EPOV
Why am I so uncomfortable talking about this? She is nothing but sweet about it, quietly but curiously prompting me and giving me ample time to answer.
I just can't think about him without thinking about him like that. That last night…I never would have thought it was going to end with his lips wrapped around my dick. I never would have thought that I would enjoy it, want it.
"Edward? I was asking a question." Bella's voice brings me back to the here and now. Here, in Emmett's guest bed, and now, with Bella asking question after question about my past with him.
"Umm, yeah. I'm here. What was that again?" I clear my throat and rest my chin on her head. She's lying on my chest and rubbing these lazy circles on my side. It feels amazing.
"I asked what you two had done, specifically..." Bella drifts off, as she continues what I'm sure she feels is a strange conversation.
"Oh. Well, I mean, at first it was just like, a mutual, um, jacking off kind of thing. We shared a room, and we were at that age and…I don't know, it was just this thing."
"But then, one night we took it a step further…and there was touching. It's hard to explain-it's not like we planned it." I sigh and rub my eyes, trying to think of how to tell her it was no big deal. I mean, it was kind of a big deal, but now it's really no big deal.
"Go on."
"Well, he came over to my bed and sort of gave me a hand, you know? And then, I felt like I should return the favor. That was pretty much it. Like, almost all of it."
"Almost?" I can feel Bella's eyebrows raise, but she continues rubbing my side, and I feel her circles widen, getting increasingly closer to my cock. I clear my throat again as I feel it stiffening.
"Well, we, uh, kissed a couple of times. And the night before he left, he um, he sucked me. Sucked it." God, this is embarrassing.
Bella stops the circles, leans up abruptly, and looks me right in the eye. "Really?"
I'm expecting a surprised reaction, shocked maybe. What I don't expect is that she likes it. She loves it. I don't expect that hearing about it will turn her on. That talking about Emmett will lead to the best sex of our relationship.