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Sasha waits for Mikasa to come back but she doesn't return.
Her nerves get the best of her so she asks advice from her friends
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Sasha sat on the couch quietly her knee bouncing quietly as her foot tapped the floor. It was late afternoon already and Mikasa still wasn't back yet. She hadn't gotten so much as a text or a call from her and it was starting to worry her. Mikasa never left her phone at home and she was not the type to ignore a text or call.
She had been staring at the floor for the past half hour wondering what to do with herself. While she had been out she had even bought herself a few things, ones that would make Mikasa very happy. She had dropped by the lingerie store in town and found some new pink and baby blue lingerie that would certainly catch her attention.
She had gotten all the movie stuff and it was in the kitchen put away. She had gotten everything they would need for a movie date together. She had even looked out extra pillows and blankets. But now all she needed was for Mikasa to come home so they could start their date.
But Mikasa had gone out today and wasn't answering her phone or texts. It made her wonder just what the hell was going on in her girlfriends head. Had she done something to upset Mikasa in some way? Though she didn't show it physically Mikasa was actually a very emotional person. Nobody could ever really figure out half the thoughts that were swirling inside the girl's mind.
Trying to get Mikasa to open up about her personal thoughts and feelings was like trying to unlock a safe. It was very hard to accomplish and almost always impossible. Her heart was like an ocean, so full of secrets and mysteries. Only those who were very lucky got a glimpse behind the curtain that was her thought process.
Mikasa was the type to keep her emotions to herself but convey her affections in physical gestures or self-comfort. The biggest give away being the fact she was wearing Sasha's hoodie. To most people who didn't know they were dating, they seemed like roommates who were having a bit of an argument when it fact they were a couple.
Just like she wore the scarf Eren gave her for comfort constantly. Mikasa would always wear Sasha's jumper around the house and sometimes even when she went to bed. When they first started dating and Sasha asked her why, Mikasa had simply said it smelled like her. That was the lifeline that reminded Sasha that she still cared.
Mikasa loved holding her hand in public or getting hugs from Sasha no matter where they were. She loved spooning with her in bed and she loved how goofy Sasha acted. The two had very much been in honeymoon stage by that point. The stage where you couldn't get your hands off each other and went at it like rabbits in heat.
Yet now Mikasa had become a lot more secretive and closed off. She didn't speak as much as usual and went out a lot more. But she clung to Sasha like a child when it came to the evening but never spoke a word. Distancing herself during the day and becoming overly affectionate at night, it didn't make any sense.
But that was what Sasha couldn't get her head around. Why was she going out so much? Why was Mikasa avoiding her and why wasn't she speaking to her? Had she done something that would make Mikasa mad at her. She knew that Mikasa had a temper and was not one you should try and fuck around with.
She wracked her brain of every possible kind of thing she could do to annoy Mikasa. Even looking back as far as their high school years for clues. Yet she had done none of them which only made her worry even more than she had been before. Not having any answers or clues to the situation only made her panic more.
She fidgeted on the couch and eventually pulled her phone from her pocket and decided to call Jean. He was her second-best friend and a mutual friend of her and Connie's. The guy could act like an ass and was truly a stubborn person. Which earned him the nickname of horse-face. But the guy was reliable, loyal and a caring person underneath his moodiness.
She had later found of that because of childhood bullying Jean had become self-conscious and prideful. Often using his hard and rude persona to hide the complex emotions that raged inside of him. After knowing this she had come to understand why Jean acted the way he did in the past; in the most common scenario people who were bullied became the bully.
She pressed the call button and waited as the phone began to ring. He was someone who had once been crushing on Mikasa and had now become one of her closest friends. If anyone would know what was going on he would. Besides she would feel weird talking to Eren about this as Mikasa was most likely hanging out with them right now.
It would only make her look suspicious if she spoke to Eren right now if Mikasa was there. She would wonder why she wasn't talking to her directly and would think she was up to something shady. The last thing she needed right now was for Mikasa to distance herself further from Sasha than she had already, she wouldn't be able to cope.
"Hello? Sasha what's up?" Jean responded in a confused manner. It was rare she called him unless it was really important or she wanted to go out drinking. Since she had started dating Mikasa they had seen each other less than before. However they occasionally met up when she and Mikasa went out on dates and bumped into their friends.
"Jean. Have you by chance seen Mikasa about? She isn't responding to my calls" Sasha asked curiously her tone hinting her anxiety. She was trying to sound casual but her voice was giving her away. She couldn't help it, when she was worried Sasha had never been the type to think rationally. While she was known to act like a dork she was capable of being very serious.
Jean hummed thoughtfully then replied "I think I heard she was hanging out with Eren and Armin today. They went out for lunch together". He had been out with Marco at the arcade and then they went to see a movie. While they had been out he caught a glimpse of the three of them together. While it wasn't unusual he had wondered why Mikasa hadn't been with her girlfriend.
Sasha stiffened as she pondered over the situation. She knew it wasn't uncommon for Mikasa to spend time with Eren as they were adopted siblings as well as friends. However, she had been spending a lot of time with them as late. She had been texting and calling them both a lot more frequently than usual which worried her.
Mikasa relied on them both when she was having personal problems. But what could be on her mind that would be causing her so much grief that she couldn't tell her girlfriend? It was a common thing in relationships to share secrets and problems with one another. They were your significant other and partner, so why keep secrets from them instead of sharing?
She wasn't exactly a genius like Jean or Armin, but she wasn't exactly an idiot either. When it came to motherly advice or personal knowledge Sasha was a pro. She was pretty much an intuitive gut instinct person when it came to trouble. But right now her head was a mess because of the fact her girlfriend wasn't speaking to her.
Then a sickening feeling came over her. What if Mikasa wasn't just mad at her? What if she wanted to break up with her? What if she had gotten fed up with dating her?What if the reason she wasn't speaking to her was because she was trying to think of ways to break up with her? Trying to find the right words to say to break the bad news.
What if she was meeting up with Eren and the others because she felt neglected or she was regretting dating Sasha? What if she found her too annoying and had simply been humoring her all this time as to not hurt her feelings? What if she wanted to go on a break with Sasha so that she could work things out?
No, that couldn't be it, right? Mikasa probably needed to get some head space and loosen up with her friends. Just a few weeks ago they had been through some pretty stressful exams and that never left anyone in a good mood. She herself had snapped at just about anyone and ended up crying quite a few times from how stressed out it made her.
Mikasa was probably just trying to catch up with her friends and relax after their exams. To make sure they were all well and making sure Eren wasn't getting into trouble. That had to be it. Mikasa wasn't the type to decide to break up with someone without warning. Despite her cold exterior Mikasa was not the type to hurt someone intentionally or without warning.
"Sash? You still there?" Jean asked worriedly. If the two of them were having relationship problems he would do what he could to help but he could only do so much. They really needed to work this out between them as a couple. Communication was the key to a good relationship and avoiding each other would only make it worse.
Everyone knew Mikasa was bad at conveying her feelings but it was obvious when she was mad at someone or about something. If she was upset at Sasha about something it would be obvious. Not just to herself but to all of their friends, everyone pretty much knew when Mikasa was mad because they would avoid all contact with her until the air cleared.
Sasha snapped out of her thought train and realized she had been ignoring Jean "Yeah sorry. I was out of it" she apologized awkwardly. He was right though, maybe she just needed to call Mikasa and sort this out. Though she had been avoiding it out of personal fear and stress she knew it was doing no good. She was just digging herself into a deeper hole instead of facing her problems head on.
That and stressing out was not good for her physically. She had been losing her appetite recently and sleeping a lot less than usual. Her desire to eat had lowered and she barely ate anything at all. Sure she still ate when hungry, but not nearly as much as she used to. She didn't even find snacking appealing, she just sat curled up with her thoughts.
Jean sighed heavily through the reciever. She could hear the exasperation in his tone "Listen. I know Connie has most likely said the same thing but you should just talk it out" he explained. He knew it was repetitive and one of the most common pieces of advice you could give, but hey it worked. Don't turn down good advice if it made good results.
Leaving the tension would only make it worse and wouldn't be good for them mentally. The longer you left the elephant in the room, the worse it got for your relationship. It was best to pull of the band aid and get it over with. The more she ignored their problems, the more their relationship would suffer for it.
Sasha nodded quietly then hung up but thanked Jean for his help. After hanging up the phone she gripped it in her hand for a while then hesitantly dialed the number for Eren. Eren was Mikasa's go to therapist and confident. They had been close since they were kids. The two were practically raised as siblings and knew each other better than anyone.
They always had each other's backs and could tell each other anything. They truly had a friendship that was rivalled by most people. Having such a strong bond of friendship and trust. Many people desired such a thing in a relationship and yet they made it work while having a completely platonic friendship.
"Sasha? What's wrong? Why did you call me?" Eren asked in a confused manner. While the two weren't exactly enemies per say, they only knew each other because of Jean. Jean and Eren were long time frenemies and Sasha was one of Jean's closest friends. The two had gotten to know each other and got along well but never really saw each other much.
Sasha swallowed nervously and then took a deep breath. "Eren is Mikasa there? She isn't home and she isn't answering her phone. I thought she may be hanging out with you" she asked hesitantly. She knew she was playing the cowards route by asking Eren instead of Mikasa directly but she was too scared to confront her.
Eren went quiet briefly and then replied "Yeah she's here. But she's just gone to the bathroom. Is everything ok between you two? She seems more down than usual" he said in a concerned manner. He had noticed that Mikasa wasn't acting like herself when she came to meet up with him and Armin in town, her eyes lacking their usual shine.
Eren was one of the few people who could understand Mikasa's thought process better than most. What she was thinking about inside her head and what was bothering her. He could read her like a book despite her sometimes confusing him. But he always knew what to do or what to say to make her feel better.
Sasha felt a sense of relief knowing Mikasa was indeed with them. But she didn't know how to respond to Eren's question because she didn't quite know herself. She had never felt so distant from her before. "Is she mad? She isn't answering my calls or texts. Usually that happens when she's mad at someone" Sasha asked worriedly. Mikasa was known for cutting off socially when mad.
"Not that I recall. Her phone was pretty low on battery though" Eren said casually. She had realized when she met up with them and decided to save the power by now calling anyone. However she had been peering at her room quite a bit, the same contact on the screen being the very same person who was now calling him. Ironic much?
Sasha then hit herself mentally for being so stupid. Why hadn't she thought that Mikasa could have a flat battery? Why did she go def con one on everything? "Stupid, stupid stupid! Why didn't I think of that?" Sasha scolded herself crossly. Why did she have to always think of the worst-case scenario? Why couldn't she just think positively?
"A…Anyway Eren. Could you relay a message to her for me? It would be really helpful" Sasha asked hopefully. There was still time to tell her that she had made a date plan for the two of them. If she spoke to Mikasa right now she wouldn't know what to do or what to say. She would probably end up ending the call out of panic.
"Sure, I guess" Eren said awkwardly. She really didn't know why Mikasa couldn't just talk to Sasha herself but she was weird like that I guess. She tended to isolate herself when she felt she had upset someone till things became less tense. But she knew deep down that she couldn't avoid the situation forever and would have to face it.
"I'm planning on watching some movies tonight. Any of her favourites. No matter how cheesy or scary they are. I felt like spoiling her a little" Sasha babbled awkwardly. She would stay up as long as Mikasa wanted and would try her damned hardest not to fall asleep. If it would make Mikasa happy and repair the distance between them she would do anything.
Eren then softened and he actually gasped a little. Sasha really was going all out here and trying to cheer Mikasa up. Though you would never guess it, Sasha was actually a sweetie. Sure, she was a big dork and often tended to do stupid shit. But she had a big heart and just loved making the people around her smile. Everything she did was orientated around the people she loved.
He then smiled to himself and his voice became less hostile "Sure. I'll make sure she gets home early for it" he said reassuringly. If Sasha was going all out like this to make up with her, then Mikasa would damn well be going home for it. He didn't care how bad she felt about leaving them behind, Sasha was her girlfriend and she came above all else.
Sasha then hung up her fears and doubt relieved from her heart and mind. Knowing that Mikasa was only troubled and that Eren would help them patch up. That helped more than he knew. Knowing that not only her friends but her girlfriends adopted brother was on her side, that meant more than they knew.
She would still make sure they would have some lovey dovey time with movies tonight. With an array of snacks and only each other snuggled on the couch together. Then they could sort this whole mess out. They could say what needed to be said and clear the air between them. Then things would finally return to normal, she hoped.