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A few days later Dean and I are sitting in the waiting room of my OB/GYN it feels so weird sitting here with Dean especially for something like this. I always thought that it would be Roman sitting next to me as I fill out the paperwork for my doctor like it was before. I never expected this twist of fate or the irony of the situation. I feel as if I am in denial right now because I don't want to face the truth of the situation. Dean has been excited for days while I on the other hand scared beyond belief. I have no idea how this is going to affect Roman but that shouldn't' matter to me as much as it does but it's my parents I am most worried about. What is my mom going to say? My dad has no right to say anything to me after I learned that he at one time got another woman pregnant so I'm sort of in his position the only thing I do know is I'm not aborting or giving up this baby. It's just something you don't do after 2 years of trying even if it isn't with the person you thought it would be with. It happened and it's going to happen and there is nothing I can do to stop it. "You okay?" asks Dean as he places his hand on my thigh softly squeezing it.
"Yeah," I say as my emotions run through me. This baby is NOT making it easy for me at all. I'm sick all the time and my emotions are all over the place. One minute I'm laughing and the next I'm crying my eyes out. Pictures of puppy dogs bring me to tears; EVERYTHING brings me to tears. The other day Dean was helping me out and made me a sandwich; very nice of him but he didn't put tomato on it and I just lost it. I'm not sure why but it brought me to tears.
"Okay," he says with a soft loving smile as I smile back at him.
"Tayla Reigns," calls the nurse as she comes out the door. I stand up as Dean stands with me. I bring the paperwork with me as I walk over to the nurse. "How are you today?"
"I'm not sure," I say because I'm really not sure how I feel.
"Everyone feels that way," she says with a smile. "I need you to step up on that scale to see how much you weigh." I step up onto the scale. "110 lbs." she says before I step off the scale and she hands me a cup to pee in. She tells me the room I'll be examined in and shows me the bathroom for me to do what I need to do.
When I am finished I walk to the examination room and hand the nurse the cup. She then gives me a gown to put on after she leaves the room but not before she asks me tons of questions like if I smoke, drink, the first date of my last period and checks my blood pressure. She draws my blood to check for STD's and stuff like that. Once she leaves the room I strip out of my clothes and into the gown before I sit down on the table again as Dean sits on the chair. "Are you okay?" I ask as I see the look of disgust on his face as he looks around the room to see pregnancy pictures and pictures of the vagina.
"I just didn't know that pregnancy was this much," he says as he looks around the room. "I know where babies come from but they really do come out of that small hole?"
"Dean," I say, "it expands but not that much."
"You women go through so much," he says.
"Yes we do," I say with a smile. "So what do you think about all of this? We never discussed having babies."
"It is a surprise," he says, "but I'm happy about it; a little scared but happy. I don't have a family so I'm glad that we're starting a family maybe not the way we should but it is happening and there isn't anything we can really do about it. How do you feel about it all?"
"I'm scared," I say, "I'm not even going to lie. It's just I have been through two miscarriages and a stillbirth the fear is always there wondering if we will have a baby or not or what's going to happen. And I'm scared to face my parents with this news."
"They won't be happy?" he asks.
"Well not exactly," I say, "you've never met Tianna Rodriguez she' s a bit over the top to say the least. I think you learned that when she kept calling me. Yeah she hasn't talked to me since but still she won't be happy about it and to know it's with a man that isn't my husband she is going to be upset. That's enough to make her dislike you from the start but don't' feel bad because she doesn't like Roman either."
"I can't wait to meet her," he says. "I think I can charm her into liking me what do you think?" he asks with his cute smile.
"I think you have a lot of work to do but I love you and that's all that matters to me."
"I love you too, Tay, and no matter what happens even if it's just the three of us we're going to be okay and we're going to be all right. We'll be our own little family and I'm okay with that."
"Me too," I say with a smile as the doctor knocks on the door.
He walks into the room and looks shocked when he sees Dean sitting in the chair rather than Roman but he's respectful enough not to ask. We exchange pleasantries before he looks at me and says, "Well, Tayla, you're pregnant congratulations."
"Thank-you," I say with a smile.
"But I am concerned. Your blood pressure is too high which isn't good and given your track record with pregnancy that really isn't good. I know we've been down this road before and you know your chances of having a successful pregnancy. Chances are you may not make it to 12 weeks and if you do there is no way you're going to make it to full term. You have about a 15% chance to make it to the full term mark which we consider 37 weeks. The chances aren't high and with your blood pressure so high I don't think you're going to make it another two weeks. The choice is yours, Tayla, you can terminate the pregnancy now or wait and see what happens."
"I choose to wait and see what happens. I'm not terminating my pregnancy," I say. "I mean it's been 2 years of trying and while this may not be the BEST time it is the RIGHT time and I'm going to let life happen as it should."
"I didn't' think you were going to give it up," he says as he looks at Dean. "And you are?"
"The baby's father," says Dean, "My name is Dean."
The doctor looks at me and then back at Dean. "Okay. I'm Dr. Santos, I'm working with your…" he pauses.
"Girlfriend," says Dean.
"Girlfriend," he continues, "I'm sure she has explained her past to you as far as pregnancy goes. If this baby makes it to full term it will be a miracle and we're going to do everything we can to make sure we do make it to the full term mark. Tayla, you are considered high risk which means we'll be doing a lot of monitoring with this pregnancy and if anything feels wrong or feels off it is important that you come in right away. You must also avoid stressful situations and getting upset that can help you a lot. I'm going to prescribe you some blood pressure medicine to keep it down so that you have a safe successful pregnancy."
"Okay," I say. I don't know how he expects me to stay out of a stressful situation when my entire life right now is a stressful situation. "What about morning sickness it's kicking my butt."
"There's not really much I can do about that," he says, "I can give you some medicine to help it but morning sickness is a part of pregnancy. It should clear up by the second trimester hopefully. Try to eat light meals, eat saltines and drink green tea."
"All right," I say.
"So now I'm going to do an ultrasound to make sure everything is okay with the baby and to see how far along you are to determine a due date."
"Okay," I say. "Dean," I say motioning him over to me. I want him to hold my hand when I get the ultrasound done. He smiles, gets up and moves his chair over to me as I lay back on the table as the doctor prepares the ultrasound machine and gets me prepared.
"This is going to be internal," he says as he places a condom over the wand.
"Oh wow," says Dean as his blue eyes grow bigger as he sees the instrument. "Is that?"
"Yes, Dean," I say, "It is going inside of me."
"That can't be comfortable."
"It's not," I say as the doctor inserts it into me causing me to wince. It is very uncomfortable to say the least as he takes it to find the baby.
"Aw, there it is," he says with a smile as he points to the screen. Tears fill my eyes as I see mine and Dean's little creation on the screen. "Everything is looking good with it," he says.
"Look," I say to Dean, "Our baby."
"Our baby," he says with tears in his eyes. "It's like a peanut."
"Yeah it is," I say with a smile as he kisses my hand softly. "So everything looks okay?"
"For now," says the doctor. "I mean this is just the beginning stages of your pregnancy so it's hard to tell which way this is going to go."
"How far along?" I ask.
"From what I see and from its measurements I would say you're about 6 weeks along."
"So this is really the beginning beginning?" I ask.
"Yes," he says, "but if you do everything I ask and we can keep your blood pressure down with lots of monitoring I'm sure this will be successful."
"Are you sure?" I ask. "Because before you told me that the chances of me carrying a baby to full term are slim to none and that I would never be able to have a baby."
"Well," he says, "things are looking a little better," he says.
"All right," I say, "so when am I due?"
"You can expect your baby to arrive September 28th," he says.
"I can't believe this," I say as tears fill my eyes. "We're having a baby, Dean. You and me we're having a baby." It is hard to believe that after all the years Roman and I tried to get pregnant it wasn't happening but the first time Dean and I have sex it happens. It's crazy how fate works out sometimes. I am really excited about it and I'm sure Dean will make a great father but it just feels a bit strange how everything turned out.
"I can't wait," says Dean with tears in his eyes. "I am ready to be a daddy." It melts my heart to see him crying at the news. He is really excited about it. I don't blame him because now that the doctor confirmed it; it's all real to me and I'm just as excited. I hope that this baby makes it and I hope that in 34 weeks I'll be able to hold a tiny little baby in my arms but the fear of what happened with Toa will ALWAYS be there.
Once the doctor prints off a couple pictures for us and goes over everything that he wants me to do and he'll do so that we have a successful pregnancy he gives us folder full of parenting information and stuff along those lines before we schedule our next prenatal appointment before we go back to Dean's apartment. He immediately hangs the sonogram up on the refrigerator before he wraps me up in his arms. "I love you, Tay," he says as he kisses the top of my head.
"I love you," I say with a smile as I rest my head on his firm chest. "So you're okay with this baby thing?"
"I'm in love with this baby thing," he says as he rubs my back. "We're going to do this Tay and we're going to be awesome at it whether your parents want to be involved or not. We're going to do this and we're going to love that baby more than anything. Don't get stressed out either. Keep it calm. Okay," he says.
"Okay," I say as I look up to meet his blue eyes with my dark brown eyes. I smile at him as he smiles at me before his soft lips meet mine. "I love you, Daddy," I say with a smile.
"I love you, Mama," he says with a smile before he kisses my lips softly. "You know with a baby this one bedroom apartment isn't going to work anymore. We need something bigger."
"I agree," I say as we walk to the living room.
"Do you want a house or another apartment?" he asks as I sit down on his lap.
"IT doesn't matter to me as long as we have enough room for the baby."
"And maybe that dog that I want too," he says with a smile as he wraps his arm around my waist. "Tay, I just I'm just really happy about this. I never expected it but I'm going to be a dad and I can't wait."
"I can't wait either," I say with a smile as I feel him place his other hand on my stomach. "I just hope it all works out."
"It will because I'm going to take care of you and make sure you're eating right, staying out of stressful situations and taking care of yourself. Tay," he says softly.
"Yeah?" I ask as he takes his hand over my stomach already trying to connect to our baby.
"I'm not sure how to be a dad. I never had a dad of my own one that cared about me anyway. I don't know how to be a dad so I'm going to do my best to be a dad to our baby. I'm just scared I'm going to screw up or do something wrong. I don't know," he says with tears in his eyes. "I just don't know how to handle being a father. I'm excited but I don't know what to do as far as being a parent goes. I didn't have the best parents in the world. So just believe I'm going to try to do my best. I may screw up but I'm going to do my best to be the best dad possible."
"Dean," I say with a soft smile. "It's okay. I know you're going to be a great dad. I have a lot of faith in you. Believe me it's going to be okay. NO parent is perfect they all make mistakes but it's going to be okay. Don't stress about it right now. We have 34 weeks to go, Baby. We'll be all right. I promise I'm not going to judge you for making a mistake because I know you're going to be awesome at being a father and we're going to be awesome parents together. Okay, Baby?"
"Okay," he says with a soft smile before I lean down and kiss his lips softly. "I love you."
"I love you too," I say as he keeps his hand on my stomach.
*A/N: What do you think about Dean's and TAyla's reactions to being parents? What do you think Tayla's parents are going to say about the entire situation? Specifically what do you think Tianna is going to say about it? Who do you think is going to tell Roman the news Dean or TAyla or Tianna? (Roman's point of View is coming soon) What do you think about Dean's fears of being a father? Please review and thank-you for reading.