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"No." She whispered. She wasn't going to live a life of hurt and anger. Ray took another step forward. He raised his fist. She ran. Into the bedroom scrambling for the draw. He ran after her. She spun round just as he got to her.

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Before she could react he had snatched the gun out of her hands. In an attempt to defend her self-Ziva threw the lamp at his head but he dogged it. She was trapped. Images of Somalia came flooding back to her. Defenseless. Scared. Weak. He breathing picked up as these violent flashbacks whirled through her mind. She broke out of her headspace when Ray started shouting at her.

"I THOUGHT YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THE ONE ZIVA. THE NICE LITTLE HOUSEWIFE WHO LISTENS TO HER HUSBAND. BUT NO IM STUCK WITH YOU. A DISOBEDIENT LITTLE BITCH."

As he started walking towards her, gun pointed at her chest she froze. She wouldn't see her team again. Gibbs, Abby, McGee, Ducky, even Palmer. Tony. She wouldn't see the man who actually cared about her. She couldn't live with that. She flung herself over the bed, Ray jumping after her. She reached on top of the dresser and snatched up her spare revolver. She turned around. BANG BANG BANG.

It was all over.

Ziva crumpled to the ground in tears. After a good 10 minutes of crying she picked up her phone and called Gibbs.

"Ziva?" A concerned voice answered.

"Gibbs... I shot Ray. He's...he's dead" Ziva sobbed into the phone.

There was silence at the other end of the phone for a minute.

"Ok. It's going to be ok. I'll call the team and metro and we'll be round in 20 ok?" Gibbs asked

"Ok" Ziva whispered then hung up.

Tony. She had to call Tony he was the only one who could comfort her right now, and that's the one thing she wanted. So she took her phone and pressed 1 on her speed dial. It didn't even ring. An unfamiliar voice at the end of the line kept on repeating "The phone number you have dialed, has been disconnected" Ziva stared down at her phone. What's happened? She thought why has his number been disconnected? She was tore out of her thoughts by a knock at the door. She sighed and shakily wiped her tear-flooded face. She slowly walked to the door and opened it. Two cops in uniform stood there.

"We were told there was a shooting at this address ma'am, by a Special Agent Gibbs?" The police officer looked at her with concern.

"Yes...yes, come in" She hoarsely whispered. She showed them to the bedroom where her now deceased husband lay. She couldn't bear to look so quickly walked back into the lounge and sat against the armrest of the couch. The door was still open waiting for the team to come in.

A few minutes later they all walked in, minus Tony. Gibbs walked over to her and placed a comforting hand on her shoulder and McGee gave her a reassuring smile.

"You alright?" Gibbs asked softly

"Yeah I am now... Where's Tony?" She asked upset he wasn't here. Even through they've had their fights they always make up, and he's always there for her.

"We don't know. We thought he'd be here with you" Gibbs answered

"Oh" Ziva replied saddened.

After they had finished at her apartment they all went back to the headquarters, Gibbs allowing Ziva to come along since her apartment was a murder scene. Still shaken she sat down at her desk and looked across to Tony's desk. Surely he can't be still mad at me after everything that's happened she thought he always is here.

When she looked up from her thoughts Director Vance was stood at the entrance of the bullpen.

"Agent David I hope your okay after tonight's events" Vance said

"I am" She answered uncertainly

"Well to cut the small talk, that wasn't the reason I came down to see you all. I assume you have all noticed Agent Dinozzo absence" Vance started

Ziva looked up in horror, what had happened? Was he ok?

Vance carried on "Agent Dinozzo came to me asking to be a reassigned to the Sea Hawk. I would of thought he would of come to say good bye to you all but a apparently that's not the case." Vance announced

Ziva sat there frozen. He's gone. I can't do this without him. She tried to hold her tears in as Gibbs spoke up.

"When's he leaving?"

Vance looked down at his watch

"In around an hours time." Vance finished and walked off back up to his office.

Ziva's heart constricted the thought of Tony leaving her life forever, she couldn't handle that. He couldn't just leave. Leave her. She needed him the most now. She quickly got up still shaken from that night events grabbed her coat and ran out of the building. Gibbs or McGee didn't bother stopping her, because they both knew she needed Tony right now. Realizing that she took a lift with Gibbs on the way there she went out into the street to find a taxi. One quickly screeched to a halt next to her and she quickly jumped in and gave the taxi driver his address.

The whole way there she couldn't keep still. What if I've missed him? She thought. She couldn't stand the idea of him leaving her life she needed him. Physically and mentally.

The taxi came to a halt outside Tony's building she through her money in the front of the car and ran off in the direction of his apartment.

She raced up the stairs, since the elevator was far too slow, and came to a stop outside his door. She breathed in and out a couple of times and wiped her tear stained face with the sleeve of her coat. She knocked twice at his door. The door slowly opened, because of not being shut properly. She took two steps into his apartment and what she saw froze her to the spot.

Ok, so this was a longer chapter than I normally write, but hopefully you like it! Please review, as it inspires me to update faster. The next chapter might not be up until Tuesday, as I have been updating this story everyday so far, and its getting a bit exhausting! Thanks for reading!