A/N: Hey everyone!Here is the new chapter but unbetad. So mistakes are mine.
Hope you enjoy it anyway. :)
Thor doesn't know when it happened, how it happened but it happened.
He loves his uncle; more precisely he is in love with his uncle.
Ever since his teenage hormone started kick in his fascination over Loki peaked. And at the age of fifteen he is sure as hell that his life without Loki is nothing.
He feels ashamed that he feels like that but he can't help it. Every time his heart flutters with joy when Loki touches him or smiles at him or even looks at him.
He knows that Loki loves him like an uncle should and that what hurts him most. He feels like he is betraying his uncle, polluting his feelings for him. He feels so dirty.
Sometimes Thor can't take it anymore. He locks himself into his room, throws himself onto the bed and cries.
Yes, he cries. Thor, the boy once fell from a tree, broke his arm but didn't shed a single tear. Thor who is the captain of his rugby team, who can take any hit from the opponent and can create fear in the mind of his opponent, who never failed in his life in achieving anything, cries like a baby.
What he can do? He can't stop loving Loki, but he can't even voice it. What would his parents say moreover what would Loki say?
The hurt and betrayal that Loki would feel! He would hate him, would be disgusted by him and worse he might even leave him!
No. No, I can't let it happen. I'd rather die. I would rather die.
Thor loses control and he starts crying like a dam has been broken and the water comes rushing flooding the land.
The knock on his door startles Thor. It was Frigga.
He quickly wipes his tears and gets out of the bed. He brings his long hair in front of his face so that she won't see his face.
Frigga was standing outside of the door.
She and Odin are leaving for Switzerland. Balder is going too. Thor refused to go with them.
He declined the offer saying he had to practice extra for the upcoming game.
The real reason is Loki is not going with them. He has to stay here to look after the company while they are gone. And Thor can't spend so many days without his uncle. At least here he got to see his face.
"Dear, are you still sure about this?" Frigga asked kindly.
"Yes, mom. Don't worry. I'll be fine here."
"You'll be missing so many things. I thought you always wanted to go to Switzerland."
"I do but you know how important the game is to me. I can't leave, not now."
"Yes I understand. Well, I'll inform Loki to check on you regularly. And I'll call you regularly. Now get ready. We'll be leaving for air port in a few minutes. And do something about your unruly hair." Frigga teases her son.
Thor smiles a little and goes back into the room to get ready.
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Loki was also there at the airport. He smiled at them when he saw them coming. Thor's heart flutters. Loki was wearing white shirt and a burgundy blazer and black jeans. The sleeves were rolled up to elbow and sunglasses were hanging from the collar.
Balder runs up to him and hugs him. Loki laughs and hugs him back. It was a normal jester but Thor feels tightness in his chest. He wasn't that young anymore to show that enthusiasm.
"I heard that you are not going. Don't be sad. Next time I'll make sure everything falls according to your schedule." Loki tries to console him giving him a side hug. Thor just smiles but says nothing. Oh he is not upset at all. Not a little bit.
"Don't lose your teeth out there, Odin. You'll need those to properly lecture me." Loki teases his older brother. Balder giggles at this. Loki winks at him.
Odin glares at him but didn't say anything. Frigga kisses Thor on the head and says their goodbyes.
They waited until the plane took off.
"Come on, I'll drive you home." Loki says putting a hand on his nephews' shoulder. Thor smiles at this.
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"So, who is the lucky girl?" Loki asks Thor while driving.
If Thor was drinking something he would've sputtered it out.
"wha… what?" he manages to ask.
"Oh please. Rugby practice? This time of the year?"
"Yes, for the upcoming game." Thor answers blushing.
Loki glances at him but says nothing. There was a smile on his face that says he doesn't believe him.
"It is true."
"I didn't say anything."
"yeah but you don't believe me"
"No I don't" Loki says smirking.
"Ugh, you're impossible" Thor pouts like a child.
Loki chuckles at this.
Loki's car enters through the big gate. Thor gets out off the car. But Loki stays inside the car.
"Aren't you coming?" Thor asks furrowing his eyebrows.
"Nope"
"Why?"
"Oh I don't know. You're alone in the house. Now you can invite her home. You can spend some inti…"
"Uncle" Thor chides him before he could finish. He is pretty sure he is red as tomato.
"Oh! Oh my gosh. There IS someone! I knew it" Loki says while getting out of the car.
Thor says nothing and hurries towards the door. A maid opens it.
Loki follows his nephew. Thor was climbing upstairs.
Loki enters into the boy's room. Thor's room was neat and clean, thanks to the maids. He was standing in the middle of the room, clearly looking upset.
"I'm sorry. I was kind of rude." Loki tries to apologies.
Thor's face softens at this. "It's ok. But you are right. There is someone."
Loki raises his eyebrows but says nothing.
"It's a secret crush." Thor mumbles.
"Can I have a name?"
"No"
"Ok. Is it Sif?"
"What? No! She is like a sister to me."
"You see that girl as your sister? Buddy, have you lost your mind?"
Thor glares at him. Loki puts up his hands in surrender. Thor sighs.
"It is never meant to be. I'm not good enough." Thor whispers but Loki hears it anyway.
He comes closer to his nephew and cups his face. Thor tries to avoid eye contact but fails.
"Thor, listen to me carefully. You are a wonderful boy. Both outside and inside. If anybody thinks that you are not good enough for them they're plain crazy. And if this person thinks that you are not good enough then it's her loss. I won't tell you to move on. Cause I know how it feels. But is she worth of the try?"
"Every ounce of it."
"Then don't give up. Today or tomorrow, she will be able to see the real you and when she does, she will love you back just the way you do. I know it."
Thor gives him a wary smile.
Oh, only if you knew…
E/N: Too angsty?