"Waffles and peach juice." Manny said to Emma, laying a plate down on their kitchen table, "Your favorite!" she exclaimed happily.
It's been two weeks since.
Emma glanced at Manny and then the food as she brushed her hair into a high ponytail, Jay had stayed the night too..and no not with her this time, what a player, but with Manny, his girlfriend.. who still didn't know what happened that night between him and Emma. Emma guessed it was for the better, she never wanted to lose Manny.. specailly right now.
"You can stop making me my favorite meals, Manny." Emma teased, a small grin growing. She was starting to do that, knowing Manny and her mom really needed to see it, to make themselves feel better.
Manny declared slowly with a small shrug, "I want you to be happy."
From behind, Jay tossed the apple in his hand into his other before raising it up and taking a big bite of it, even Manny glanced back and gave him a look along with Emma.
Happy? Good luck trying to make THAT girl happy and content. Jay narrowed his eyes back at Emma before swallowing his apple down. He was back in his Hogart clothes, dark blue jeans and fitted black shirt, with backwards black hat.
"I'm fine." Emma insisted to Manny, removing her eyes off Jay while rolling her eyes at him. He's always been an ass but now he was directly trying to be one to her even when being silent...that was a new talent of his jerk-ness.
Manny tried to whisper, "It's only been three weeks, I'd understand if you weren't fine." she insisted.
Emma put down her brush and her eyes went a bit distant, she then grabbed her jacket off the table and slid out of the chair, "I'm not fine if you keep reminding me." she didn't mean to snap but went around Manny and stormed to the front door.
"Em!" Manny called but the blonde slammed the door behind her.
Manny took a deep breath and ran ahand through her long dark hair, turning to Jay. Jay was focusing hard at the stem on his apple, twisting it with his fingers.
"Could it really be fine by now that he's gone?" Manny asked Jay, crossing her arms, "Are you fine?" other than his cuts and split lip finally all healed, Manny couldn't say if she thought Jay was fine or not.. was that wierd she couldn't read her own boyfriend?
She damn well tried to..
Jay looked up and at her, glancing at the door Emma slammed after her and as he raised to take another bite of the apple, he paused to reply, "It'll never be fine that Sean's gone.. it'll just have to be."
Manny opened her mouth but closed it and slowly nodded, made sense..
That night, Emma came home and threw her jacket down, hearing the tv on. Classes over at the college sucked today, it was all just review stuff.
She went to the tv room and saw Jay on the couch, on the far end, flicking through the channels but it's like he felt her walk in and stopped on whatever channel it stopped on when she stopped moving. He didn't even look at her.
"Is Manny home?" Emma asked as she looked around.
"Missed her." he commented back, trying to focus on whatever he landed on.
"Good.." Emma admitted outloud, taking a deep breath, she just needed some alone time.
She went to walk around the couch to go get a drink in the kitchen but he spoke up tauntingly, "Maybe you should show some appreciation to someone whose been trying to help you?"
Emma stopped in her tracks, her insides confused until turning in anger, she turned to the couch again and snapped, "I don't need any help."
"Fooled us." he taunted.
"Us?" Emma couldn't help but snicker, he meant him and Manny? Since when were they an 'us' and not the couple with the boyfriend who cheats on his girlfriend with her best friend?
Emma scoffed, letting it go and went to the kitchen, madly grabbing the cup. What a stupid awful couple, Emma always knew Jay wasn't for Manny, jerk.
(Alexz Johnson-Under my skin)
Falling apart and all that I question
Is this a dream or is this my lesson
Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie
The next week, Emma nervously went through the closet at least a hundred times.
"Don't be so nervous." Manny teased Emma, going around her and grabbing something perfect in her closet, "There."
Emma raised an eyebrow, Manny was always great for that. She was going to Wasaga today, to help her mother see what was okay to throw out of Sean's.
Four weeks and his mother was already ready for that? ...
Manny tilted her head seeing Emma in her own little world again, "That look always scares me." she admitted.
Emma blinked and looked at her, softly smiling, "Sorry."
"You can talk to me you know?" Manny asked sadly, "We always use to talk about everything."
Emma looked down and played with her hands before sitting on her bed. They were alone, so why not finally kinda..talk?
"There's not much to say anymore Manny." Emma said gently, looking up to her best friend, "Sean is gone, a part of me is gone..and now I'm just Emma.. I'm trying to remember what that means." she admitted, pushing her eyebrows together in deep thought.
Manny smiled a little, seeing a bit of hope and sat down next to the blonde and put an arm around her, "You're Emma, environmentalist, crusader." she deepened her voice to mock Jay, "Tree hugger, Greenpeace."
Emma actually laughed at that, it was a good impression.
She nodded and put a piece of hair behind her ear... speaking of the devil, he was kind of right, Manny had been such good support.. she couldn't of done this without her.. which made Emma feel horrible again, remembering what she and Jay did.
"I love you, you know?" Emma said to Manny.
Manny giggled, leaning the side of her head against Emma's, "I love you too you little suck up." she teased.
Emma softly laughed and went serious, "Really though, I-" She paused but went on, "I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have you."
Manny watched that numb look wash over Emma's face, and Emma thought about what if Manny found out.. did Manny love Jay?
"I'm late." Emma then said, noticing the time and Sean's mother was probably going to be waiting an extra 10 minutes for her arrival.
They stood up and shared a hug
"Emma! Come on in." the older lady smile brightly, opening the trailer door for Emma who stepped in.
Emma now wore a polka dot dress and her hair wavy. She tried to bare a smile but all the reminders of Sean came back when she looked around at the boxes around the entrance
"We got mostly everything." admitted Sean's father a bit shyly, feeling bad and knowing Emma wanted to help but she was a bit late.
Emma then stopped breathing when she was Tracker and he connected eyes with her to then nod, coughing awkwardly to break the silence.
"The boxes you might want are in his room." Tracker told her.
He looked at his parents to guide Emma but his Emma did what she did best since her youngest sons death..started to knit and sit on the couch in her own world and his dad kept busy, taping any parts of boxes to keep his mind off too.
"Come on." he surrendered, leading Emma to his room.
Emma bit her lower lip, looking through some boxes and seeing pictures of him and him with her, or their friends.
She swallowed hard, going through some objects as Tracker stood behind her, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed and waiting.
"H-how are you?" Emma finally asked, tossing a look back to Tracker.
Tracker snickered, looking off in thought, "How am I?" he repeated.
Emma's blood ran cold.. he blamed her too didn't he?
Emma saw one picture that she wanted and grabbed it before she braced herself to turn.
"Honestly?" Tracker asked her and she tilted her head as he went on, "I feel like I lost my own kid."
Emma saw him fight tears and try to stay strong.
He nodded out the door where his parents were, "As you can tell, they never deal with things well... I raised Sean and- I-" he could barely talk.
Emma's shoulder dropped, feeling awful.
"I raised him, I schooled him, I put a roof over his head, I saw his first A." he looked at Emma and softened, "His first girl friend..."
Emma looked down at her hands and shifted in her spot..so that's why it hurt him to see her.
"Still so crazy you guys ended up back together." he told her, "Made me think he'd always be with you..which I guess I was right since you'll always be his last girl friend." he said it more bitterly then he intended.
Emma's heart dropped and she finally stepped forward, and she hugged him. He was a bit shocked, but hugged her back.
"How'd it go?" Manny asked, standing next to Liberty as they cooked on the stove.
"We're making some tacos!" Liberty announced happily to Emma who carried a box and smiled a little, Liberty said it like it'd cure world hunger.
"I'm not so hungry." Emma admitted but caught Manny's alarmed look.
Gees, it's not like she was going to go annoxeric.
"But I'll have a little." Emma added, giving Manny a 'calm down' look and Manny just happily smiling, dimples shining.
"Ugh, I needed a girls night." Liberty said, now sitting on the couch with the two girls and watching Titanic.
Emma giggled a little, what a random night. She bit into her taco.