cannot take that chance, for the greater good. You know he will understand once he's 11, only a few more years left. You handled this for this long, so you shouldn't have to deal much longer," he said.
Truthfully, he didn't want to deal with them much longer. Alexander was a little spoiled brat always talking about how he was the boy-who-lived, since he'd been able to talk and understand everything. He really didn't want to deal with another one.
Lily glared at James, who shrunk back a little before turning hopelessly to Dumbledore.
"That won't happen. Listen, we want our son back, please," he pleaded. Dumbledore getting tired with the short meeting nodded his head gravely.
"Okay. I guess we could get the boy a trainer too. Death Eaters are going to be after him to get to Alexander. It should be safe enough to find for himself, and watch out for his brother too," he said changing everything around so he could look like the good guy.
He didn't care about what happened to the other little brat, but he need Alexander to get himself killed, and weaken Voldermort enough so he could fight him, and finish him, taking the credit for everything.
Lily smiled thankfully. Not that it mattered what he said but the he had agreed. She grabbed Alexander and turned to them.
"It would be easier to apparate there," she said.
James nodded and she left with a loud crack. James threw Dumbledore a look before apparating after her.
Lily fell to the ground with Alex in her hands. She coughed and waited for James, who landed with a small quiet pop, and on his feet. Lily threw him an envious look. She always fell after she apparated. Dumbledore came a few seconds after them.
Lily turned and led them to the orphanage. James took one look at the place and then to Lily.
"You left him here?" he asked hesitantly.
Lily nodded feeling tears welling up. She let out a breath, forcing them back down before handing Alex of to James. She walked and knocked on the door. She was playing confident on the outside but really, she was panicking on the inside.
A brown-eyed blond, opened the door with a friendly smile on her face. She moved to let the family in.
"So, how old are you looking to adopt?" she said. Lily looked around before sighing. She sucked up her pride and talked to her.
"Um, I-uh-I don't want to adopt, well, I do. I mean, I left my son here 7 years ago because of a personal reason. I'm going to get him back," Lily said shakily.
The girls eyes dimmed a bit but she nodded and motioned with her hand for them to follow her.
"Okay, let's look get the papers. When you left him here, you gave up your parental right, so you'll have to go through with the adoption process again," she said. (If that not true, play along!) Lily and James nodded saying the understood.
"Why are we here? I want to go the park," Alex whined. James, not liking his kid crying turned to him.
"Sorry, how about after we're done here, I'll take you and your brother for some ice-cream," He said as Alex's brown eyes filled to the brim with tears. Lily recognized the sign, Alex was about to have a fit.
Alex not used to not getting what he wants knew what to do. He let out a high pitched scream.
"I WANT TO GO NOW!" he kept screaming jumping around.
He picked up a book and threw it at James' head. Lily felt so ashamed she wanted to crawl in a hole. James got up and tried to calm Alex down, who started picking up more stuff and throwing it. Dumbledore watched annoyed but with a small smile on his face. Maybe they won't get custody if the lady thinks they are unfit parents, or have their hands full already.
Samantha looked at the family with a deep frown on her face. She was already slightly irritated with them coming at 9 am with the kids sleep on a Saturday. Now she has had a little redhead kid throwing a tantrum like never before, and working at the orphanage and growing up here she seen quite a few. She was very much disgusted as the man gave into the boys' demands and promised to take him to the park later with 2 ice-creams, and buying him some candy later with a new toy snitch or something. The mother looked almost as disgusted as she felt.
"I'm so sorry about that," The redhead said.
The blonde gave a swift nodded and turned away from now quite boy. She loaded her computer and started up the program.
"What's his name?" She asked. Lily cleared her throat.
"Harrison James Potter," she said evenly. Samantha looked back at the women. She shook her head.
"I'm sorry, but no Harrison Potter has ever been here," she said.
Lily looked back at James who looked just as shocked as she did. Even Dumbledore was shocked.
"Um, who did you give him too?" she asked. Maybe they gave him to Mrs. Martian. Lily looked down mortified.
"I sat him on the door step and knocked," Lily mumbled.
Samantha's eyes grew wide. She turned to the computer and entered the name. It would come up with a match of every kid that has ever been in the system.
"Okay, I need his age, eye color, hair color, and any marks that can identify him," she said with authority. Lily nodded with tears fallowing down.
"Um, he is 7, with emerald green eyes, black hair, and there are no marks," she said.
While she was speaking, Samantha was typing. She waited, and when the results came up, there were none. She turned to the family and stood up sadly.
"I'm sorry; there is nothing I can do. He's not in the system and I've been here all my life, a Harrison was never here," she said.
Lily didn't hear anything but 'never here' and she started crying. James stood up with a few tears in his eyes too. He wrapped his arms around his wife, put his face in her hair, and let some more tears leak out.
Dumbledore stood up and looked with women in the eyes. He gently went into her mind, only to find out she was telling the truth. He pulled out and sighed regretfully. What Dumbledore didn't notice that if he tried harder he would've known instantly that her memories had been changed.
Samantha saw the crying couple and felt a bit of guilt. The child was lost, and probably dead too. She walked out the office leaving it open for them so they could have time to process it in peace. Sam walked back to her room and felt something trying to push through her mind. She saw a glimpse of a little black-haired boy, with green eyes and a lightning bolt scar on his forehead, but as quick, as it came it was gone. She shook her head confused and wondered where that came from. She shrugged and thought she must have seen him when at the store, park, or somewhere.