I awoke the next morning to the sound of the toaster startling me awake and the fresh small of strawberry poptarts filling the air.. I guess Karkat was making breakfast for himself. The sun shined brightly through the window, causing me to take longer than usual to open my eyes. My glasses were still on my face, but slightly askew. 'Hm, guess I forgot to take them off last night.' I thought to myself. I took them off and set them on the small table beside the couch.
I heard a quick shuffling of feet, and quickly shut my eyes, and pretended to still be asleep.
I heard Karkat walk past me, but suddenly stopped in his tracks right beside me.
I felt his hand stroke my hair ever so softly. It was hard not to react, considering I was trying to pretend to be asleep and all. He let out a deep, quiet sigh, and then proceeded back up the stairs to his room.
As soon as I heard the door shut, I flicked my eyes open, and grabbed my phone from the end table. I flipped it open and read the time as soon as my eyes adjusted to the light.
7:48am.
God, it was way too early to even be awake, much less actually be up making breakfast. I still never understood to this very day how Karkat managed to get up so early every day without any hesitation. Especially on our days off, being granted the gift of sleeping in.
I decided to go back to sleep. I suppose I would get up next time I awoke, which would most likely be in about 4-5 hours. Yup. Sounds about right. I wasn't what you would necessarily call a morning person, and so I drifted off into sleep yet again.
"Hey fuckass, get up!" I felt two hands on my shoulders, attempting to shake me awake.
I blinked a few times before completely opening my eyes.
"Mmmff…what….what time is it?" I said, still half asleep. I felt a bit of droll dripping from my mouth, so I wiped it away with the back of my hand.
"It's like, one in the afternoon. Now get up before I drag you off the goddamn couch."
"Okay, okay, I'm getting up." I slid on my glasses and lazily stood up. "Listen, Karkat…about last night…"
"I don't want to hear it."
"Karkat, just hear me out."
"I said I don't want to fucking hear it! You're just going to reject me again!"
He began to walk away, but I grabbed his wrist before he could go anywhere.
"Karkat, just listen to me."
He looked back at me with a mix of sadness and guilt in his eyes. I couldn't help but feel slightly guilty. Maybe even a little pitiful for him.
And then the tears came. He quickly hid his face in his other arm as soon as he realized that he'd started to cry.
I loosened my grip, and let go of his wrist.
"Karkat, I-"
"Just leave. Please."
I suppose I had no other choice. I grabbed my backpack that was sitting against the couch, and headed towards the front door.
"I'm sorry, Karkat." I said softly before exiting the house.
I needed some time to think, so I decided to take the long way back to my house. I didn't know what to do about the whole situation with Karkat, so I did what I always do when I need help with something.
So I took out my phone and contacted Rose.
I flipped my phone open after swiftly taking it out of my pocket. Oh good, she was online.
- ectoBiologist [EB] began pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 13:07 -
EB: hey rose!
TT: Hello John.
TT: Is there a problem of some sort? You usually only talk to me when you need assisting.
EB: well, yeah…it's about karkat.
TT: So I figured. What happened?
EB: well, he sort of um, confessed to me last night, and i don't know what to do, and now he's super upset and he was crying. :(
TT: Oh dear. That's not good.
EB: but i'm not a homosexual rose, what do i do?
TT: Well there is obviously no problem with being a "homosexual", John. But if you really do like him, I think you should at least give him a chance.
EB: but then i'd feel like i'm doing it out of pity or something.
TT: Well, you do like him a lot, don't you?
EB: of course i do! he's the greatest friend anyone could ever ask for.
TT: And you have no problems with homosexuality, correct?
EB: of course not! i don't think anyone should! i'm just not one…or at least i'm pretty sure i'm not one. like, i am 70% sure i'm not.
EB: but i guess i wouldn't be completely opposed to the idea.
TT: Well, what I think is that you should go for it. Be that other 30%.
EB: you really think so?
TT: Definitely.
EB: hmm, i think i'm gonna go for it. i mean, karkat is actually really kind and considerate, and really caring! not to mention he IS sort of cute…hehe
TT: That's the spirit!
EB: thanks for your help, rose. i really appreciate the support.
TT: You are very welcome.
EB: i'll talk to you later! i'll let you know how it goes. :)
TT: Goodbye.
- ectoBiologist [EB] ceased pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 13:29 -