Blood Lust

Gone with the Sin - H.I.M.

I love your skin oh so white

i love your touch cold as ice

and i love every single tear you cry

i just love the way your losing your life

Ohohohohoh my Baby, how beautiful you are

Ohohohohoh my Darling, completely torn apart

You're gone with the sin my baby and beautiful you are

So gone with the sin my Darling

I adore the despair in your eyes

I worship your lips once red as wine

i crave for your scent sending shivers down my spine

i just love the way you're running out of life

ohohohohoh my Baby, how beautiful you are

ohohohohoh my Darling, completely torn apart

Your gone with the sin my baby and beautiful you are

So gone with the sin my Darling

BPOV

Oh my god. The pain is unreal...My throat is on fire... The heat ... Oh my god, please help me...

As the heat spread down my body, it feels like every part of me is being manipulated into some thing else. My heart beat is racing...my breath is ragged. A sweat breaks across my face. My face feels as if it is distorting - just like one of those magic mirrors at a circus.

These feelings can't be good. My limbs are throbbing and… Oh my god, what's happening…? My skin has a reddish glow to it. I can see my skin and the muscles in my arms, moving - like a scarab beetle is under my skin, running in every direction. Everything is suddenly blurry. I can't see clearly. Panic has settled in, and all of the sudden I can't see a thing; the whole world is blacked out...

3rd Person POV

Carlisle carried Bella down, through the front door. He suggests that the "mess" upstairs, is cleared away so that no one would know, anything had taken place in the house.

Alice suggested a change of clothes for Bella and hinted that they could put the attack down to wild animals, but they would need to leave the bloodied clothes in the woods near the house. Rosalie took charge of this, and disappeared out of sight.

The run through the woods was quick. Bella's cries, were just whimpers now - her face scrunched up with the pain she was feeling, from the conversion.

They soon reached the Cullen residence, and Carlisle 's first priority was to inject the morphine into Bella's blood stream, to ease the level of pain she was suffering.

With the morphine, Bella became still and silent. To a human, it looked like she was sleeping peacefully.

Emmett and Jasper dragged Edward to hunt, wanting him to fight the blood lust that had blinded him to his actions towards the girl, who was presently going through a painful transition. They watched as he drained the animals in the nearby forests, until he was filled, and his red eyes had all but evanesced.

It wasn't until the next day they returned home, to make sure Edward would not hurt the girl.

Edward locked himself away in his darkened room, refusing to speak to anyone, but they all knew he was listening to the struggling heart beats, and ragged breaths of Bella. It was obviously torturing him.

The third and final day of the conversion came, and everyone waited for the final beat of the human heart. Everyone, except for Edward, stood around Isabella, holding onto their significant others, waiting for her to awaken.

...

Bella was aware that the fiery acid, which burned her body, was now moving towards her heart. Her heart struggled against the coils of darkness that squeezed deafeningly. Her heart was slowing, giving up the fight to keep beating, to stay alive, and after one final, feeble beat, it stopped. She waited for the pain to return; too scared to move, in case it came back full force.

Everything was intense - the sound of the river rushing nearby, the birds in the trees that swayed in the breeze, even the silk that covered her body.

Bella held her breath, and was surprised that her lungs didn't burn for the much needed oxygen, which her body required. She really was dead. The thought came to her unbidden, and dark. She wanted to cry, and curl up to sleep.

She was then aware of being watched. She could feel their eyes on her, waiting. Without even realizing she had moved, she was off of the bed, which she was laid upon, and in the corner furthest away from the strangers. She was crouching, her hands digging into the walls either side of her. She scared herself by growling at them. There were three males in the room, two of which had matched her crouched position, in front of the women who stared, watching.

Terror washed over her as she stared at them. She felt horror at how animalistic she had acted. She was never like that - was she? She felt her face slacken as she tried to remember how she normally acted, but she couldn't remember. Her memories were hazy and hidden behind a wall of heavy fog. She frowned and let go of the wall but sagged against it. She knew her name was Bella, and that she was seventeen. Bella slid down the wall, her hands in her long mahogany locks. What had happened to make her forget everything?

Red demon eyes flashed in her mind, the memory of teeth tearing at her neck, devouring her.

One of her hands fell to her neck, searching for the wound caused by razor sharp teeth, but found only unblemished skin. Was it a dream...? She was so confused and tense that she wanted to scream out. That was until a wave of warmth and calm washed over her, soothing her.

Bella's mind tried to process what had happened, how the sudden change of her emotions had occurred. She buried her face into her knees, her hands over her head as she rocked, but stopped when someone had said her name. One of the males had stepped forward carefully. Cautiously, he crouched in front of her, not too close, but not far.

"Isabella? My name is Carlisle ."

He paused, unsure of how to proceed. Strangely, he was unsure of how to continue, where as he was fine informing the others of what had happened to them. So he just stayed there, watching her.

His heart ached for her, he wanted to reach out and hug her. But knowing newborns, they were dangerous and could easily injure older vampires. He waited for her to speak, to say something that he could work with.

"Bella. My name is Bella."

Her voice was soft and smooth, but pain was laced underneath. Carlisle smiled gently, despite the fact Bella could not see but his smile faltered when she spoke again.

"Where am I? I want to go home."

Bella wanted to go home badly. She couldn't remember where her home was but she wanted to go there - badly. She knew she had parents... somewhere. Surely they would be missing her? Maybe they were searching for her. The man in front of her, Carlisle , sighed sadly, before speaking again.

"Bella, I'm afraid you can't go home. It's not safe. You will have to stay with us, for a year or so to control your… urges. If, after that time, you wish to stay with us, you may, but if not - you are free to go your own way."

Bella's head whipped up and she stared at the man. He was good-looking, she supposed with blond hair and golden eyes. He was watching her, noting every emotion or movement that she made.

"I... I don't understand. Did… Did I do something wrong? 'Cause if I did, I'm really sorry."

Bella started to panic. Had she done something wrong? Had her parents sent her away, to live with these people? But what of the pain that she had felt?

Carlisle shook his head; the feeling to hug her engulfed him again. He ached to hold her in his arms. His fatherly instincts taking hold - already he considered her as his new daughter.

"You've done nothing wrong Bella, but there is much to talk about, and for you to learn. To start off with, you must know that my family and I, we are vampires. And now, so are you."

She stared at him, unsure of how to take the news. Surely he was lying to her - after all, vampires didn't exist. They were a creature of fiction. Weren't they?

She started to panic, confused and somewhat thirsty. But once again, serenity washed over her, calming her nerves and her fears. She looked behind Carlisle to the others that were in the room. Her eyes stopped at the man who was staring at her intently, confusion clear on his handsome face. She could see the many scars that marred his pale skin. All of them half crescent bite marks. Somehow she knew it was him that was making her calm; how, she didn't know, but she was unsure whether to be grateful or offended.

The girl behind him was short, with a mop of black hair. She smiled at Bella, wanting to reassure her that she was safe here, with them. Bella didn't smile back; she just stared at her for a second, before moving on to the others.

The blonde female was strikingly beautiful, with long hair, and golden eyes, which were encircled with dark lashes. She watched Bella, sympathy and pain in her eyes. She looked away, and buried her face in the shoulder of a large, muscled man, with curly brown hair. He tried to smile but he could not find it in him to even do that.

Lastly, Bella turned her gaze to the other female that was in the room. She had honey colored hair, and she had a motherly air around her. Her arms were wrapped around herself and she couldn't stop staring at Bella.

She looked back at Carlisle, her mind trying to process everything. She opened her mouth to speak but she closed it again, and then buried her head in her arms that were folded on her knees.

"Why can't I remember my family? Or who I am?"

Her voice was muffled but Carlisle heard her. He wished he could have stopped this from happening but there was nothing he could do now.

"The venom changed you, Bella. That pain you felt, that was the conversion of your human body turning to that of a vampire. It's a long and painful process and we often forget our human memories. Sometimes they are gone forever, but some get glimpses of our previous lives."

Bella nodded against her arms. It made sense, and explained the unimaginable pain that had racked her body. She started to feel dread creep up on her.

"I can never go home, can I?"

She looked up at Carlisle wanting to see if he would lie to her. He shook his head and stood, holding out his hand for hers. She stared at his hand for a minute before reaching out, her hand shaking, and placed it in his. He gently pulled her to her feet, and introduced her to the rest of the family.

"Bella, this is my wife, Esme, and our children, Jasper and Alice, and Emmett and Rosalie."

Bella cocked her head to the side as she stared at them again, not replying to their greetings. A memory had pushed through the fog. She was in her room at her home, and they were standing there, either glaring or holding back another.

"You were in my room. I remember..."

Her brow furrowed as she tried to remember more.

"There's another...his eyes...they were red"

There was a loud noise that echoed through the house, the sound of something breaking. The others flinched. Carlisle cleared his throat.

"My son, Edward is in his room. You can meet him later, when he has calmed down."

Edward. Edward. Edward.

The name repeated itself in Bella's head. A broken record, of a single word. A name. Why did it sound so familiar? For some reason, Bella had a rush of anger and hatred towards this name.

Alice stepped forwards, shrugging off Jasper's hand as he tried to stop her. She stepped slowly towards Bella, not wanting to startle her. She smiled gently and reached out for Bella's hand.

"Why don't we go get you some new clothes then take you out hunting."

She pulled Bella away from the room, ignoring the look from her mate. She would know if Bella decided to attack. She would see it. Going to her room, she shut the door and half dragged Bella to the en suite and turned the shower on full blast.

"Have a shower. Trust me, you will feel so much better afterwards. I'll leave some clothes by the sink for you to wear. I'm sure they will fit fine."

With that, Alice left Bella to shower, knowing that she would want some form of privacy. But as she closed the door, she froze. A vision came forward, but it was too late. Before she could even try to counteract it - Bella screamed.

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Authors note

To my readers - the reason for the long awaited update is that my computer hates me and decided to die and pass on to Laptop Heaven. I tried to resurrect him but he was gone from this world. So, I'm using my mom's to start writing again. I'm trying to do everything from memory as i have lost all my files and chapters that i had completed and was ready to upload onto the site.

My apologies

Also, I wish to say thank you to Maestro4EvarMore, who is now my new Beta, and will re-reading and correcting my work so that they are more readable! THANK YOU! xxx

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