It was hard to get used to having a friend to talk to. Always being at home I've never knew what it really felt like besides talking to Hanabi and sometimes Neji but usually I was alone. So when I told Neji that Tenten was my first friend he just looked at me as if I was insane.
"No! No No. She isn't your friend she is an evil monster that is using you to get to me." Neji had yelled in reply. Maybe he was right maybe she was using me. But she was so nice….
"I-it's not like that! TEN-T-TEN IS VERY N-NICE TO M-ME. SHE MY F-FRIEND" I ended up yelling t him as well. She was just so nice I couldn't accept that she was just using me.
I walked out of the room that Neji was standing in and looking at me. I was kind of angry how he could say that. Couldn't he just be happy that I have a friend even if it is someone who handed Neji his own ass.
During that week I ignored Neji a little and sat with Tenten at lunch. I liked Tenten she was really nice and she found out I could sing and loved to listen to me sing. It was Wednesday when she found out about the Audition I was invited to. We were walking toward the Cafeteria and Sasuke and their group had walked by Sakura was close behind and had bumped into me when she saw Sasuke looked at me and say Friday.
I just nodded to Sasuke and ignored Sakura. She just huffed and left following Sasuke. I looked to Tenten and she was glaring at Sakura before she looked at me and asked what Sasuke was talking about.
I then told her.
Tenten screamed/squealed. It was loud and people in the hall all turned to look at her. I tried to lower my head. She was just freaking out.
"Really! Oh my God that would be awesome you have to do it Hinata-Chan you just have to and show that pink haired bimbo what you are made of"
"I don't t-think I c-can S-Sakura is al-also auditioning a-and I am n-not that g-good" "Are you kidding me. You are awesome so good you could win straight up you have to okay? Okay?!"
"O-O-Okay" I said. Tenten really was a great friend. We continued onto lunch and talked the rest of the time. Tenten was then just rambling on about which song I should sing.
After school that day I decided to talk to Neji.
"H-hi Neji-Nii san" he looked at me and kind of pouted. "What do you want shouldn't you be with your 'friend'" he asked grumpily
"I wanted t-to talk to y-you" I just answered. He turned to look at me and smiled.
"I might a-a-audition to be in a-a band" I said "What d-do you th-think?" I don't think it was a good idea to tell him because he kind of freaked. Saying that bands are just an excuse for a group of people to play really loud music and get high all the time.
He then went on to saying that Tenten must have been making me join a band and that she was a bad influence.
"She's not that bad Neji. She didn't influence me she encouraged me which is something I haven't gotten from you since starting school" I had said calmly. I couldn't believe I hadn't stuttered but I was kind of having enough of Neji talking bad about my friend.
Neji was just looking at me kind of proudly he smiled softly. "You know I think that even if I don't really like her she is good for you…. She has boosted your confidence…. If you want to audition do it I will be there to cheer you on" I couldn't believe he just said that. I walked to him and hogged him tightly.
"T-thank you Neji, M-Maybe next t-time you and T-Tenten could have a p-proper c-conversation"
"Maybe" he replied and we both walked away.
The next two days had then gone by very fast.
It was finally the day of the audition. I was just way too scared. I was practically shaking. I had just decided to wear what I had been that past week and I left the house.
I had brought my own guitar with me that day because it was a special day. The whole day seemed to have gone very slow and everyone also was buzzing about the auditions at the end of the day. At lunch I had told Tenten I was going to go practice and went to the roof.
I was strumming and softly singing for at least 5 minutes until I heard someone ask what I was doing.
"P-practicing" I said back and looked up to Sasuke.
"So you are going to audition" I nodded. He then got up said goodbye and left.
I soon heard the siren for the end of lunch and got up to leave but realized I was surrounded by girls. I found out pretty fast they were people who hung out with Sakura and followed Sasuke.
I was kind of getting tired of everyone. Why couldn't they just leave me alone? That is why I don't do anything. Because maybe if I don't they will just stop.
I was pushed to the ground by the girls and I made sure that my guitar wasn't ruined. I protected it while I was kicked and hit by them. When they realized I wasn't reacting they left and walked away.
"Stay away from the audition and Sasuke if you know what's good for you" One girl yelled and gave me one last kick and then walked away.
I just sat there. I didn't get up for class and then the final bell rang. I must have been sitting there for at least 2 hours. My body hurt but I slowly stood and walked to the auditorium. I don't want to audition anymore. Maybe I should just stop. I still went into the large room and sat right at the back. The band seemed to have been playing their own song first. It sounded really good.
I closed my eyes and listened.
Manage me, I'm a mess I wanna be laughed at I wanna feel weightless But I'm stuck in this fucking rut If I could just find the time Maybe it's not my weekend Make believe that I impress I wanna feel reckless I wanna feel weightless If I could just find the time Maybe it's not my weekend This could be all that I've waited for Maybe it's not my weekend Maybe it's not my weekend
Turn a page, I'm a book
Half unread
Laughed with, just because
And that should be enough
Waiting on a second hand pick me up
And I'm over, getting older
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here
That every word
By design
Turns a head
I wanna live it up, just because
Cause that would be enough
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here
(I've waited, I've waited for)
And this could be everything
I don't wanna dream anymore
But it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy
I'm stuck in here
But it's gonna be my year (it's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere (go nowhere)
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear (everything I fear)
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here
They were really really good.
How would I ever be that good there is no way? The band then came up to the front and started talking to everyone.
"Audition are starting we will call out names you will come up sing and then get off the stage" A girl with 4 pony tails in her hair said.
"If we don't like you we will stop you. The person will be chosen after everyone has sung"
"Okay first person …" the singing then started I was about to get up and leave until I heard Sakura's name being called. I was kind of intrigued in what she would be singing.
She of course walked to the stage with a sway to her hips and a skirt that barely covered her ass.
She began to sing and I couldn't help but think. God this song suited her so well.
The music started and then she began to sing.
I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy I'm the kind of girl that girls don't like People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent My mouth never takes a holiday People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality Sexy... naughty... bitchy...me People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality I like all of my shorts to be a little too shorty I pick my skirts to be sexy
Just like all of my thoughts they always get a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me
I'm the kind that boys fantasize
I'm the kind that your mamma and your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like
I may seem unapproachable but that's only to the boys who don't have the
Right a approach or ride that makes a girl like me wanna hop in and roll
I always shock with the things I say
I was always the kid in school who turned up to each class bout an hour late and when it came to the guys I'd lay, I'd always pick the ones who won't figure out that I am clearly a rebel to the idea of monogamy
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent
Unlike all of my guys I like them tall with money
I love all of my nights to end a little bit nasty
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me
Just like my thoughts a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls ...bitchy
Can't change I am
Sexy naughty bitchy me
The lyrics were just perfect.
She bowed so everyone in the front row could see her tits and the band behind her could see her ass.
She really was kind of a slut. Did I really just think that? Now that I had heard what he had sung I got up again and was about to leave when I heard my name called out. I looked around.
I didn't want to sing. But I then saw both Neji and Tenten sitting next to each other actually tolerating each other and waiting for my performance. I then saw Sasuke look around the auditorium and then his eyes land on my. I then realized that my glasses weren't on my face. They must still be on the roof.
Sakura was still on the stage and had the microphone she then said into it. "Why would you want to listen to that when you all already know I am the one who has won?"
I was a little annoyed.
I really didn't want to. But the Hinata that I always hide was starting to break away from me.
I started to make my way to the stage without meaning to. Sakura was glaring at me and I snickered a little.
I grabbed the mike from her hands and said "T-this is a S-song I w-wrote" I then began to sing my heart out.
Grew up in a small town Trying hard to reach out Wanna feel the warm breeze Buildings with a hundred floors I'll spread my wings
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane far away
And breakaway
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
I finished singing and looked around everyone just stood there looking. Is it okay, I wanted to ask but they all seemed too out of it.
Sakura then said "I could do better in my sleep" I just couldn't hold it in.
"Can you please just shut the fuck up!?" "Excuse me" She yelled
"I am so sick of you always degrading me I am not some stray mutt you you pink bimbo!"
Sakura then replied by insulting my appearance "Well at least I am not some fat ugly bitch like you. You just look so ugly and stupid" Tenten didn't like that. "What did you just say you little whore" She asked. I have had enough and decided it wasn't worth it. I got off the stage grabbed Tenten's arm and began to walk out. I could also tell that Neji was following me.
"M-maybe she r-r-right" I said I didn't notice I was crying.
"She's not" Neji said. Tenten nodded. They then turned around and started to walk back to the auditorium without me.
"W-where are you g-going" I squeaked but they just continued. Please don't do anything please don't do anything I was praying.