Hellooo everyone! So thank you to everyone who reviewed on the previous chapters, it honestly means a lot. Here is chapter 3 for you all

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Kensi's head rested on the arm of the couch as she wiped away the numerous tears trailing down her cheeks. She lasted until she had arrived home at 8pm until she broke down in tears. It had all just hit her as the door shut behind her, reducing her to hysteric sobs. Sure she had understood what had happened back at OSP, but as she walked through the door, the wave of consequences came crashing down on her, after seeing the empty Chinese cartons from the other night which her and Deeks had shared.

She thought about all the good times they had shared, but then she realized something. Most of the 'funny' moments with Deeks and or the guys were them ganging up on him. The thought of that made her sob even harder. How could she do this to him? Not only refuse to tell him how she felt so he thought he had no choice to leave, but be so horrible to him all these years?

The thought of all this made her heart ache even more than it already did, and the rate of tears increase. No wonder he left. Not only did she shoot him down time and time again, most of the team just teased him and didn't show any support toward him. Kensi couldn't begin to imagine how that must feel, because she wasn't the one being shot down, and she wasn't the one being tormented.

She must of thought of going to his apartment at least 40 times in the past hour, to apologize and tell him how she felt. But when she tried to admit out loud to herself, no words came out of her mouth. She had pushed him away so much; he couldn't take it anymore and left. She couldn't believe she did this to him.

Her eyes shut in attempt to get at least a couple hours of sleep, which she knew probably wasn't going to happen. As she curled her body upwards in attempt to comfort herself.

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Kensi dragged herself into OSP; her bag slumped on her shoulder. She knew he wasn't going to be there, and that's what really was going to kill her. As her heeled boots clicked along the stone flooring, she neared the bullpen, bracing herself for the day.

"Hey Kensi, where's Deeks?" Callen asked 30 minutes later, whilst they were all finishing off paper work from the other day.

"I… erm… he left…" She mumbled not looking up from her paper work, afraid she might break down again.

"What? What do you mean he left?" He asked, confused.

"He… he went back to LAPD, Callen…" She whispered, finally looking up.

"What? Why… why did he do that?" He demanded.

"I… I, I don't know…" Kensi lied, looking back down at her paperwork. Callen shook his head, and stormed over to Hetty's desk.

"Why has Deeks left?" He asked Hetty, brows furrowed.

"Mr Deeks decided not to re-sign his NCIS liaison contract, Mr Callen." Hetty answered calmly, looking up at him from her seat.

"Yeah, I got that Hetty, but why?"

"You would have to ask Mr Deeks, Mr Callen, he did not care to share the reason with me." Hetty said, raising her eyebrow at G. Callen shook his head, and walked back to the bullpen, just in time for Sam to walk in.

"Sorry I'm late guys, G you got my text?" Sam asked, whilst placing all of his belongings on his desk.

"Yeah… yeah I did. Sam have you heard?" Callen asked referring back to Deeks.

'Heard what? And where's Deeks?" He asked, glancing over to the detective's desk.

"And where's his stuff?" Sam asked again.

"Well, yeah that's the problem. Apparently Deeks decided not to sign his liaison contract, and he's gone back to LAPD." Callen revealed. Sam looked up from his desk, eyebrows furrowed.

"What? Why?"

"Dunno, Hetty doesn't know either, apparently." Callen replied.

"What about you Kensi? Do you know why he left?" Sam asked the unusually quiet, agent who was focussing on her paper work.

"Hmm? No, I don't…" Kensi said, sniffing and willing herself not to start crying again. The two male agents didn't notice anything unusual with her, so turned around and started talking about what they were going to go now Deeks had left.

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(Deeks' apartment)

Deeks rolled over to the other side of his bed and groaned as he grabbed his blaring cell phone. He tried to make his sleepy eyes focus on the caller ID. 'LAPD Office' it read. He groaned once more and accepted the call.

"Deeks." He stated, voice cracking from just waking up.

"Deeks! It's me, Matthew." The voice on the other end of the line greeted.

"Matt! Good to hear from you again buddy." Deeks perked up knowing it was one of his friends. Matthew Robinson was one of Deeks' oldest friends. They joined the academy together, and then got put in the same unit. He was one of the few people at LAPD that didn't annoy the hell out of Deeks.

"Yeah, same. So I hear your coming back to good ol' LAPD." He joked from the other end, knowing how much Deeks disliked the place.

"Yep, you heard right, back tomorrow."

"Why you coming back? When we talked the other weeks, everything was going great at NCIS, why the sudden change?" Matt enquired.

"I… I needed a change, yano. Things can get boring from time to time here, so I thought why not go back to LAPD, where things are never boring." Deeks joked, uncomfortable from keeping the truth from his friend.

"Alright then. But boring, with the feds? That I can't imagine." Matt chucked.

"Well, you know. We all need a change from time to time."

"Yeah, I hear you. What about drinks tonight, catch up before you come back tomorrow?" Matt asked.

"Sure. That sounds great, usual place?"

"Yep, usual place at 7. See you tonight, Deeks." Matt grinned from the other side of the line, hanging up. Deeks put his phone back on his bedside table, flopping back over to stare at the ceiling. Sure it would be hard at first, but he would get used to it, wouldn't he? At least his new partner at LAPD wouldn't make his heart ache every time he saw them because he knew they didn't feel the same way about him. And plus, he would be able to see more of Matt since they would be working in the same division. Maybe this is all for the best. Deeks thought.

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"Hey man!" Deeks greeted, walking up to a table where Matt sat.

"Hey!" Matt greeted back, handing Deeks an ice-cold beer. They had met in one of their frequent bars, a place with a good atmosphere and friendly people. He had come here with the team back at NCIS a while back for drinks as well.

Deeks took a seat and a sip of his beer. "Mmm, that's good beer. How've ya been Matt?" Deeks enquired, placing the beer back on its coaster on the table.

"Good, you know, same old, same old." Matt grinned back. Matt had been the sensible one out of the pair, marrying his wife Jen at 29, and had been together for 3 years now.

"How's little Liza doing then?" Deeks asked, referring to Matt's daughter, Eliza.

"She's good, turning 2 in a couple of months… speaking of which, I was going to call you before I heard you were coming back to LAPD. I've got some news… Jen's pregnant. We're having another baby!" Matt exclaimed, grin evident on his face.

"Wow! Congrats man, really." Deeks clapped Matt on the back, happy for him.

"Yeah, due on August 1st, Jen's almost 3 months gone." Matt smiled at the thought.

"Wow, can't believe it. It only seems like yesterday you were introducing me to Jen, now almost 2 kids later…" Deeks whistled.

"Yeah, I know. Time flies." Matt sighed.

"You excited to come back then?"

"Sure…" Deeks chuckled sarcastically.

"Why'd ya leave then? Don't give me that 'you got bored' bull, Deeks. I'm not stupid. The last time I talked to you, you seemed so happy at where you were." Matt raised his eyebrow at Deeks, taking another sip of his beer.

"Knew I couldn't hide a thing from you." Deeks sighed, watching his finger trace a pattern on his beer glass.

"Lets say things got complicated with a co-worker, and I wasn't originally planning to leave, but since my contract was about to run out I took the opportunity."

"Lemme guess. That co-worker is a certain female, I've heard oh so much about." Matt smiled.

"Maybe…" Deeks mumbled.

"C'mon Deeks, when you gunna grow some balls and tell her how you feel!"

"That's what got me in this mess in the first place! I told her how I felt, and that's how it got messy!" Deeks insisted, shutting his eyes momentarily.

"Explain." Matt requested.

"Well, I kinda told her, then she just walked away, like always." He sighed, rubbing his face.

"Oh… man, I'm sorry, I know how you felt about her…"

"Yeah, well my life isn't designed to go well anyway." Deeks chuckled bitterly, taking a long gulp of his beer, and then looking back up at Matt. Out of the corner of his eye he spotted something. He turned his head fully and swore.

"Ah, shit." He cursed.

"What?" Matt asked, confused.

"Look over there." Deeks nodded his head toward the bar. Matt followed his trail of vision and spotted a group of 5 people all sat at the bar.

"Isn't that… it isn't, is it?"

"Yep, just what I needed tonight." Deeks sighed; keeping his head down hoping the group wouldn't see him.

"Wow, mate. Sure looks like life has got it in for you." Matt chuckled sadly.

"Tell me about it…" Deeks mumbled, as his eyes locked with the one person in the room he really did not want to see right then.

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So I guess we all know whom Deeks has seen;) If you haven't then, all will be revealed in the next chapter. Please leave a quick review on your way out, if you wanna include anything you wanna see happen between them etc.

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