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I really don't know if I should continue with this…
He can't react or make anything out of this. He only insulted his brother because Feliciano didn't even care about his words. He deeply sighs and stands, again he starts to look around, but nothing. He didn't mean to say those words, he didn't mean to say them the way he did.
"Why you always show up when you're not needed…wimp?" he mumbles as he walks on the gardens under the cold drizzle on that night. "Why you stupid crybaby?" he added trembling.
The rain grew heavier and he returned to his house. He climbs the stairs and enters his brother's room and sits next to the window looking at the falling rain. He got startled when he felt a tear falling from his eyes, he slowly placed his fingers and wipes it away, but is quickly replace by another one. He slowly curls his body together, his knees tucked into his body, and his head resting on them; he slowly let small sobs out.
"I-I-I really hate you…Feliciano" his sobbing grows stronger and brakes the utter silence of the room. "You-ha-have always been better than me" he added clenching his arms tighter to his legs.
He nibbles his bottom lips at the taste of the bitter tears falling down his red cheeks. He can't take it. The rapid beating of his heart echoes on his ears and his body is trembling without control. He punches the floor and continues with his crying. If this doesn't take his frustration away nothing else in this world would.
"I'm-I'm sure…" he tightly bit his lips to prevent more stupid words from coming and made him feel worst than he is right now.
Sobbing slowly, he rests his head against the wall and glimpse outside the window. He thinks that his brother loves and enjoys seeing him drown on his own hate, a stupid childish grudge he has since both were kids. He bets that now his brother is telling to his 'best friends' what he did and that he's proud of doing it.
"Jerk!" he yells as he pouches once more the floor.
Why would those three words hurt him now? Yes, because since they both were children Romano made sure, every single day, that his brother knew how he felt toward him, then why now he reacted this way? Now that they both were all grown up and had their personal lives and affairs.
"Stupid…st-stupid"
Okay short I know, but is because I'm not sure if I should keep up with this…