Chapter 3 – disaster strikes
Scully had been feeling ill, she had told me herself but she was trying to be strong and carry on as usual… we'd begun getting closer again, talking outside work and it was great…
She'd been off with Mulder in Oregon investigating abnormal stuff as usual but when they came back there was grave concern for her safety, it emerged they were taking abductees and of course Scullly was one… Mulder wanted to go back out but Scullly refused to let him go alone…. She forced hi to stay in the office with frohike, byers and Langley while she spoke to me… she dragged me into the office opposite mine and she broke down… I hugged her close, kissing her hair….
"Dana what's wrong? Talk to me?" she looked up at me,
"I'm ill and I'm scared for Mulder, he wont let me go back out to Oregon as I'm ill and an abductee, will you please go with him? I'm scared to let either of you go in case something happens" I was confused...
"Why would something happen to us?"
"To get to me... they know id come running if you or Mulder got hurt" she starts sobbing more and falls into me… I sit her down on a chair and kneel in front of her,
"Dana it'll be fine, ill go and look after Mulder, its not meant to be their long so well be back tomorrow" she wipes her face…
"But ill miss you" I'm surprised by this comment... but smile…
"Come here" I pull her into a hug… she pushes me back… I'm worried she puts her hand on my neck and pulls me into her lips… my self control runs away, and we kiss…. Deeply…like we used to…. I pull away and she rests her forehead on mine…..
"When your back I want to talk with you about….about… us" I'm surprised again, us… we'd not been an 'us' in a while….
"Ok Dana well do that, I promise" I go to stand but she grabs me into a kiss again…. I can feel the need in her…. I pull away
"Id better go or Mulder will wonder where I've got to" I stand and help her up…
We walk back into the room…. Mulder's practically jumping around…
"Can we go now?" he demands….
"Yes Mulder lets go get some stuff then well make our way" I say…
"Good I'm tired of waiting"
We all say our byes then we go to his to get his gear then onto mine… all loaded and ready we make our way….then it all goes wrong…
Mulder goes missing in the woods then he was gone taken in a spaceship... I swore I was dreaming…. Shit what do I do now?
I called Dana's mobile and frohike answered, he informed me that she had been taken to hospital as she had collapsed… my worst fears came to head, her cancer was back, she collapsed on me when she was bad with it… oww my god id just lost Mulder in Oregon now I was going to loose Dana….he told me she was conscious but under observation…. I kept calm and told him what had happened and told him to tell Dana and id be there as soon as possible…
I had to get back as soon as possible and I did, the next morning…
I arrived at the hospital and found her… I just wanted to die…. How could I tell her I lost Mulder when I promised her? Forget the talk about us id blown it now…
I walked in and she smiled… god I loved that smile… I tried to explain but she began to cry saying she knew and she was determined to find him again… I had to leave… I was suffocating…. As I got up she called to me
"Sir"… I was taken back… sir… sir…. Oh yeah we were in a professional environment….she was still upset but revealed something to me…. I wanted to die... I thought I was going to…
"I'm pregnant" what the hell…. Pregnant… I gave her our secret double nod which between us meant see you later… I walked out….
I got out of her sight and broke into tears… pregnant… so much was rushing through my mind…. Forget us... she's pregnant with Mulder's baby… it should be my baby... I was her partner… I was so close that night... if id not been a gentleman and let her pull away that could have been my baby... the one thing I've always wanted and not been able to have... Sharon was barren… why god why? I sat on the chair and put my face in my hands still crying when I felt a hand on my shoulder
"Mr Skinner are you ok? Is it Dana?" I looked up, then sat up it was Mrs Scullly I quickly rubbed my face…
"No, god no Dana is fine... she's in the room just there…." I pointed to her room…she looked puzzled…
"Then why are you so upset?" I couldn't tell her… either reason….
"Dana will explain why I'm upset… I cant speak it right now… was hard enough telling her…. Sorry Mrs Scullly" she put her hand on my shoulder again…
"I'm sure it'll be fine in the end whatever it is, ill see you later?" it was a question
"Yes Mrs Scullly I'm just off to change and ill be back once Dana's released" she nodded,
"Good I'm glad, your good for Dana" she patted my shoulder and walked into Dana's room...
Good for her... she's a joker... if only she knew why I was really crying... its defiantly not for Mulder… its because I've had my one dream taken away... again... a child... my own flesh and blood….
I just sat unable to move away... how could this of happened… hours passed and Mrs Scullly popped her head out
"Dana's ready to leave"
"Ok coming" I walked back into the room, Dana looked calm and ready for anything… she could see I wasn't ok though I tried to hide it….
Farewells to Mrs Scullly were said and I took Dana home….. I was quiet and I knew Dana didn't like it….when we arrived Dana got out and came round to my side….
"Get out" she demanded… I knew her temper and didn't want to meet it again…. I got out and she took m y hand and led me inside…. Once in we sat on her sofa…. She took my hands…
"Mum said you were crying in the hospital, and I know its not for Mulder as she half hinted at her so talk to me, tell me…." I shook my head
"No Dana I cant, this is the best day of your life and I'm not going into this now… I tried to pull away but she wouldn't let me…
"Walt, please… I want to be an us again... and I want to start properly" I shook my head again
"no Dana, Mulder's gone, its wrong, your carrying his baby, he at least has the right to know and be in its life,,, if I'm in your life it'll be hard and wrong…" I start to get upset... its killing me to say the baby is his but I cant tell her…Dana puts her hand on my cheek…
"Biologically its Mulder's but that doesn't mean I want him to play full time daddy to it once its born… he may never come back… "She's getting upset to….but continues
"I love you Walt and I want to try again… I know my pregnancy rubs my mistake in your face but I want you… also I need you, please" she's crying now and so am I…. I pull her into me….
"I love you too but lets take it slow… super slow... you have another life to consider now…." I move and look at her… she tries to smile but is too sad…
I move and put my lips on hers… I love kissing her and I know now she needs support and I'm reaching out to help her…..
This is going to be a hard journey for me, Dana and her baby…..
And it was just about to get worse…..