I'm making my way down the stairs as butterflies are swirling around in my stomach. When I reach the ground floor I can see Kacchan already waiting in one of the seats. The rest of the common room is empty as it's still early on a Sunday and everyone's taking advantage of their free day to sleep in.
He looks around when I enter the room and gets to his feet. His eyes look softer than they usually do, or is that just my imagination? 'You ready?' he asks.
I nod. I haven't had breakfast yet but with the way my stomach is acting up I don't think I'd be able to keep anything down anyways. I'm jogging slightly to keep up with him as we leave the building as I look at him closely.
He's wearing a black shirt with a blue jacket over it. His ashen grey jeans match perfectly with his sneakers and the necklace he's wearing bounces up and down his chest as he walks. His usual grin isn't visible on his face and has been replaced by a rather normal expression, which seems a tad weird on him. He glances over in my direction and catches me staring. 'What are you looking at?' he sneers.
'Ah! I uh I just was.. I was just thinking that you.. you look good today.'
His face turns slightly red and his eyes dart away from me. 'You.. you look good too.'
My heart jumps in my chest. 'Thanks,' I mutter.
We're leaving the U.A. grounds and walk towards the closest metro station. We board one of the trains that's heading towards Tokyo center.
'Uh.. Kacchan?' I ask as he's standing in front of me, our chests nearly touching in this crowded subway. He's taller than me and it somehow makes me feel safe.
He looks down at me. 'What are we actually going to do?' He looks away again.
'I wanted to keep it a surprise.'
'Oh, okay.' I have no idea what he's thinking right now. I have no idea what he has planned. It's all still very confusing to me and since that day I haven't been able to untangle my feelings yet. Up to this point I had the same feelings with both of them. Feelings that I assumed to be friendship. But ever since their confession I'm not so sure anymore. That still doesn't take away the fact that I feel exactly the same for either of them and that's why I wanted to take both of them on a date. To determine who of them I liked more, if I even liked either of them.
'We have to get off here,' his voice says into my ear followed by his hot breath. It sends shivers down my spine but I'm able to suppress the heat rising to my cheeks. I turn around and slide past the people in the subway with Kacchan trailing behind me. Despite living quite close, I have never spend a lot of time in these districts of Tokyo. The streets are crowded and billboards are flashing all around.
'This way,' he says as he grabs my wrist to guide me. I obediently follow him. We wind through several streets as my stomach starts to growl.
'Kacchan?' He looks back at me. 'Could we stop to eat something? I'm getting a bit hungry…,' I say, finally giving in to my need for food rather than the nausea.
'No.'
'What? Why?'
I see him gritting his teeth. 'Just.. wait, okay?'
I look at him, his face facing forward, his gaze determined. Does he have a plan?
He pulls me into a side alley and suddenly stops as I crash into him. I rub my nose as he pulls me inside a shop.
I look around as the red, white and blue colors overwhelm me. On the walls there are pictures of him in his prime and there is a wall full of his merchandise ranging from keychains to plush figures.
'An All Might café?!' I exclaim in excitement. I look over at him.
'I thought you might like it,' he says as he scratches his head.
'Like it? I love it!'
His eyes light up a little. 'Really?'
I nod fervently.
We are guided to our seats by a maid who's wearing a dress in All Might's colors. I look around in awe, trying to absorb everything about this place.
'How come I never knew about this?' I ask to no one in particular.
'It's a limited café. It will only be here for a week. Today's the last day.'
I look back at him again. 'Really? I'm so glad we could go here!' The maid slides our menus in front of us. All of the items are All Might themed and have corresponding names.
'What are you getting?' I ask Kacchan.
'I was thinking about getting the Detroit breakfast, how 'bout you?' he says as he looks at the menu.
'I have more of a sweet tooth so I wanted to get the Missouri breakfast.'
'Didn't know you liked sweet stuff,' he says as we place our order.
'I've liked it since I was a kid.'
He looks away, taken aback.
'What's wrong?' I ask.
He looks up, suddenly perking up again.
'Nothing.'
'Oh, okay,' I say as I go back to admiring all the All Might memorabilia.
'I should've known that,' he mutters, barely audible.
Our breakfast gets served and I'm enjoying every single bite of it. After Kacchan paid we go outside again. 'Ah, I'm so full,' I say content.
He smiles for a moment. 'I'm glad you liked it.' Seeing him this soft is weird, almost out of character, but it's also nice. It shows a different side of him that I hadn't seen in a very, very long time. 'I have one more plan left,' he says as he takes a hold of my hand. His grasp is firm and comforting.
'Okay,' I say as I follow him as he leads on. We wind through the streets again, passing many shops selling cute merchandise, manga and videogames. In the distance I can see the Tokyo Tower. The more we walk, the closer it seems to become and it doesn't take me long to realize where we're going.
We're standing on the observatory deck of the Tokyo Tower as I'm looking out over the city. The view is amazing and I'm mesmerized by it. In the distance I can see smoke rising up.
'Oh, do you think a villain is attacking?' I ask Kacchan, becoming enchanted.
He comes up closer next to me as my focus is fixed upon the smoke. 'I'd bet it's just a petty villain getting caught and trying to get away.'
'Mhm, might be! Who do you think they'll send? If it's a fire someone with a water Quirk like Manual or Bubble Girl would work best, if it's a collapsed building they'd better call Thirteen or Kamui Woods…' I ramble.
'Do you ever think about anything besides heroes?' he sighs.
I snap out of my trance. 'Oh.. I'm sorry.'
He looks away from me. 'It's okay.'
I turn to him. 'I'm really sorry.'
'I'm really trying my best today, you know?'
'I know. I'm really, really sorry. I really appreciate what you've done today.'
He sighs as his shoulders slump.
'Let's just get back.'
'Kacchan…,' I reach out my hand but he shakes it off.
He's heading for the exit and I run after him. He seems angry… no, not angry, disappointed, as we walk through the streets again. I'm thinking of ways to cheer him up again but it's hard. Even though I've known him for so long, I barely know anything about him. Out of the corner of my eye I spot something.
'Kacchan, wait a second, please!' I say as I dash off.
He has a puzzled look on his face when I return, holding two ice cream cones in my hands. I reach one out to him and smile. He raises an eyebrow as I'm starting to question my decision, but then he takes it.
'You're such a stupid nerd, you know that, right?'
I chuckle as I walk next to him, licking my own ice cream as well. 'Yeah, you told me plenty of times.'
With my free hand I reach out for his and he doesn't reject me. Like that we walk back to the metro station to take us back to the dormitories.
The sun is already setting as we get back to the dorms. Before I enter the building Kacchan stops me.
'So, what did you think about today?' he says as we made our way towards the side of the building.
'I had a lot of fun,' I say honestly.
'I'm glad,' he replies, smiling a bit. It looks good on him. Unconsciously I reached out for his face and he recoils.
'Ah! I'm so sorry! I didn't know what I was thinking! Well, I know what I was thinking I just didn't mean to, you know, touch you and..' I apologize as I quickly lower my hand.
'What were you thinking?'
My cheeks turn red again. 'N-nothing!'
He places his hands besides my head and leans forward, trapping me between his chest and the wall.
'What were you thinking, Deku?'
I look away from him. 'I was just thinking that.. that.. that you looked good with a smile,' I mumble.
His face changes into surprise. 'I do?'
I glance at him and nod. 'I think you do.'
He smiles again. Without any warning he leans forward and his lips press against mine as he places his right hand on my neck to pull me closer to him. His kiss feels needy, selfish and full of greed. As if he wants me only for himself. I don't struggle against it. My first kiss ever and I'm sharing it with my childhood friend. It feels like a dream come true… His hand slides from my neck into my hair as he tugs on it, pressing his lips more fiercely against mine as I gasp for air in between. I place my hands on his chest and gently push him away from me as a line of spit breaks away from our kiss. I wipe it away and so does he, looking uncomfortable.
'I really had a fun time today, Kacchan. I hope we can spend more days like this.'
'But you're going to spend a day with him first.'
I hesitate. 'Yes.'
He grits his teeth. 'I just want to be selfish. I want you to be mine and no one else's.'
'I'm sorry.'
He shakes his head. 'You can't decide what you're feeling, but despite that, I still hope you'll choose me.'
He takes off without looking back and the incomprehensible mixture of feelings starts to burble up inside me again, but there's one feeling I'm definitely sure of. The feelings that I thought were just platonic have disappeared, or where never there to begin with, because all I feel now is the one thing I'm certain of: love.
