Chapter two: Focus

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"All day I think about it, and then at night I say it. Where did I come from, and what am I supposed to be doing? I have no idea. My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that, and I intend to end up there."

Edward stared down at the open file on his desk and tried hard once more to concentrate on the columns of figures. He'd already highlighted the most important of data, mopped up the cup of coffee he'd spilled, and took yet another trip to the men's room down the hall to wash his face with cold water.

The minute he tried to focus on the rows of meaningless numbers; they had begun to swim before his eyes. The normal everyday office noises, the telephones ringing, typewriters clacking, the hum of voices that drifted into his small cubby hole, all of it gradually became muted until they faded away completely.

Edward hated to admit it, but he was frustrated with the situation. He couldn't sleep last night because he was thinking about the conversation he had with Tanya earlier. His thoughts slowly drifted to last night. He wondered how such a plan could form in Tanya's head. No one in their right mind would go through such lengths to have a child; and yet here they were. He adored Tanya. He couldn't picture his life with-out her. He knew agreeing to this was the only choice he had. The pressure was on the both of them to have a child. Even thought it would hurt him; Tanya's request would both appease his family and give her the thing she wanted the most. Motherhood. Tanya had everything planned; they were to move away from Los Angles. His father always told him to go aboard to look after businesses; so that made it the best cover up.

"If you agree, we'll go aboard for a year or two!" Tanya said.

Edward couldn't help smiling when he saw her beaming face; her cheeks flushed pink, eyes sparkling like precious diamonds.

"Tanya, even if I accept the offer, where would we get such a woman?" He asked in complete confusion.

She narrowed her eyes at him, "This is the part, I didn't think about it's all up to you. You have to find woman who is willing to do this for us. We have to make a contract with her so she couldn't take the baby from us." she said sternly.

Bringing himself from his musing, Edward squeezed his eyes closed and tried fruitlessly to find the person who could solve his problems. Unfortunately he had no success on the issue. . He felt another's presence and quickly opened his eyes. He saw his business partner standing at door way.

"I think I'll go to lunch now, Edward." He smiled.

"Can you take care of…?. "He said letting his sentence fall short...

"Sure, James" Edward replied struggling hard to smile. Though he was sure it looked more like grimace.

"You go on, what do need me to do?"

James took one look at him, and slowly inched forward towards him and put a hand on his arm.

"Listen man, why don't you go home? You look very disturbed!" he said sounding generally concerned.

"I can't. I have too much work to do." He gestured distractedly towards his desk, which was piled high with manila file folders.

"If I don't finish my way through the rest of the data, The Internal Revenue service may decide they can do without my services."

James gave him a long appraising look. "Don't you think you might feel better if you talked about it?" he asked with a concern look in his eyes.

"Please sit down" Edward replied in a tight voice. He reached out and absentmindedly began playing with his pen.

"You tell me your problem, I'll solve it," James said giving him a smug look.

"James, This problem can't be solved just like that. It'll take a minimum of 9 months!" Edward explained calmly. He looked directly in James's eyes.

"What?" James asked in complete confusion. His brow furrowed as he glance at Edward.

"Yes." Edward whispered in low voice.

James thought for a moment. He suddenly got up and marched back to the door. He shut it firmly and sat back down in his chair focusing his attention on Edward.

"Please, go on" He asked, confusion clearly written across his face.

"One of my friends needs a girl" Edward said at last. He knew this was going to be hard and difficult for anybody to believe. He was prepared for this but the next question James asked him took him by surprise.

"Is he handsome like you?" James looked amazed at the turn of their conversation.

Edward only stood there shaking his head. His face immediately began to crumble. He turned his head away from James's gaze. When he finally had himself under control, he turned back to face James.

"Yes, he's handsome, rich, and ready to give everything he can. A house, a car, anything! But, all he needs is a child!" he commented at last.

James glanced up at Edward and saw that he was leaning forward with his elbows on his knees with his face in his hands.

"It's not easy hearing this. From you of all people at that. Those words were the last thing I would have been expected to come out of your mouth, Cullen." James remarked dryly.

"I am not that sort of a guy. I was just discussing my friend's problem. That's all!" Edward waved a hand in the air as his eyes narrowed at James.

James got up from the chair and glance at his watch. "Listen, I'm supposed to meet Bill for lunch at 12:30pm, but I can cancel it if you need me to stay."

"No, you go ahead. I'll be all right. There's never much business during the noon hours. Maybe I can get some work done."

"Well, I'd better get going than. I know some friends of mine that could help with your friend's problem. I will contact you about information. "He said.

"Thanks, James." Edward called after him.

When he was gone, Edward sat back down at his desk and tackled his figures once again .The department of the line international revenue service that he and James work for is very important to their company. Their jobs were to go over any unreasonable spending that was particularly large; and to look for questionable deductions. While, he still working, his mind was still struggling to understand why of all people this had to happen to his love and he? Why couldn't he have a happy family like he dreamt about it when he first married Tanya? How is it that some people can bring a child into this world easily but in reality they don't deserve it? Is it wrong of him to think this way?

He doesn't know why life is unfair. Though he feels it should be. That was the way he was taught ever since he was little boy "to be fair". He listened to that his whole life and then life throws him a bunch of curves balls he can't seem to catch. All he knows is that life seems bent on destroying his dreams.

Later that day, when he was watching "The Babylon Project "series, He got his answer while the leading actor said "You know, I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair? Wouldn't it be worse if all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actual deserve them? So, now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of universe."

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