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Natsu's POV

I knew what I was about to do before it even happened. That small part of me which held me back was no longer rooting for life and rather had switched sides. Every part of my being screamed at me to end it and somehow, it was convinced that was the only option.

It wasn't entirely Gray's fault for pushing me past the point of no return. It was just the feather that finally made the huge pile of emotional baggage topple down and crush me. I ran towards my spot, tears already covering my face in wet and sloppy trails. I could already picture the way I was going to do it, just like I had planned in the past. But this time was different from the rest because I was actually going to do it.

I considered writing everyone a letter but I knew my sanity wouldn't last long enough for that. Plus, by the time I finished writing them I would probably start to have second thoughts and I didn't want to make myself anymore emotionally distressed than I was.

I quickly climbed my way up the tree, not even stopping to do my usual check for people in the area. It didn't matter to me. Before, I was trying to hide a secret, making sure not a single soul saw what I was doing. But now, I just didn't care. Some sick and twisted part of me wanted them to see what I was about to do. I wanted them to finally see who I really was and what I had been hiding for so long.

I pulled out my knife, which I had been carrying on my person for the past couple weeks due to my declining mental state. Something about having it against my chest at all times was almost soothing. It was almost like a reminder that at any point where it became too much I could just slip into the woods and end my misery. Some might not understand why I was so horribly depressed. At times, I didn't understand it either. Others might even go to say that I didn't appreciate what I had and that others had it much worse off than I did. But honestly, that didn't matter to me. This was my life and in my eyes, it was too much to handle. It didn't matter to me what others had managed to handle. I was no longer able to handle being alive and that was the end of that.

I started my usual routine of running the blade against my back in jagged lines. I knew it was pointless, seeing how I was going to end my life but somehow the familar pain was comforting to me, giving me the confidence to fully accept what I was about to do. I pulled the blade away from my back and stared at it, smiling. My pain would finally end. No more being told I wasn't good enough. No more having to constantly live up to the high expectations put upon me. Never again would I have to feel the guilt or responsiblity of not being there when my friends needed me. I would never have to endure the teasing or the criticizing anymore. And most importantly, I would no longer have to be reminded daily that I would never be good enough for the one person I craved the most.

I stared at the sky, taking it in for the last time. I started to cry, realizing that looking at the sky only reminded me of her more. In another life, I would have been good enough for her. We would have gotten married, raised a family, grown old together. We would be the perfect team, without single doubt in our mind that we were perfect for each other.

She was my mate and even though I knew it would hurt her, my death would hurt less than the pain she would endure if I was ever selfish enough to claim her as mine. She deserved so much better than me. She deserved to be showered in affection and protected at all times. Not a single moment of her life deserved to be hard and she should never have to feel alone. I just couldn't be that for her. And instead of hurting her for the rest of her life, I would let her go, to find someone who could give her what she truly deserved.

I took one last look at the stars, thinking of her beautiful smile as I placed the knife to my neck.

"I love you Lucy, always have, always will."

Somewhere in the distance, he faintly heard a scream. He wasn't sure if it was only a hallucination or a blessing, but he was pretty sure it was Lucy. He smiled as he felt himself slowly slipping away. He thanked whoever was out there for letting his last thought be of the one he loved.

Lucy's POV

I followed Natsu through the forest, trying my best not to make too much noise by stepping on branches. He seemed to know exactly where he was going and was pratically running. More than a few times I had almost lost him, but I always managed to find him again, seeing his tall form in the distance through the trees.

I was more than worried about him. Something about his actions scared me. His movements were jagged and almost robotic, like he was running on autopilot to his destination. I hoped that what Mira had told me was only a conicidence and that they didn't hold any truth to them. But somewhere in the back of my mind, something told me it was wrong to get my hopes up.
I stopped my deep thinking to notice I had lost him once again. I made a quick circle around where I was before coming back to the opening where I had lost him. There was no way he had run that fast across it without me noticing. He may be extremely fast but I would have been able to still see him. I decided to take a second to catch my breathe and sat back against a large tree on the edge of the clearing. I noticed it was extremely tall and had litter around the base of it.

"I hate people who litter and ruin the environment," I mumbled to myself as I attempted to catch my breathe.
Suddenly, I heard a familar voice say something that caught me completely off gaurd.

"I love you Lucy, always have, always will," I jumped up, recognizing the voice as Natsu's. I looked above me where I had heard his voice come from and before I had consiously recognized what was happening, a scream erupted from my throat.

I saw as Natsu sliced a knife across his neck, blood spurting out all over the place. He smiled as he fell back to rest against the tree.

"NATSU!" By instinct I grabbed my keys but before I could even summon one of my spirits, Loke and Virgo appeared before me.

"Princess we sensed there was danger! Are you okay?!"

I simply pointed to the tree, my hand over my mouth as giant sobs escaped my lips. I couldn't move and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get a single word to escape my lips.

Everything that happened next was a blur. All I remember was Loke throwing himself up the tree and grabbing Natsu before running off towards Polyruica's house which happened to be in the same woods we were in. I vaguely remember someone grabbing me up, but by this point my vision was starting to fade. All I could see was the image of Natsu pulling the knife across his neck and the sound it made as he gurgled on his own blood. Suddenly, my vision went away completely and all I could feel was numb.

Dun dun dun...What will happen next? Will Natsu live? What happened to Lucy? Will update probably later today or tomorrow depending on when the girlfriend lets me haha anyway review and rate and fave if you really liked it! :)